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OMIGOD! i was 20 minutes late last night.
grrrr.
well, thanks to PYRO OLYMPICS nagmistulang malaking parking lot ang macapagal avenue last night - AT! hanggang saturday po sha mga kaibigan. haaay isang malaking pagkakamali ang pagdaan ko duon kagabi. tsk. this was the first time in what? 2 years na natraffic ako sa lugar na yun. dun ako kasi dumadaan pagpapasok ako na may dala akOng car kasi tuloi-tuloi lang sha kahit mejo mahaba yung daan papunta ng buendia. oh no, no, not last night. mga almost one hour akO dun huhuhu. buti sana kung may inabutan pa kong mga fireworks! dahil past 9pm na nung dumaan ako, patapos na yung second country na nagpresent. talk about timing devarj? churi na boss marvin, peace tau. kasi naman late na rin ako nagising, 815-ish na ko nagising. i overslept. 10 hours ba naman? so, there.
well actually hindi yun ang dahilan ng pagsusulat ko ngayon hehehe intro lang yun :) itOng next kwento ang main chorva ng post na ito [main chorva? hanu daw??!] apparently may ginawa na naman akong kagagahan... hehehe akO pa?! read on...
after shift kanina nakiusap si jemai sa akin [churi fren kailangan ko shang ikwentO :P] kung pwede ko fax yung mga documents nia sa bank, shempre ok lang [lakas mo sa akin eh, hehehe]. so ayun when i got home, chika muna unti sa'king mga folks since hindi ko na sila nakakasabay magbreakfast. then after that i went up to my room and was about to fax the papers when i received a text message from him saying if i can go on line and check something for him. buti na lang wala ang kapatid kong ganid [hehehe] so, pwede kong abusuhin ang laptop nia. eto na noh, check ko daw transaction history nia and if possible print ko daw [wow? secretary?! hahahaha] so ayun na nga tinext nia yung card number nia pati PIN. ewan ko ba kasi i really have this funny feeling na i'm sure magkakamali sha sa binigay nia na number kasi duling yun sa mga numbers eh, basta. hehehe true enough, mali nga sha ladies and gentlemen. i figure that out nung mga twice ko na tinatry i-access yung transaction log nia, kasi sa atm namin lahat ng first 6 numbers pareparehO, tingin ko yung sa akin na atm well, well, well ang tingin nia sa 8 ay 3. hehehe in fairness mejo lapit naman... so try ko ulit, ayaw pa rin i have entered the wrong card number and pin please try again. so, tumawag na ako sa kawawang si fren na natutulog na pala para lang itanong ang card number nia, bigay nia sa akin, tanga ko naman hindi ko sinulat sa papel i was typing the numbers dun sa on line banking chorva-- ayun page cannot be displayed na. stress devarj?! hahaha pero kalmado pa ko sabi ko sige later na lang ulit.
eh kasi naman kapag may nakabinbin akOng gagawin, hindi ako matahimik, hindi akO makatulog. so ayun, try na naman si lowla sa on-line banking eclavoo.. nagbase pa rin ako dun sa sinend nia na card number pero tama na yung first 6 numbers, well akala ko lang tama BUT NOOOO. kasi hindi ko pa rin ma-access, sige nga isa pa.. nung third try kO, shet nawindang ako sa error message, kasi daw i entered the wrong card/pin, please contact your bank. GOSH. na-block ko yata ang pin!!! paloka talaga. hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko kasi i'm sure babalatan ako ng buhay ni jemai [shempre exxage lang] kapag nalaman nia, so i have no choice but to tell him, tawag na naman ako eh nananaginip na 'ata churi na... ok lang daw, whew! pero shempre guilty galore na naman ako, hindi problem yung pera kasi marami namang pera yun eh [hehehe] ang iniiwasan ko kasi yung abala na punta ng bank, fill out nito, verify nun. pila here, pila there. yung ganun.
