friendster-less and blogger-less na office :(

***buti naman at binalik na ng butihing IT ang FRIENDSTER sa office! woohooo! :)

anyway, so while i was browsing a friend's friendster account, nabasa ko yung blog nia about receiving flowers for her birthday. ang saya no? inggit nga ako eh, kasi i' ve never received flowers from anybody ever, birthday ko man or kahit walang occasion, haaay. hamfanget. ayyy! meron pala galing kay steffy last december 2003, white rose yun. andun pa rin sa house, lanta na sha hehe pero shempre iba pa rin yung makakatanggap ka ng flower from someone special no? wish ko lang bago man lang ako kunin ni lord eh may makaisip na bigayn ako ng bulaklak. so calling all bachelors out there, c'mon... hahaha joke lang :)

and if ever na bibigyan ako ng bulaklak gusto ko daisies na iba-ibang color OR peach long-stem na rose/s. take note of the letter S sa rose. haha kasi kung isang rose lang o isang dosena [or more..haha] kailangan long stem pa rin chaka bud lang yung gusto ko ha? so, there. anu ito nagaadvertise ba ako or something to that effect?! hehe wala lang, gusto ko lang naman i-share. oh well mukhang mga 7-10 liberty wireless days pa bago mangyare itOng kahibangang kong ito...

maiba naman tayo, today's jemai's birthday. [HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEMAI!!!] wala lang, ni-treat nia kami [at ang buong floor :)] ng pizza. sarap talaga 'pag libre! hehe give ko sha ng HALE na cd. hOpe he likes it, lam ko kasi one song lang naman yung type nia dun eh... ***

---> haaay. this entry was supposed to be posted on june 22nd but i didn't get the chance to do so dahil on that same day naging surf controlled ang BLOGGER. aba. nawindang lahat ng may blogger account sa office. ang ganda pa naman sana ng bungad ko sa entry ko na itO, BUT NOOO. binabawi ko na. yun lang. bwiset. and i am now updating my blog here sa hausy. kainis talaga!!! so, there.

"It's better to be hated for who you are, than to be loved for who you're not."

naman! :)

the true me.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies.

You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you make opportunities to interact with many people through club activities or a hobby, then select someone you like.

Who's the True You?

what do i think about my friends? :)

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Tenten is your soulmate.

You truly love Mabs.

You consider Pie your true friend.

You know that Tina is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Jemai for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Nina is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that JOSa is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Blee is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Blee changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Micht Dy is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Micht Dy has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

that thing called LOVE!

At dahil wala na naman akOng maikwento, naghanap na lang ako ng mga forwarded messages sa umaapaw na inbox ng yahoomail ko :) i found this e-mail from my bessie, TNA. i sure hope that i'll have this positive outlook about L-O-V-E in the near future. hahaha bitter ba itO? hindi naman mashadu! :) so mga peeps?! read on...

There was a time in my life when i became afraid to fall inlove. Because every time i fell in love,I got hurt. I thought maybe that's why it's called falling in love. I would give my all,loving deeply & wholeheartedly. It would be a truly emotional & euphoric experience. I would be dreaming about the object of my affection day & night, imagining good times together, thinking of what i can do or buy for him to show how much i care. I would feel light, energized & excited, blooming w/ the joy i feel inside.

Then somehow, something would go wrong & my whole world crashes. Disappointment. Resentment. Anger. Pain. Why? Can we not love without feeling pain? Is it really a price to pay for all the happiness we feel when we're in love? It was only after many years of soul searching & reading inspirational writings that i realized that we can love without getting hurt. Only recently did i understand what unconditional love is all about. Love is one is one of the most powerful forces in the universe. It is the fire that burns inside,the essence of being. It is a precious gift that defines our purpose in life. If we keep in mind that we can indeed preserve it's true meaning, we can love to the fullest & betruly happy. Accept the fact that the other people express their love differently. How do you express love? You say "I love you three times a day." You kiss & embrace as often as you can. You never forget anniversaries. You always prepare his favorite dishes. How does he express love? He rarely say "I love you." He seldom kisses you. He forgets your birthday & he doesn't know how to cook. But he works overtime, walks the dog, takes out the garbage, takes you to the movies & calls you "Honey." He just shows it differently.

If you can accept that, then you will have a healthier perspective of your relationship. Derive happiness from giving love. When you love, do it because you want to. Just give it. And cherish the satisfaction in having given something of youself. It's like giving a gift whether it's appreciated or not, find joy in simple giving.

