PANGARAP KO.

Hindi na 'ko pinapatulog nito. Parati ko shang naiisip. Mahal ko na sha.

FRIENDS

... Can't you depend on me?

I want to laugh with you when you laugh..

When you're happy, I want to be happy with you...

When it's hard for you, I want to share the burden.

When you're in pain, I want to cry with you.

That's what a friend is, right?! Am I wrong?

~Mizuke

The battle between patience and pragmatism rages on today, without resolution.

Friendster Horoscope for October 26, 2007

The Bottom Line

The battle between patience and pragmatism rages on today, without resolution.

In Detail

Your heart wants one thing in your life right this very minute, but your head knows that it might not happen for a while. The battle between your impatient side and your pragmatic side will rage on today, with little (if any) resolution. This tension could cause you to lash out unusually at people who try to push your buttons. You will probably tell yourself it serves them right for trying to get you riled up, but in the end if you add to the animosity you aren't doing yourself any favors.

~VERY TIMELY.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

The movie's title was derived from a line of a poem by Alexander Pope entitled Eloisa to Abelard.

...How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

The movie was ok. It was not as good as I expected it to be but nevertheless I appreciate it. Sabi nga ni Jenjen, it wasn't the movie itself that made her watch this film but the procedure that was done on Kate Winslet and Jim Carrey, so naenganyo naman si Ako. hehehe Sabi nga sa tagline ng movie na ito: "This film is for those with a past they'd rather forget." Very catchy most especially for people like Jenjen and me. hahahaha So in short I went out looking for this film and as I said in my previous posts, I'll watch it. And I did. Yesterday before going to sleep. Inferness nakakatouch although medyo hindi sha ganun kaganda or malamang hindi lang ako marunong mag-aapreciate ng mga movie na hindi normal ang set-up. hihihi

As I was watching the movie, shempre iniisip ko sana nga totoo ngang may ganung procedure yung ipapa-bura mo sa isip mo ang isang tao o kahit anong pangyayare sa buhay mo tapos pagkagising mo from the procedure eh para talagang walang nangyare or wala kang nakilalang taong ganun. But as the movie progresses, I came to realize kahit ano pang pagbubura ang gawin sa utak mo if you are bound to meet the person ganun din, uulit lang. Gets nio?! hehehe What I mean is, halimbawa magpapabura ako sa alaala ko na isang tao na ayoko na makasalamuha sa habang buhay (hehehe, may poot?!) and let's say sucessful naman. Then one day makikita ko sha diba na hindi ko na sha kilala pero since he's (HE talaga hahaha) the same person, at alaala ko lang (sa kanya) naman ang nabura at hindi ang yung posibility na umulit yung naramdaman ko sa taong yun before eh di uulit lang ulit. So in effect, ganun din. Gumastos pa 'ko kamusta naman. hehehe So dapat idagdag sa procedure eh patayin din yung taong pinabura mo sa isipan mo. Davah?! hehehe Joke lang, morbid naman mashado. Well I guess what I'm trying to say is why risk and go through a procedure to forget someone when infact you know deep inside your mind and heart that, that person will always be a part of your life wether you like it or not at nasa iyo ang powers to set him/her aside of your life and move forward. Am I making sense? hahaha Oh well.

I'm glad I watched this film, may naidulot namang maganda sa akin. :P

Jemai's Work of Art (@our expense!)

We all know that Jemai has a knack for art and being creative. Kaya lang minsan yung pagiging creative nia eh kaming mga friends nia ang nagiging biktima! ahahaha Sometime 2005, ginawa nia 'tong mga spoof ng mga print ads. Ayan. hehehe Inferness ha, magaling.

Sana mahanap ko pa yung ibang ganito. hehehe

Thanks to Tenten for the picture, ninakaw ko sa isa sa mga blog posts nia. hehehe Grabe laugh trip kung laugh trip talaga.

Paint lang dati ang ginagamit ni fren well, well, well, ngayon photoshop na.