teka ha, ang tagal ba ng punch line?! hehehe para gets nio kinuwento ko ang pinagugatan ng lahat, hahahaha eto na...
sobrang nagaalala ako tumawag ako sa bank, para itanong kung bloked nga ba ang PIN or what, kung anu gagawin and all that. shox naalala ko hindi nga pala sa akin 'tong card so i'm sure they'll be asking for verification... i was thinking tutal i know his date of birth naman, middle name chaka address so keri lang. so press 0 daw for an atm representative. in fairness hamfanget ng hold music, hehehe buti na lang ala pang 5 minutes may sumagot na.. i didn't catch her name eh so eto na nga noh:
rep: hi good morning this is ___ how may i help you?
me: hi question lang,kasi i was trying to access my transaction history online.. kapag po ba naenter ko three or more times yung wrong card number or PIN mabablock po ba 'yung PIN ko?
rep: opo ma'am.
me: oh no... mga ilang days kaya yun?
rep: kapag inapply nio ngayon, mga three days po bago mag-reset.
me: [sa isip lang: HUWAAAAAAT?!] ah ganun ba? paano po kaya yun?
rep: transfer ko po kau sa branch nung atm nio.
me: sige sure
---hold music na fanget--
rep2: good morning how can i help you?
me: [explaining the same thing.. grrr]
rep2: sige po icheck po natin kung san kau nagkamali kung card number or pin? ano po ba yung card number nio?
me: giving the card number [na mali pala]
rep2: name nio po?
me: jeremy zafra
rep2: middle name?
me: angeles
rep2: birthday po?
me: june 23, 1982 [odiba? memorize.. galeeeng]
rep2: mother's maiden name?
me: [oh noooo... alam ko lang angeles yung lastname.hihihi] anu po? [kunware, hahaha]
rep2: pangalan ng nanay nio ma'am?
me: [umaarte na'ko nito..] hello? hello? are u still there?
rep2: ma'am, yung name po ng nanay nio?
me: [umaarte pa rin..] hello, hello? hindi kita marinig.. [echos hahaha]
rep2: hello? ma'am you mother's maiden name?
me: BLAG! [i put the phone down obviously hindi ko alam!!!! hwahahahaha potah kakahiya.]
so yun na. hahaha kakahiya potah, yan ang nakukuha ng magmamarunong at nangaangkin ng identity! harharhar syet. kahit hindi nia ako nakita or what, shempre nahihiya pa rin ako mukang tanga, naisip ko baka nga sa records nila may picture ni jemai dun eh, hahaha so bakit ganun ang boses? high pitch? hehehe so tinawagan ko ulit ang kawawang nilalang para ipaalam ang nangyare sa card. at para malaman nio na ang ending i'll cut the story na, hehehe hindi naman pala na-block yung PIN ni fren. grrrr. tumawag ako ulit kasi, this time alam ko na yung mother's maiden name nia in case na itanong ulit. hehehe pero i asked the question as if asking for inquiry lang, basta hirap explain, para hindi magverify. buti naman hindi na kaya lang mga 4 times akong na-transfer, so 4 times kong inulit ulit yung nangyare... nakakainis pala talaga yun noh?! i should know i always get these calls from work eh, well at least i learned something :) ang ending mali-mali lang pala talaga yung card number, feeling ko tuloi ang tanga-tanga ko kasi the rep walk me through the on line banking chuva... eh hindi na ko umangal no kasi ayoko na magkamali. so, there nagwork na sha FINALLY! i was able to view his transaction history only to find out na yung transactions na mavi-view mo on line are transactions na ginawa lang din online!!!! grrrr kasi he paid his cc sa atm machine nina before we went home. so hindi pala yun magrereflect dun sa on line transaction logs. haaaaaay. winner. pero keri lang. natawa din ako sa kalokohan ko. so there. dapat sa mga ganito iwan na sa year 2005. ayoko na sana maulit pa sa 2006! hahaha