Love without expecting anything in return. Pain comes in when you demand something in return for the love you give. You're setting yourself up for disappoinment. Love cannot always be reciprocal. Love between two people can never be of the same intensity at the same time & place. No matter how much your partner loves you, he'll never fill all your needs all the time. And you'll be waiting in misery forever, if you believe you should love only when you're sure to receive equal love in return. Love now. The past is gone & the future is just a dream. All of yesterday's aches & pains, as well as the loves & laughters, are mere memories. Let them go. Fantasies & worries are for a future that may never come. Don't dwell on them. Live now. Give love now. Do it & enjoy it now.

Throw away those destructive habits. When you insist upon yourself that you always have to be in control, that you always have to be right, that others must always please you, you put yourself in a very tight spot. Loving relationships are flexible. Dynamic & evolving. Leave room now for interaction. Allow for new behavior & learning experiences. When we welcome these in our lives we open ourselves to sharing more love & affection & less frustration & pain. Yes, you'll say unconditional love is easier said than done. Especially when we've always believed that love is give & take. But believe that love is simply giving. And you'll be surprised that a lot of it, even more, actually comes back to you.

Love is a gift. If you're given this gift, try to appreciate it & share it with others. If you haven't received it yet, don't be in a hurry to love somebody...because GOD is still wrapping that special gift for you.

***dear GOD,

ang tagal naman po ng gift ko... hihihi joke lang po, peace tau! :)

ang iyong anak,

tOwnie***

nasaan ka man...

i received an sms from jemai kaninang mga pass 7 am asking if i would like to go out and watch a movie. shempre gusto ko libre daw nia eh. hehehe kasi he answered a nokia survey something tapos he was given two movie passes. eh nung isang linggo pa yun nagyayaya manuod ng movie ni claudine, echo and diet, so i agreed to go. i checked for the movie's schedule and we decided to meet up at G4 cinema's starbucks around 5pm. tapos niyaya ko na yung ibang mga saturday group. mabs and steffy couldn't make it, but tenten and josa agreed to come. surprised nga ako nung magtext si abi saying that she will come too kasama si francis. so there, jemai was the first one to show up, tapos sila abi and francis tapos akO. hindi na nga lang sumama yung 2 kasi mashadu na daw late kung 8pm na matatapos yung mOvie, morning shift kasi sila :) anyway so aun nuod kami, nakaktuwa kasi kahit suspense ang movie tawanan kami ng tawanan dahil sa mga side comments ng bawat isa. in fairness napapaiyak na ako sa mga nakak-touch na scene biglang magpapatawa naman si jemaima hay nako nawawala ang momentum. etO pa, sobrang kabado na kami sa isang scene biglang tumunog yung cellphone ni tenten na napaka-creepy ng sound. yung tipong kala mo ang lapit-lapit lang nung screen. maiisip mo na, "ganito ba talaga yung dolby surround and shit na yan?" langya cellphone lang pala. haaaay. tenten next time ha? i-silent ang phone! hahaha all in all, masaya. i enjoyed the movie. i lOved it! as in.

sana maulit ulit. hahaha :0)

at shempre pa nagdaan ang weekend so malamang kwento galore na naman ang gagawin ko. hehehe 'twas a fun weekend...

saturday, june 18th

christina's baby shOwer

hintay ko si jemai 'gang end shift nia ng 9am. while waiting sing-along kami sa station nia to the tune of many songs. hehehe so sensha na sa mga nagambala ng mala-anghel naming mga tinig! :)

then after an hour nung bukas na ang glorietta, gora na kami ni jemai dun to buy the crib. as jemai stated in his blog, kawawang taga-bitbit ng crib dahil mula SM go sha hanggang g3 basement kasi dun ako naka-park. okei na rin kasi binigyan ko naman sha ng P3000 na tip. ay! sobra ng dalawang zero. hehe P30 lang pala. so aun, after that malling lang kaming dalawa 'gang maisipan ni jemai magpagupit, pinilit-pilit din nia akong magpagupit, naisip ko naman pwede rin since april pa ung last kong haircut. so punta kami sa david's, shampoo ever and all. aba, ang jemai matatapos ng gupitan, ako nagbabasa pa rin ng magasin looking for a nice hairstyle. yun pala ang magaling na mag-gugupit ng buhok ko ay hindi pa tapos sa isa pa niang client. i was informed naman about it kaya lang ang sabi sa akin nung una "saglit lang po ma'am, hindi pa kasi tapos yung mag-gugupit sa inyo." MALAY ko naman na yung saglit sa kanya eh kalahating araw pala. haaay nakow... so ayun ang ending ay nagpashampoo lang ako sa david's at dahil 1pm na we have to leave makati to jemai's house for tina's baby shower. at take note hindi naman ako nakatulog, nagbasa lang ako ng book! at dahil dumating na ang mga bisita tuloy-tuloy na rin ako. walang patumanggang kwentuhan at tawanan ang naganap. then at around 9pm, after naming mag-ligpit ng kalat umuwe na kami. hinatid ko si tiNa at yOng hanggang sa VILLAMOR airbase. at around 1030pm i'm home na. i didn't sleep right away kasi pinakinggan ko yung cd ni j.Lo na bigay sakin ni tEntEn and jemai. [thanks guys! muah.]

