It's a Girl Thing

Do you ever feel like you're a totally different person when that "time of the month" is upon you? Oh I'm sorry boys, this is completely girl talk - unless you have ladies in your life then you might be able to relate. So, anyway, I asked because I am one of those people whose hormones are through the roof when "that time of the month" is in. You know what? I don't like it but I can't help it.

Or can I? I honestly don't know. Look, all I know is that it's very tiring and frustrating. It affects not only me but also the people around me. Heck, it even affects my work sometimes- that's when it gets really bad. You see, my mood quickly shifts from good to bad to good again to worse to better. It's friggin' exhausting. My boyfriend will probably laugh when he hears me complain about being exhausted during "these times" because my mood changes directly impact him. Oh, well. Sorry, Booboo Bear. 😘

I usually just drink a lot of (cold) water and watch the Golden Girls if I can. Those put me in a better mood. Oh, another is this Youtube video of Jimmy Fallon and Kevin Hart riding a rollercoaster in Orlando, Fl. Friggin hilarious. But what works most of all is to take a deep breath and just relax for a few minutes. Try and realize that it's just a bad energy that consumes you and it can be converted to a rather better, happy energy. Hey, I'm just glad I don't get cramps all the time because that is a totally different story. I just get the what I call the "meepees".

Be that as it may, I'm still going forward to make the most of my day and hopefully tomorrow I am back to my old, happy self! 😊

-T

Copy Writing Dilemma

Should I explore copy writing?

My bestfriend is launching her brand new website soon and  about 3 weeks ago, she has asked me to write her a copy. At first, I was like, uhm copy? I don't even know what she was talking about. All she said was she will send me details and notes and she knows I love writing and that I know her "tone" in terms of expressing it in written form. We have a very similar "tone" I might add. Still, I didn't have any clue what she was asking of me.

Obviously, I asked her what she wanted me to do and told me - a copy write. Honestly, at that point I still have no clue as I'm not very familiar with copy writing. 😋 However, I love how she sounded super excited and super sure that I can do it that I started researching about it. The funny thing is, I have been doing it all along- copy writing that is. Here on my blog. That's not to say I did very good hahahaha, but I was and still is doing it.

Needless to say for weeks now I have been feeding my brain with any information I can get about it and the more I learn the more I get excited. I have been dreaming of getting an online side job that I can work on during my free time and days off. This way, I don't just lounge around and be unproductive instead, my brain cells will get to work and make extra cash on the side. Not bad at all.

I knew it wasn't an accident at all that I thought of writing here again. Now if only I can stay consistent. Hehehe. So far I have been good. I'm glad. One thing is for sure, I will continue to learn about copy writing and put it to good use.  

Well, I think I already answered my question above. YES.

-T

Morning Thoughts

It's a cold Tuesday morning people! It's supposed to be Spring already- since March 21st. But noooo, it snowed yesterday and another snow day on Friday. I think Mama Nature is a little stressed. 😣

I had a good sleep all thanks to my fresh sheets and brand new shams and duvet cover hahaha! Although, I had a very weird dream, which happens to all my dreams apparently. Last night I dreamt of a friend of mine who is already with our creator. You would think it's a nightmarish kind of dream. It's actually not. It was... hmmm, regular. Like he never really left. I'm just glad to have seen him "alive" again I guess. I pray that wherever he is, he is having the grandest time. 😊

As odd as that may seem, it made me appreciate having been able to wake up this morning. I don't know if it has anything to do with that or I just simply had enough sleep. Whatever it is, I am still thankful for this day that I am able to wake up, get up and dress up to brave another day. 

-T

Fast Forward to 2018

Whoa. So... 3 years. It's been that long since I last written on here. I am glad this platform is still available for me to go back to if and when I feel the urge to write anything. So let's try this again shall we? 🤣 

First off, Mabuhay! Second, a lot has happened since my last attempt to revive this blog. My oh my, a lot has changed. For one I am writing this from my phone! When I created this blog it was from my computer at work all those eons ago. I still read some of my old posts and giggle at my own ridiculousness and gramatical errors. 😎 Reading my past stories makes me realize how much I improved as a person and how my adventures and misadventures have grown as well. 

This year I really intend to fill these pages again with my daily experiences and hopefully impart some lessons along the way. I think this is a better way to spend my comute rather than ogle at Facebook and feel jealous because everyone in my life seem to be having a great time. It's not that I am not happy. I think for the first time in a long time I can say I am happy. Hahahahaha OMG. I guess no matter how many years pass by, there are still some things that never changes - my dramas. Well, I ain't called Drama Queen for nothing. 👑 

With that, I welcome you to my life...or at least the one I let you take a look at. Happy Monday! 

-T 

Why Am I Still Single?

At this day and age, being 33 (going on 34 in the next few months) and single begs someone to ask - "Why are you still single?"

The answer is simple.

I really have not found "The One".

After all, I have not waited this long only to give my precious heart and unfailing affection to someone who isn't willing to give their precious heart and unfailing affection to me in return. I deserve that, we all do.

And it's not that I have not tried to look for this special person in my life. Believe me, I did. I even tried something I thought I'd never go for in my lifetime- online dating. It was an interesting experience, unfortunately not good enough. At least for me. I have been set-up for a blind date too. It was nice. Point is I made myself available by going out in the dating world.

I have gone out on dates, seen movies, walked in the park, been on coffee dates, wine night outs, fooled around - unfortunately nothing. Honestly it has been very exhausting and sometimes not being successful had me thinking that maybe I wasn't really girlfriend material. I wasn't good enough. But that is just ridiculous. Of course I am enough.Then it hit me. My love story is still on going. Something is bound to happen in that aspect of my life. Something meaningful and lasting. I just have to wait patiently. After all, why would God give me to someone who isn't worthy of my love? Right?