So there. :P

BESTINA

Wish ko lang mag-open ka ng Multiply mo para naman makita mo ito.

First of all, Happy, happy birthday to you!!!

Second, a BIG thanks to you for your love and friendship all 11 years of our lives. Aba eh sino naman ang mag-aakalang tatagal tayo ng more than a decade?! ahahaha Yuck isang dekada na ang nakakalipas!!!

Third, alam ko namang wala ka nang mahihiling pa ngayon sa buhay mo. You are very happy and I'm happy for you. You are blessed with a wonderful family and a loving husband. At shempre pa si Tia turtle! :P

All these years you have been a part of my life, we had our share of good times and shempre pa our short comings and I'm glad na nalalagpasan naman natin lahat yun. I am looking forward to many years more ahead of us. Sana dumating naman yung time na ako na yung binibigyan mo ng pointers sa panganganak. hahaha

Halabshuuu BESTINA. mwah. Friends for keeps.

The End.

Hay... So my "vacation" officially ended last friday. I'm now on my restday and I will be reporting to work (again) tomorrow night. I'm about to teach Class 5. BRING IT ON!!! I'm not excited to go back BTW. hehehe But I know I will die (literally) kapag hindi pa ako bumalik. I just realized that I am really bound to work my ass off if I want to survive the journey they call LIFE. Seriously.

Anyway, so a lot of my office friends are asking me how am I spending slash enjoying my "vacation". I always tell them it's not too shabby. First of all, like I metioned before, I don't have money to go somewhere fabulous, second... hmmm actually sa first reason ko pa lang damay-damay na lahat. hahahaha However, at least I am able to do and accomplish a few things that I can never attend to kapag may pasok ako.

Let's see how I spent those 5 sweet days...

Monday
I woke up early to go to the bank and have my check encashed. I met up with the "love birds" and ate breakfast after at Heaven and Eggs in G4. Buti na lang wala pang mga pagsabog na naganap nung mga panahon na yun. hehehe Then, since nagccrave kaming tatlo (mai, ced and moi) sa Krispy Kreme, we headed to Greenhills and ate KK there. SARAAAAP. Shempre malling here and there hanggang sa mapagod. But since I didn't have car that time, I can't go home ng mga 4pm. Masstuck lang ako sa traffic. Huwag na lang, so nagpaiwan na lang ako sa greenhills and I shopped by myself Buti na lang Jenjen went there. So we ended up buying the whole place. hahahaha EXXAGE. Joke lang. We shopped, ate, yosi and coffee there until around 915pm. I went home na pagod na pagod so I just slept. hahaha

Tuesday
Dapat punta ako sa LTO to have my DL renewed. Pero tinamad po ako mga friends! hahaha So i just stayed sa house and watched tv. Tapos natulog lang ng natulog. hahaha

Wednesday
I spent like half a day sa LTO. I also spent P150 for Drug test (negative btw, hehehe) P100 for medical exam and P277 for the liscence and other penalties. It was worth it kasi I got the ID agad. Then afterwards I went to SM Bacoor. Napabili na naman ako ng damit at libro. Grrr gastos! hahaha I also got my nails done.

Thursday
Sa wakas natapos ko na ang clearance ko and exit interview with PeopleSupport after 7 months!!! hahaha I woke up at 6am and I arrived there ng 9am, hintay ako ni Boss Ruel. hehehe I saw old friends and even my old station when I went there. Kakamiss inferness. Sayang hindi ko nakita ang Shared B trainers pero ok lang I'm sure magkikita-kita pa kami ulit, siguro pagnakuha ko na ang back pay ko. hahahaha I finished the clearance and exit interview a little early than I expected so I decided to swing by my old apartment and visited Pampam. Ayun kwentuhan galore kami about our lives. Catching up with the old times lang. Na-miss ko din ang apartment namin inferness, hay. Malapit lang ako sa malls at sa kahit anong galaan before. huhuhu Promise maghahanap na ako ulit ng apartment na close to work.