sunday, june 19th

john's home!!!

my good friend abby's husband arrived at 7am last sunday from san jose,CA. shempre excited ang lola ko that she invited our circle of friends over at their house. nanay, as always cooked food for all of us. hmmm sarap! [but before that, at around 2pm i got my nails done with my bessie tNa in imus. i have to say, malas 'ata ako sa mga parlor sa mga panahon ngayon dahil ang dilemma ko naman sa parlor na pinuntahan namin eh super bagal nung manicurista! as in. grabe sa kabagalan. haaaay halos makatulog na ako sa upuan ko! anyway so aun na nga, naka-salang ako dun i think mga 230pm natapos sha 415pm na! grabe diba?! i met up with tsikee naman in sm kasi we're going to abby's nga by dinner time. ] as usual, tsikee and i arrived there first, hindi pumunta si tina kasi she has work, si olai and kuya francis naman wasn't able to make it kasi they have to go to makati pa. we waited for marge and richard then off we go to tagaytay for coffee. treat ni john. yehey! :) chit chat, asaran and all. masaya. aun. 230am na yata ako nakauwe. so, there.

i had a jam packed weekend, but i didn't mind. at least i was able to spend time with my friends. i'm looking forward for next week's adventure! hahaha

i have worth you know...

i received this e-mail from a dear friend in college. and i think i have to share it with you especially to those women who tends to forget their worth. [ouch! ako ba yun?! hehehe] so read on...

WOMAN

By the time the Boss upstairs made woman, He was into his sixth dayof working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?"

And the Boss answered, "Have you seen my specs sheet on her?" She has to be completely washable, but not plastic; has over 200movable parts, all replaceable; able to run on diet coke and leftovers; have a lap that can hold four children at one time; have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart; and she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish."

"But I won't," the Boss protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days.

"The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Boss." "She is soft," the Boss agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?" asked the angel. The Boss replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate.

"The angel then noticed something and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one." "That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!" "What's the tear for?" the angel asked. The Boss said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride."

The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Boss. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing." And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love, and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when theythink there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring love, joy and hope. They have compassion, faith and ideals. They give moral support to their family, friends and others.

Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY sometimes FORGET THEIR WORTH.

ang camper at si judy ann santos

i'm feeling a lot better now :) kaya lang i'm almost an hour late. sheesh. i overslept. oh well that's life. sayang wala pa sana akong late or absence for the month of june, so goodbye performance bonus! haaaay.

sana restday na. di bale 2 days na lang at pahinga na rin sa mga crappy calls na yan. hmmm, anu ba ang gagawin ko this weekend? ay oo nga pala we are going to ps.ccasintahan's baby shower which will be held at jemai's place. so puyatan galore na naman ito.

wala akong maisip na magandang i-share so isusulat ko na lang yung kinuwento ko kay jemai kahapon about my funny experience about judy ann santos and a camper. hahaha sana igalang niyo pa ako pagkatapos niong mabasa ito. well, most of my friends know this kwento na but to those na hindi pa, maloka kau....