...

ang lamig. brrrrr

hay ang aga ko na naman nagising. owel i guess i have to live with this. haaaay.

eh anu pa bang magandang gawin while killin' time?! mag-BLOG hahaha

gaya ni jemai [and the others too] i survived christmas. how?! natulOg ako :) very productive ano?! ang KJ KJ ko nga nung araw na yun, while other people are having fun outside feeling the christmas spirit ako fineefeel ko yung kwartO ko hehehe as in nandun lang ako at hindi ako lumalabas. nakakulong nuod tv, kinig radio and shempre ang favorite past time ko nung araw na yun, MATULOG!!! binawe ko lang siguro lahat ng pinuyat ko for the year. ahehehehe ewan ko ba i'm just not in the mood to celebrate, maybe because i know someone close to my heart isn't feeling very well, i mean nag-eemote din hahaha at shempre for the 3rd consecutive year eh malamig ang paskO ko ahihihihi nyeta. pero ok lang hindi ako bitter. unti lang.

kahapon, we were suppose to watch kutob, pero dahil nagmaganda ako feeling ko walang traffic, ayun samakatuwid late po ako ladies and gentlemen. grrrr. churi na fren. lagi na lang akong late i know... lam mu na malayo talaga ang planeta ng cavite sa manila eh. owel, since andito na rin lang ako, sasagutin ko ang entry mo kahapOn, hehehe

i really didn't mean to make you feel bad about what i said about leaving PS. sabi ko nga nageemote din kasi akO kahapon, syet dapat itigil na yang emote na yan eh so ayun na nga, you know i won't let anything and anyone hurt you, ni padapuan ka sa lamok hindi ko hinahayaan eh... mahirap na ma-duengue fren. lam mu na... [hehehe korni] pero totoo yun, kita mu naman pag wala ka sa mood, wala din ako sa mood. pagumiiyak ka, kahit anong pigil ko sa luha kong oa [oo na mala-judy ann tuloi-tuloi...] lumuluha din ako na para bang ako yung may kasalanan or sumting to that effect. hehehe basta ayoko na magelaborate. alam mu naman yung gusto kong sabihin, i just want everybody to know how much i care. there. enough said. i have completely changed my mind. no goodbyes. ahahhaha so for that, pagchagaan mu talaga akO, i may have to stick around for God knows how long. hehehe

ilang araw na lang 2006 na. sana it's my year rin. haaaay i can only hope and pray. nga pala one year na 'tong blog ko sa january... hmmm makes me want to read my previous posts, hahaha reminiscing lang, to see how my life has been in the past year. i'm sure puro kajologsan lang at kaartehan. hahaha

'till then.

un naman. celebrities!ahahaha on the plane bounded to cebu city, philippines. extra pa si Angelo T Reyes. sleeping beauty dun o. hahaha

ikakasal na sha...

you know what?! i just heard the greatest news this week! my best TINA and atOng already set a date for their wedding!!!! it's going to be in august 2007. omigod. parang nung october lang sila na-engage. haaaaay i am sooooo jealous. pero ok lang. keri pa naman. unfortunately [unfortunately daw oh?!], hehehe well thanksful naman ako, ang lowla niyo lang naman ang MAID of HONOR! que horror dibaaa

hi best! i know you are sooo happy now and i'm glad you are going to marry the man you really lOve. naaalala ko dati nung highschool daydream lang tau bout these things tapos ngayon almost 2 years na lang magiging reality na sha... so goodluck. i love you. take care of each other ha?!

PS. basta yung bouquet sa akin mo hahagis ha?! hehehe muahcongratulations and best wishes.

alam mo? ang tanga tanga tanga tanga tanga tanga tanga tanga mo talaga!!!! are you serious?! are you outta your head?!!! owkei ka lang?!! kungdi ka ba naman bobo't kalahati edi sana hindi ka nagkakaganyan?!! tapos iyak iyak ka?! anu burrrrr?!! wake up, grow up!!!!!!!

syet.

lOvin' it, lOvin' it!!!!

i just hafta post this sOng!

i just sooooo lOve this song! from the time i heard it on one of my favorite movies [and i bet your favorite too!] SERENDIPITY, ay grabe nainlOve na ko sa song na ito. kaya lang sa busy kong buhay [huwaw, busy daw] lagi kong nakakalimutan na hanapin 'yung lyrics nia sa net.. then kanina when mai and i are having a haircut, pinatugtog sha sa parlor at hindi ko na sha nakalimutan ulit! yey. the song keeps playing in my head kahit hindi ko naman memorize 'yung kanta.. hihihi so, i'm sharing this to everyone, ayan, mainlOve kayo... hehehehe

PS. hanu kamo? nakakarelate ba kamo akO? hmmm good question. siguro na malamang hindi na sana nga na gusto kO na hindi ko maintindihan. yun naman!

so, there :)

When You Know

Shawn Colvin

When you know that you know who you love, you can't deny it. Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it. When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go Cos you know and you know that you know.