Then I met up with my bessie mai at Gateway to have a lunch date with him. Wala lang kwentuhan lang, picture picure, mawawala ba naman yun?! Tapos since ginagawa ang Starbucks Araneta (hehehe) Nag-dairy queen na lang kami. I bought a vcd copy of the movie, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind na up to this writing eh hindi ko pa rin napapanuod. hihihihi Again, I don't have a car that time so I had to wait till it's 9pm to go home na walang hassle ng trafik. I went home with Mai sa Tamblot (hahaha) then waited for him till he goes to work. In short sumama pa ako sa office. hahaha at buti na lang din dahil kamusta naman ang mga habilin ko parang walang nagagawa. hehehe Tapos I went home around 10pm. Ayun na nga dapat papanuorin ko sha pagkauwe ko kaso parang first part pa lang nung movie eh nakakabagot na. Maybe some other time na lang, hehehe.

Friday
Grabe nagising ata ako mga 1pm na. Pero good thing na rin kasi papunta naman si Best Tina sa Bacoor, therefore I can visit her there. I can't go to her in-laws kasi na walang dalang sasakyan eh, kamusta naman ang kalayuan. So, in short I went there and spent time with my Amerie and the whole Duenas household. Picture picture ulit. Sarap ng feeling, catching up with the old times and remenscing lang kami ni Tina. Talking about our lives and how fed up we are. hahaha Well inferness I really didn't have the heart to talk to Tina about my REAL sentiments kasi I don't want to bug her with my "dramas" anymore, she's super happy with her life and the least that I can do for her is to support and be happy as well. Hay so there. Pero enjoy talaga kasi sobrang madalang na kami magkita nun eh.

Then, when I got home from Tina's, shempre upload ng pics and all sa multiply ko, pero basta ang ending eh, nagpunta ako sa office because something is not happening. hahaha I'd rather not elaborate kasi nasstress lang ako. But everything is going well na this time (I HOPE) and sana wala ng aberya pagbalik ko bukas. PLEASE LANG.

So there. Yun lang, hehehe hindi sha talaga bakashon but I enjoyed doing things na pang normal na tao. hahaha As if. And I enjoyed sleeping at night and wide awake kapag may araw. Haaaay kelan kaya mauulit ito?

Friendster Horoscope for October 20, 2007

The Bottom Line

When your schedule frees up, check out that foreign film no one else wants to see.

In Detail

When your schedule frees up and presents you with a great big chunk of free time (and it will) today, be sure you have a good way to use it up! Try not to fritter away the hours with mindless channel-surfing, shopping or napping. You need a fun escapade you can enjoy by yourself. Take yourself to a nice dinner. Check out that foreign film no one else wants to see. Go get a massage. Whatever you do, try to use your extra time to treat yourself extra nice.

~Well, I think I need to follow what the stars are telling me to do.

...

I think I need to go back to work or else I wouldn't think twice on the thought of killing myself.

:(

Sometimes I just wish I was never born.

SABI NILA

Sabi nila be patient... Sabi nila HE'LL just come my way... Sabi nila dadating din sha when I least expect it, in an unexpected time and place... Sabi nila kasi naman it's too early for me... Sabi nila wala naman daw kasi akong ginagawa... Sabi nila hindi naman daw kasi ako lumalabas... Sabi nila mashado lang daw akong atat... Sabi nila mag-enjoy muna ako sa buhay ko... Sabi nila it's not yet my time... Sabi nila I'm not yet ready... SO, WHEN WILL I EVER BE???!

Lisenshado!!!