incoming 2nd year college student ako nung mga panahon na yun. i have long hair and op cors tabaching ching like i always was. tapos may paintball competition kami nuon sa batangas. so convoy lahat ng mga sasakyan ng players papunta sa site in matabungkay, batangas. one of dad's teammates owned a camper. dun ako nakasakay. so, feel na feel ko naman. shempre first time kong sumakay sa car na ganun. may iba rin akong mga kasama, mga players din na uber kukulit. while we were on our way to the site shempre nagtataka yung mga tao bakit andaming sasakyan na dumadaan. mejo rough road na kasi dun chaka i don't think na umaabot pa ang dyaryo sa lugar na yun hehe. in short, isolated area na sha. eto na sumilip ako sa sun roof nung sasakyan tapos may isang batang lalaki na ewan ko ba kung duleng o malabo lang talaga yng mata nia at pagkakita sa akin biglang nagsisigaw ng... are you ready for this? "SI JUDY ANN, SI JUDY ANN!!!" aba edi shempre naloka ang lola nio no, bigla akong nagtago. at nagulat na lang kaming lahat nung may mga grupo na ng tao na sumusunod sa amin. juskopo! hindi ko tuloy alam kung tatawa ako o magagalit ako dahil tinawag akong judy ann. hahaha sumunod sila hanggang sa makarating kami sa site. malamang inaakala nila na may shootong or something lyk dat! haaay hindi ako nakababa ng mga isang oras dahil natatakot akong ma-disappoint sila or baka bigla na lang nila akong pagbabatuhin at sigawan ako ng "FRAUD!!!" hahaha so, there. funny noh?! and if you're asking kung ano ang ending ng istoryang ito, ayun may ilang nagtiyaga na maghintay pero nung makita na ako parang pinagtampuhan ng bigas at umalis na lang. hehehehe

*grabe sana nararamdaman ni manong na uber lamig na ng buong floor, nagkukulay talong na 'ko sa ginaw deadma pa rin sha.

my gawd! i feel bad today :(

so, there.

this is my bOo. don't have a name for him yet.

got any ideas?! Ü

the weekend that was

darn. back here at work. ang corny. the only good thing about reporting for work today is that i'll be able to update my blog. hahaha hosha sige na nga and to see my friends in the office na rin... hihihi anyhow, masaya naman last weekend kahit nakakapagod. read on....

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saturday, june 11,2005.
531am endshift, release. saraaaap ng feeling! restday na! grabe. tenten, jemai, steffy and i went to GREENHILLS and shop our hearts out! ehehe, well sila lang pala. i just got myself new pair of blue shoes. yep! - AGAIN :) my mom's like: "ano ka ba? puro ka sapatos! si imelda ka ba?!" i can only laugh at her silly comments... CHOS. anyway so aun na nga shopping galore sila kahit pagod na't puyat sige lakad lang ng lakad, naghahanap na pagkakagastusan; damit, sapatos, bag at kahit gamit sa bahay tinignan din namin. oh well, wish ko lang may pambili ako ng bagong kama at ng bean bag unfortunately, wala. hehehe so window shopping na lang itO. i was going to buy this wooden divider slash picture frame worth less than a thousand pesos pero dahil umiral na naman ang kakuriputan na nananalaytay sa dugo ko, nagbago ang isip ko at ngayon nagsisisi na sana pala binili ko na. haaay. kainis. tapos after shopping we decided to stop by jemai's house para makitulog. and by 530 or 6pm we went home. then at around 730pm nakarating na ako ng cavite. by 9pm tulog na ang beauty kows...

***

sunday, june 12,2005.

7am, gising na ako. may nag-text kasi. so i went downstairs to greet my mom and dad good morning. hehe tapos shempre kwentuhan while eating breakfast. tapos akyat ulit sa room ko at nagemote to the tune of NINA live! haha and yes, nakatulog ulit. hihihi hanggang may nagtext ulit para yayain akong mag-swimming. it was my bestfriend TINA. she was invited by her boyfriend's sister to go swimming in INDANG, Cavite and she wanted me to come with her. shempre go lang ang lola since rd naman walang gagawin. call time is 1pm, so i decided to go malling muna for kikay stuffs. wala na ngang pera nakuha pang bumili ng mga stuffs-stuffs na iyan : ) anyway, so mga 230pm aba! at wala pa rin ang sundo ko na nagsabi i should be ready by 1pm. tsk, sabi ko na nga ba hindi ako naniniwala na 1pm talaga ang oras ng lakad na yun. by 3pm tina and atong arrived, mejo high blood na yung ibang kasama sa outing sa tagal ng paghihintay at ang ending?! hindi na kami tumuloy. haaaay. sayang, tinodo ko pa naman ung outfit ko. hahaha pang-summer-sa-tagulan-kinda- look : ) pero ayos na rin kahit hindi natuloy kasi bonding kami ni tina. we were together the whole day hanggang kinabukasan kasi sa house sha natulog.