When you feel in your skin in your bones and the hollow Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow. When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close Cos you know and you know that you know.

You can feel love's around you like the sky 'round blue This is how love has found you, now you know what to do.

When you know that you know who you need, you can't deny it. Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it. When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go Cos you know and you know that you know.

And it's time you come in from the cold.

Haaa... And you know that you know.

hano?! 7 days na lang?!!

can you believe it? only 7 days to go and it's christmas again... tsk. and i'm not even through with my christmas list. taon taon ko na lang sinasabi na i'll shop october pa lang para hindi ako nagmamadali, obviously taon taon ko rin shang hindi nagagawa. well i guess pinaninindigan ko lang talaga na reyna din ako ng cramming :D my bad! anyhoo, i have monday pa naman eh, so there. hihihi

what to do on christmas day? good thing it fall on a restday. yey! last year kasi christmas eve nasa office ako taking stupid calls. hmpft. for sure i'll be going some place on christmas day, i'm just not sure where. a cup of toffee nut latte in tagaytay will surely make my christmas day. hihihi hmmm, why nOt?! sige i'll see.. maybe i'll drive there and reflect [huwaaaw, whatever]. been doing some thinking lately. grabe ang bilis-bilis na ng panahon. ganun yata talaga pagtumatanda na.. i remember one officemate told me na christmas season daw is just for kids. parang gusto ko nang maniwala. hehehe dati kasi excited akOng magpasko, but now? parang hindi ko nafeefeel na parating na sha, sad noh?! i know hindi dapat ganun. ang KJ-KJ ng dating especially for those who are really looking forward to it. churi. if not for the christmas lights along ayala ave, the christmas tree in our veranda, mariah carey's christmas album playing in my car hindi ko mararamdaman na pasko na pala. samantalang dati i always see to it that i attend simbang gabi. i religiously hear those 9 morning mass then of course make a wish on the december 24th mass, hehehe. alam nio naman ako mahilig maniwala sa mga wish, wish na yan : ) last time one of my wishes were granted. haaay those were the days...

'nga pala, another little angel is added on my long list of inaanaks! hehehe [would you believe i have, like 23 or 24 plus this one, so it's 25 or 26!] he was christened yesterday, december 17th. his name is EMIL. ang cute cute! likot likot pa. i'm sure masayahing bata yun paglaki. i don't have his pictures sa binyag eh, hindi ko nadala 'yung camera tsk, sayang, gagamitin kasi nila momi kO,anyhoo..a pero i have this picture though, taken i think when he's less than 2 mos old...

here ya go.

hang cutie devarj?! makes me want to have my own too! hihihi sana 'yung first bOrn ko boy. tapos i'll name him harvey or .. hmmm sige na nga saka na yung name, i can hear my friends screaming " maghanap ka kaya muna ng boyfriend??!" ahahahahaha onga naman. perO if ever, i'll go ahead and bring my PLAN B to life! hahaha remember that ten? bLee? bahala na.

heLLo there baby emiL, i'm not sure kung mababasa mo ito one day, or kung blog pa ang uso by the time you're old enough to read and understand this but i wish that you grow into a good person. you are blessed with wonderful parents, momi tina and daddy yOng love them always. at higit sa lahat, swerte mo sa mga ninong at ninang mo ang gaganda at ang ggwapo. hahaha again, welcome to the christian world. behave ok?! muah muah muah.

that's all for now peeplets! wrap muna kO ng gifts! :)

OLA!