Finally! After 4 months of driving the streets of EDSA eh may lisensha na ako ulit!!! Yahooooo. Pwede na 'ko mamviolate ng traffic rules and regulations. hahaha JOKE lang. Anyhoo,I woke up around 7am to go to Imus LTO. Inferness hindi naman ganon ka-hassle although mas mahaba ang waiting time ngayon. It was worth it kasi I already got my DL ID! Dati you will have to wait for like half a year to get it eh... Haaaay. And I would like to thank those wonderful people in the Clinic (for medical exams) and they guy in the Drug Testing clinic for being very accomodating and friendly. Ang bwiset eh yung nasa picturan, hay nako kahit kelan talaga mga tao dun parang mga ewan, kasalanan ko bang maraming tao ang nagpapa-renew ng lisensha?! Oh well. Ayan ampanget ko tuloy sa lisensha ko. Hahaha at 3 years ulit bago 'to mapapalitan so there. :P

So, right after LTO, I went to SM and bought myself some stuff (ayus, kala mo daming pera) then I ate lunch and went home na rin. Grabe ngayon my head hurts. As in throbbing sha. I don't know what happened. I bought a book btw. Hahaha sana matapos ko sha, kasi naman 3rd day pa lang ng VL ko nauubusan na 'ko ng gagawin. Tomorrow morning I'll go to PS for clearance and exit interview then visit Dra. Calcena for tooth extraction. Then hopefully on Friday I can sleep over kina Tina. I wanted to watch the Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind... very timely kasi. Kaso ito namang si Tenten eh sinabi naman ang ending, kainis.

So far nageenjoy naman ako sa VL ko kasi nagagawa ko yung mga bagay na hindi ko magawa pag may pasok. I just wish that when I go back to work, rejuvinated na 'ko. Believe me, I'm really trying to motivate myself and convince myself na I'm doing good, that I'll be fine. Pero sometimes, it's really hard to put a big fat smile on my face kasi I know deep inside me I'm slowly dying... Ayun na drama na. Hay manuod na lang kau ng Apat Dapat; Dapat Apat. I SWEAR. Laugh trip talaga na may halong unting drama.

Hay, so there.

Temporary Freedom

Hay. Sa wakas. I'm (temporary) free from the hula baloos of the office. I'm excited. Finally I have time to do all the things that I want to do na hindi ko magawa-gawa kasi I'm sooo caught up with work. Nangunguna na jan ang pagpaparenew ko ng driver's liscence! ahahaha Sana walang MAPSA or BLUE BOYS na makabasa nito pero my liscence was officially expired since my birthday so nung June pa. hehehe Sorry naman. I'm not so very proud of it noh, pero ewan ko ba just thinking of the long line at mahabaaaaang waiting time sa LTO eh tinatamad na 'ko chaka please lang, the only time I have para gawin yun is after shift ko... so 7am onwards. Wag na lang... ahahaha but since I have all this week to do that I think before going back to work eh I can violate traffic rules again. hahahaha JOKE LANG.

Well I have a list of some things that I would like to do this week, nothing special though. Una sa lahat wala naman din akong money to go somewhere fabulous. So next best thing is to stay na lang in my fabulous room here in my parents' house. hehehe Pero malamang I'd stay a night or two with Tina, Tia and Atong. Ahahahah Sabit na naman ang inyong lingkod... Sayang I wanted to go somewhere pa naman but what can I do? haaaaay. I also plan of finally accomplishing my clearance and exit interview with PS, kasi medyo 7 months na 'kong resigned dun eh... hehehe And to get my back pay in time for christmas. SHOPPING! Syet. I promise myself that I will splurge and buy things for myself naman for a change. hehehe

Sunday slowdown ngayon, sarap mag-emote nito! hehehe Pero malamang makatulog lang ako. Or not. Baka topakin ako at umalis akong mag-isa, hay bahala na.

SUKLAM MODE

Hindi ko alam kung bakit naiirita na naman ako to think na ang saya saya ko pa before going here. SYET.

Someday

Sabi nga nila the saddest song ever written...

I need to stay away from sharp objects when I hear this song. haha

Someday

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You dont really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well i've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and i'm not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

And my 2:00 AMs will never be the same again....

Hahaha ok lang! Kasi 10:00PMs naman (or minsan 9pm hahahaha)

So there.