***

and now, monday, june 13,2005 at 259pm EST..my life went back to normal, taking calls and BS-ing. haha! sana endshift na ulit!!!

and tOni strikes again!

omg! i did it again! grrrrr. for the nth time, nakalimutan ko na naman kung saan ako nagparada ng sasakyan kanina. haaaay. alam nio ba kung saan ako nagpunta? sa GLORIETTA. juskopo. nakakahiya man but yes, nawala na naman ang lola nio kahahanap sa maduming maroon na pick-up. hindi ko na naman naalala kung saan ko sha huling iniwan. i hate when this happens. feeling ko ang tanga-tanga ko. sabi ko nga kay steffy, i feel that i have no sense of direction - literally and figuratively. i feel dumb and stupid. nakakahiya sa kasama ko.

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must be wondering why on earth am i in glorietta? to think na may work ako by 830pm. well nagmaganda lang naman akong manuod ng sine kasama si jemai. with three hours of sleep, i went there. si jemai naman as in walang tulog. kawawa naman si honee bee. hyuk hyuk hyuk. so there, nagkita kami past 3pm. nag-malling muna kami, checked out shoes, crib [for tina's baby] and other house stuffs. ang gaganda lahat wala naman akong bahay or should i say wala naman akong pambili. hihihi tapos we watched MR. and MRS. SMITH, in fairness, ang ganda nung movie! wish ko lang kasing ganda ko si angelina jolie BUT NO, angelina jolina ang dating ko compared to her : ) after the movie mejo hilo na kaming dalawa sa antok so we decided to stop by starbucks and buy ourselves iced coffee para magising.

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eto na ang dilemma... bumaba kami from g4 cinema to basement sa pag-aakalang andun ang marumi kong pick-up, nahilo na kami kahahanap dahil alam ko sa may B2J ko sha pinark. nandamay pa kami ng security guard para hanapin ito. sobrang nahihiya na kaya ako kay jemai kasi pagod na pagod na sha antok na antok pa tapos nahahaggard pa sha sa paghahanap. tapos naisip ko na baka naman sa ibang basement ako nag-park. to make the long story short, mali nga ako ng parking na tinitignan. hambobita noh?! kainis talaga. but good thing i was able to find that freakin' truck and drove safely to the office. akala ko ma-lelate kami but no, i was 30 minutes early. yehey. so aun. ang engot ko no? so ngayon as i am writing this entry eh bangangers ako. but i don't mind. today was actually a fun day. first date ito. hahaha so, there.

survey

i got this survey from my good friend francis. read on.

Three names you go by:

1. tOni [close friends call me by this name]

2. antOnette [mga hindi ko shadu close nung gradeschool & highschool]

3. kapuso [dito nauso un sa opis]

Three screen names you have had:

1. DJ tOwniE [ when i was a radio announcer in a local radio station in cavite]

2. sweetpea [lagi kong call sign sa mga chatroom]

3. anne [binibigay kong name ko when i don't want to give my real name, hehe]

Three physical things you like about yourself:

1. smile

2. eyes

3. un lang.

Three physical things you don't like about yourself:

1. obvious

2. naman

3. da barge?!

Three parts of your heritage:

1. filipino

2. chinese

3. mukha akong haponesa [mukha lang..]

Three things that scare you:

1. FROGS!!! eeeew

2. snakes

3. clown figurines

Three essentials:

mobile phone

2. wallet

3. my car hehe

Three things you are wearing right now:

1. my new baby blue sweatshirt [thank you market, market!]

2. my favorite blue aqua shoes [salamat sa NIKE]

3. maong pants [thanks to sm]

Three of your favorite bands or musical artists:

1. Mariah Carey

2. mymp

3. j.lO

Three of your favorite songs: recently..

1. hold you down - j.LO

2. tell me where it hurts - mymp

3. we belong together - MC

My recent activities:

1. magbreakfast kasama ang mga opismates ko

2. gumala tuwing saturday kasama rin ang mga opismates ko

3. blogging

Three things you want in a relationship:

1. friendship

2. trust

3. oo na ginaya ko si francis, heart : )

Two truths & a lie: (in no particular order)

1. push over

2. high maintenance

3. matipid

Three physical things about the preferred sex that appeal to you:

1. eyes, gusto ko sana yung singkit

2. smile

3. un lang.

Three of your favorite hobbies:

1. mag drive... down south lang ha? hehe

2. matulog

3. videoke

Three things you want to do really badly now:

1. mag-diet [har har har]

2. mag-bakashon

3. matulog!

Three careers you're considering/you've considered:

1. maging MTV or MYX veejay! hehehe

2. interior designer

3. career in advertising

Three places you want to go on vacation:

1. palawan

2. new york

3. kahit sa haus lang...