hellOw there peeplets!!! heheheh opo buhay pa po ang inyong abang lingkod.. :D busy-busyhan lang [ECH!] ewan ko ba for some reason eh sa tuwing makikita ko yung laptop ng
kapatid ko na walang mouse eh tinatamad na 'kong mag-update. hehehe sensha na may kaartehan
po ako..
so, kamusta naman ako? eto, surviving. ok lang naman, coping i guess. daming issues sa katawan
pero kaya ko pa naman. hihihi sa susunod nga papatingin na ko sa psychiatrist. wahehehe pero i
remembered na blogging nga pala keeps me from being a complete lunatic. haaaay. i missed
writing my kalokohans slash kajolgsans here. eversince kasi na-surf control na sa opis 'tong
blogger eh tinamad na kong mag-update shempre pag uwe ko sa haus all i wanna do is sleep. pero
ngayon i'm in da moooood. wahahaha so let's break some rules and blog! :D
let me start off by saying that i am in a not so good, not so bad mood today [talk about being
weirdo..] tama lang. oh! i have my starbucks year 2006 planner na.. yey! sweet. yun nga lang
feeling ko tuloy eh may sakit na ko sa puso sa sobrang kape! hihihi nagpapalpitate na 'ko kahit
maamoy ko lang ang kape. exxage! hindi naman, emote lang... well hindi ko naman kinaya yun
nang mag-isa. op cors with the help op my ever sweet sort-of bestfriend, jemai eh napunO ko
yung card ko.. honga pala dapat special mention din si balfiler.. 2 yung stickers nia duns a card
ko... thanks guys, meLOvesyah! muaaah. so anu naman isusulat ko sa planner na yun? hmm sana
naman it's my year na next year. wala lang. shox i'll 25 na by next year.. huhuhu shet. finish line
na. haaaaaay. anyhoo ayoko muna pag-usapan yan. next! hehe
ang konti na lang namin sa team, nabawasan pa ng dalawa ulit kasi napromote na sila.. galing ni
dex and ginO! : ) i'm so happy they got the position, shempre love your own. wahhaha go team! :D
dito na nga pala kami sa PSC, sa bagong building na kung saan napakaraming bawal. as in. hindi
nga ko magtataka kung ipagbawal na nila ang huminga next time. hay nakO. pero dahil pasaway
ako, kebs. hihihi at in fairness 3 weeks na kami dito wala man lang akong ma-sight na cuteness,
well except for my cras. kakasawa na nga lang : ) sana may iba naman. haaaaay. so asa pa ko
noh?
ayyy eto na lang kwento ko sa inyo, isa na namang kagagahan ko ang naganap nung isang araw.
hmmm tuesday night bali yun. kasi gento yun...
soooobrang puyat kasi ako nung monday night/production. as in. tapos hindi pa ako nakatulog ng
maayos nung tuesday morning kasi pagising-gising ako. bastos devarj? so ang siste, sa bus ako
nakakatulog. on my way to baclaran, tulog lang ako sa bus, buti na lang malakas ang bibig ni
manong kundoktor at nagising ako sa tamang babaan. aba eto na noh, so si ako ay sumakay ng
bus na may plakang LRT-LEVERIZA para bababa ako sa tapat mismo ng PSC... but NOOOOO! dahil
ang antuking si ako ay lumagpas! korek! matatanggap ko pa sana kung sa may JG ako bumaba,
ngunit hindi po mga kaibigan... sa glorietta na 'ko nakakababa, at buti na alng nahimasmasan na
ako nun dahil kung hindi eh sa cubao na ko nakarating. huhuhuuh buti na lang maaga pa nun. so
baba ako ng bus, at may nakita akong mamang squidballs. bibili na sana ako nang biglang
napansin kong wala na yung P500 ko sa wallet!!! eh paano namang hindi ko maaalala na may
limandaan yun eh yun na lang talaga ang pera ko for this work week gang magsweldo.. however,
WALA SHA SA WALLET KO. asar talaga. buti na lang may 10P pa ko pang-bus pabalik ng PSC. shet
sabi ko sa sarili ko, anu pa? ano pa bang kamalasan ang naghihintay sa akin??! grabe na ito... on
my way back, iniisip ko imposible naman na may nagnakaw nun sa bus na sinakyan ko, aba ang
effort naman nia jan at kinuha nia pa sa wallet ko hindi pa yung wallet ko na alng kinuha nia di
burr? hmmm kaya call ko mom ko ask ko kung kumuha sha ng money sa wallet ko coz she does
that pero nagsasabi nga lang, so i took the benefit of the doubt na baka nakalimutan ni lang or
something, kaya lang hindi naman daw.. so isa lang sa dalawa kong magagaling na kapatid..
haaay yaan mo na nga pasko naman na eh. ang mantra ko tuwing nawawalan ng pera?! "kikitain ko
rin yan, pera lang yan..." YESSSSS. shempre habang sinasabi ko yun nakapikit ako sabay
nanghihinayang pa rin wehehehe pero what the heck? ayoko na dagdagan pa ang sama ng loob ko
so there. so going back... [haba noh? churi na...] ayun na nga sumakay ako ulit ng bus pabalik with a heavy heart dahil hindi ako
nakakain ng squidballs!!! wahahahaha at shempre dahil nawalan ako gn P500 hehehe so aun na
nga eto na noh, pagbaba ko sa tapat ng RCBC tower eh mejo maulan, ganda pa naman ng get up
ko, naka-jacket pa ko and all that, aba akalain mo ba namang pagkababang-pagkababa ko eh may
humaharurot na isa pang bus at lahat ata ng tubig near the gutter where i was standing eh nagsplash
sa akin! homigod. horrible, horrible talaga! huwaaaaaaaah. as in ako lang po ladies and gents ang
nabasa, andami talagang tao sa likod ko eh.. kasi naman nagmamadali ako ayan ako tuloi
nabiktima nung gagong bus na iyon! huhuhu naku gusto ko na sana umuwe nun pero andun na ko
sa tapat ng opis eh.. so there. isa po akong naglalakad na putik. grabe naman talaga. hay
nakOws.. so, there.
ang malas-malas ko talaga. haaaay. shet? bakit dami ng calls? huhuhuhu HT pah. grrrrr.
haaaay. dami ko pang kwento kaya lang baka kinukulaba na kau kababasa eh. so till next na lang ulit! and oh, i'll post some pictures here na. promise na ito. para naman makita nio na kung anong hitsura ko ngayon :)