Just thinking about that day when I meet "The One" give me the chills and the feeling of excitement of a happy heart! Finally, I will never have to spend year-round occasions alone, build a home full of love, laughter and sumptuous cooking. Someone with whom I can share my dreams with, someone to walk this journey with.

While I know that waiting for Mr. Right is actually not a walk-in-the-park easy, I've always believe that one day, someday we will cross paths; a strong feeling of faith that gives me peace and helps me stay focused on being the right woman for my Mr. Right.

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Day 1 of The Single Woman's 30-Day Blog Challenge. 

Stranded on Hope

I reached out for my phone, tapped on the Spotify app, selected a playlist and boom! A very familiar song started playing (at random mind you).

So tonight, my inspiration for writing this blog post is brought to you by Jennifer Paige's Stranded. The song is very apropos considering what I am really thinking about sharing on here at the moment.

You see, I am in love. The problem is, it's unrequited. Yep. I know. Story of my life. It has been since forever. I don't know why I haven't learned. Or maybe I did learn but I am just way too stubborn and think that keeping the feeling albeit not reciprocated, would somehow turn things around. But then I knew at the back of my head how this story is going to end...that I will end up feeling miserable for weeks...okay, months. Fine. Sometimes years. Ugh.

I don't know why I see my situation now any different from my past unrequited loves. I mean, he made it very clear to me before I left that he is NOT going to wait for me until I am back. That he DOES NOT do long distance relationships because he's been burned before. And to top it all, HE IS ALREADY SEEING SOMEONE. So, what's wrong with you, Toni?!! 

Okay, I'll be honest. HOPE. Probably the same reason why I have let myself drown in misery in the past too. But this time for some reason, I have a strong feeling in my heart and gut that tells me, we're meant to be together. And as far as I know this is the first time I have felt this way about someone who shut me down. Crazy, right?! 

As of this writing, my mind isn't only looking for words to write but is also thinking about what might happen as soon as we see each other again. Oh yes, I know WE WILL see each other again. I am very sure of that. I'm excited, but also very scared.

At night before I sleep, when I am in my most vulnerable state, I always tell myself that if I see him again, I can finally move on with my life. Move on WITH or WITHOUT him. And every time I do that, my head play these wonderful moments of US. Unfortunately, these moments are only results of my imagination.

Now why do I strongly feel that we belong together? Because... why not?! Seriously. We didn't have much time spent together but I saw the way he looked at me. I really felt there's something. Other people think I might just be hallucinating (and honestly, sometimes I'm inclined to agree! haha!), but I don't think so. This feeling I have is much too strong to be just hallucination. Whatever it is, I will know soon enough. Afraid!

"These tears are turnin' me to rust. I know, you're waitin' there for me to come back. I'm too afraid to show..." ~ Jennifer Paige - Stranded Lyrics; MetroLyrics

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A Look Back to Go Forward

It has been a while since I last wrote something on here- 2 years and 7 months to be exact but who's counting? Now I wonder what have I been doing in the last 2 years? Interesting. Let's see.

The last blog entry I posted was dated 27th August of 2012. I clearly remember around that time I said, no I promised myself that I will attempt to write again. Writing, although not really a talent of mine, helps me in a lot of ways. It makes me think and re-think things. Things in my life. And by things I mean decisions, choices and aspirations. 

I think looking back is going to be fun. 

(Mid) 2012

Now I have to make use of my Facebook page to help me remember what transpired during this year. 

I remember this was the year I realized what I want to do with my life, actually, more like where I want to go...but I will blog about that for later. 

Anyway, the highlight of this year was when I was given the chance to implement an account for my former employer. The company flew me to our clients' headquarters in Las Vegas, NV for training. So many firsts on this trip- first to fly alone, first to train a group of 50 people whose first language is English. Totally nerve-wracking. First time in Las Vegas. It was a surreal experience. 

2013

All I remember about 2013 was that it was the hardest of times for me and my loved ones. We had to go through a major shift in the way we live, our faith was shaken and tested. I for one almost broke down. It was a tough year but together with my family we were able to get through it. I never knew I have that kind of strength. It's true what they say, you will never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. 

Despite it all, I'm glad we went through the hard times. It made me stronger, smarter and most importantly full of hope. 

2014

This has been the most liberating year for me. I traveled half the world and had a marvelous experience to boot. The year I was able to live my dream. I went to New York and lived there for half of 2014. The best. 

The year where I realized what I had in me to survive such a fast-paced life, with the most impatient and rushed people in the world. Considering that I am the most laid back person I know in this lifetime.  

After what seemed like a thousand years, I fell in love... again. It was too soon, I know- but I didn't care. My heart was and still is in love with the perfect guy. 

In the city, I felt free and happy. Free and happy to do all the things I want to do. The city has the kind of vibe where I felt like I can accomplish a lot and chase my dreams; bring them to life.

I am honored to have been given the chance to explore the most exciting city in the world.

My journey isn't over. Not until I say it's over. Because you see, I left my heart in New York. 

Another highlight of 2014 is my drastic career change. I delved into the world of freelance. I became a work-at-home person and so far it is a blast. I realized that there are more things to learn than what I already know from my 10-year stint in the corporate world. 

It has opened many doors for me- allowed me to think and re-think my priorities. It gave me the chance to plan for my (and my family's) future. It gave me a lot of time to take care of my self as well. And surprisingly, I am really good at it. 

And now, 2015 is finally here... it's been pretty exciting so far. So many plans, so many dreams that I want to pursue. I know I am going to have a fantastic year. My best year yet. 

For the first time in my life, I really feel alive!

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