Three kid's names you like:

1. althea

2. julia

3. harvey

Three things you want to do before you die:

1. mag-ride sa space shuttle ng mga limang sunod sunod

2. mag-race kalaban si schumacher

3. magkaroon ng live album -- hehehe

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:

1. pabago-bago ang isip

2. iyakin sa mga drama na movies

3. mahilig sa kikay earrings

Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:

1. maton maglakad [im trying to change that! ang hirap...]

2. mahilig mag-sneakers

3. driver

Three celeb crushes:

1. BEN AFFLECK

2. jay-r [hehehe]

3. hayden christensen

Three people that i would like to see take this quiz now:

1. tenOn

2. jOsa

3. stEffy

so, there : )

huli man daw at magaling -- HULI pa rin!

akala ko late na naman ako, paano ba naman 7pm na ako gumising. so lipad ever na naman ang lola nio to makati. fortunately, wala mashadong traffic and i was able to report to work about 10 minutes early. whew! there goes my schedule adherance : )

sabi nga nila huli man daw at magaling -- HULI pa rin haha! myro called me yesterday to greet me happy birthday. hmmm surprisingly wala akong reaksyon. chos. nagmamalaki na ba ito? hindi naman, ganun talaga eh. oo nga pala para sa mga ON -TIME bumati nung birthday ko, thank you : ) to those who celebrated my special day with me thank you, thank you talaga. i never thought that a lot of people loves and cares for me. haaay. so kahit hindi na muna ako magka-boyfriend ng mga one year ulit! hehehe [wag naman].

i may sound crazy but i never thought i will say this, but the thought of leaving my current account [LW! SOLID. haha] breaks my heart. swear. oo na BS na kung BS ang account na kinabibilangan ko, to the point na muntik na akong mag-resign sa inis at frustration but NO! nandito ang mga kaibigan ko. mga kapamilya. oo na, mga kapuso hindi kinaya ng powers ko na umalis. nung isang linggo, napaiyak pa nga ako sa sobrang takot na itapon ako sa ibang mundo. ayoko kaya. the thought of leaving my friends behind, not seeing them on a regular basis really breaks my heart. chaka dito, at home ako. naks. totoo! magmula sa account manager [ehem, hahaha] , TM, supervisors, SMEs, QA, trainers at shempre ang mga katoto kong eREP lahat sila friend ko, love ko. ngayon ko nga lang naisip na kaya ko naman pala tiisin ang hirap dito long as i have my friends with me. winner da varge? babae nga ako, pabago-bago ng isip. but that's my privelege. i'm entitled to it. it's my right. hehehe so, there.

june 3, 2005

salamat.

iyan ang masasabi ko sa mga taong nagmamahal sa akin. hindi ko inaakala na marami pala kayo na nagmamahal sa akin, touch ako grabe. hindi naman pala ako nag-iisa. hindi naman pala tama na isipin kong wala akong kasama sa buhay na ito.

salamat dahil naalala ninyo ang kaarawan ko, kung hindi ninyo naitatanong, sobrang ligaya ko ng araw na iyon.

sana hindi kayo magbago. mahal ko kayo.

realizations galore...

hay nako let it reap. i'll just go with the flow. i have another great year ahead of me, i can feel it! [ well sana lang tama ang feeling ko] i will TRY not to worry too much. after all, i'm still young. i know i can manage. ako pa?! si 2Ni? hah! watch and learn... : )

i'll be turning 24 on friday. am i excited? oo naman coz i'll be celebrating this special day with my close friends and family. hindi sha tulad ng mga dati kong birthday parties na imbitado ang buong angkan namin at barangay! [hehehe shempre nagpapaka-eksaherada lang ako...] this time pinili ko lang ang mga tao whom i'll celebrate my birthday with. some of my good friends in the office, my family and my highschool bestfriends!

na-realize ko lang, tama si tenten at tina pati na rin ang daddy ko, that i should not be in a hurry. tama lang na magplano para magkaroon ng direksyon ang buhay. i need to enjoy my life habang bata pa ako. hindi ko dapat pine-pressure ang sarili ko na tuparin ang lahat ng pangarap ko't plano sa buhay sa ganitong edad dahil baka tumanda ako ng maaga. i need to try and live life as it is. huwag gawing komplikado ang mga bagay na simple lang, huwag hayaang maapektuhan ng mga komento ng ibang tao na hindi naman akong lubusang kilala, iwasan din ang pamumroblema sa mga problema ng iba... [naku i can hear tina saying; 'yeah right!' haha] i can't promise to do it religiously but i promise to try.