anO daw?!

saan ba pwede magpunta?

'yung malayong-malayo sa kinaroroonan ko sa mga oRas na itO? ayoko na pero wala naman akong magagawa... kailangan ako dito.. hindi ako dapat tumakbO, dapat harapin ko. sabi ko nga kasabay ng pag-amin ko sa sarili ko nito ay ang desisyon na hindi ko ito tatalikuran.. ang tanong -- kaya ko pa ba?! sana..

HUWAAAAT?!

anu bUZz?!

ang sarap talagang hindi pumasok! :D

owel, i was on leave last night production.. well deserved leave. hahaha i had fun naman. i was able to do almost everything i wanted to do on a regular day. sabi ko na nga be sagabal lang yang work na yan eh.. hihihihi well not really kasi if not for my 'trabahong mahal' eh hindi ko matutustusan ang mga luho ko sa katawan hehehe so, there.

anu na ba ang latest? hmmm dami ko ng utang na kwento dito.. ayyy! i gotta share this, kasi di ba i only bring my car every last day production? so nung friday night dala ko sha and i parked sa parking lot sa tapat ng JG. i always park there befOre kilala na 'ko ng mga guards dun.. and i always push my luck telling them everytime i pay the ticket na kung pwede humingi ng discount card kasi araw araw ako nagbabayad ng P115++ dun at parati akong pinagtatawanan kasi hindi daw talaga pwede yun, lechers devarj? wehehe pero last saturday naawa ata si manong sa aking at imbes na pagbayarin ako ng P125.00, P100 na lang pinabayad nia!!! for the first time! ahahaha i was sooo happy.. ambabaw noh?! owel...

downgraded na nga pala yung cellphone ko.. nibenta ko na 'yung N6670 ko para i have money.. na-realize ko ok lang naman pala 'yung hindi kagandahan na cellphone wehehe iwas holdup pa! chaka i have digital camera naman eh so i think i'll be fine without a camera phone.. iniisip ko nga if ever i'll have enough money na to buy a new phone gusto ko flip phone. wala lang inarte lang, though a lot are saying na madali masira.. hmm i hafta think about it muna and besides wala pa naman akong balak bumili at this time eh.. like ko naman yung phone ko now eh.. whehehe

i just had my nails done.. hindi ko mashadong type 'yung pagkakalinis parang hindi din naman kasi nilinis.. hehehe owel yaan mo na mura lang naman sha chaka home service.. maroon kung maroon ang kulay ng nails ko wehehe nakakaputi kasi ng feet.. hang artey! :D ang hirap maging babae talaga, you have to do all these things to look good and feel good. hang gastos eh! in fairness ngayon nga lang ako nagiging ganito, hindi nga lang halata kasi pa-boy talaga ang kilos ko, promise i'm trying really hard to act at kumilos ng pa-gurl, pero i can't. hahah minsan pa-gurl ang suot ko pero maton pa rin akong maglakad or pag-umupo ako walang ka-poise poise at higit sa lahat wala akong tiyagang magre-touch! :D ewan ko ba? when i go to work i'm all fixed pero yun na yun, pag-nandun na ko wala na, ni hindi na 'ko magsusuklay.. :D minsan pagpinapansin na lang ng iba nag buhok kong magulo saka ako magsusuklay.. :) hahaha sabi ko na lalake ako sa past life ko.. hindi nga ko lumaki na mahilig sa barbie, though i had one before mas gusto ko pang mag-patintero or taguan.. haaaay. sana bata na lang akO... mas magaan ang buhay ko.. hindi tulad ngayon daming iniisip.. pressure here and there.. waaaaah.

enough. feeling maganda ako today. ayoko ng mga unwanted vibes.. i just had a full body massage. hehehe sayang ang binayad ko para ma-distress.. :D

i really like the song by sam and say.. 'yung magmahal muli. in fairness nagagandahan ako sa pagkakakanta ni say and sam.. and i love the song itself. lyrics and melody.. ..."huwag hanapin ang pag-ibig.. ito'y darating, ito'y darating sa'yo..." hay nakO, maybe this is a sign.. i should stop looking for love, love would definitely find me.. SANA. wish ko lang... anu kaya sumulat ako sa wish ko lang?!! hahaha joke lang.. hindi pa naman ako ganung ka-desperada.. saan na kaya si mr. right? ang tagal tagal naman niang dumating.. wahahaha pagdating nia babatukan ko talaga yun! paghintayin ba naman ako? and he better be worth the loooong wait ha?! hehehe anu ba itong mga pinagsususlat ko? churi ha? can't help it.. hahaha must be the season kasi.. pasko na eh.. :D nyeta talaga oh.. pero sige na keri lang at least i have my frens and op cors my family.. mabuti na yung friends na kami ng daddy ko, hmmm maybe i'd settle for that muna. kesa naman mag-xxmas na enemies kami.

haaaaaay. malamig na ang simoy ng hangin.. mas matagal nang madilim ang langit.. winter solstice ba tawag dun? ewan.. may christmas tree na sa veranda namin.. nagiging pula na ang mga poinsettia.. tama ba sfelling kO? merOn na kaming quezo de bOla sa mesa.. yung bahay sa may kanto namin galit na naman sa kuryente paano ba naman punong -puno ng xmas lights yung buong bahay nia.. dami nang nagpaparamdam na mga kumpare at kumare ko.. hahaha leche nio talaga! :D nagpapatugtog na ng christmas carols sa mga malls, pati tuwing umaga habang naglilinis ang mommy ko.. AT MA-EMOTE NA NAMAN AKO tanda na malapit na ang pasko..

so, there..

the gaLEra adVEnture!

huwaaaah! ang aga ko nga nakauwe, ang aga ko rin namang nagising.. 1030pm na kasi ang schedule ko, tsk. it's 327pm pa lang, dati ganitong oras pa lang ako natutulOg. haaay so i guess mag-aadjust na naman ang katawang lupa ko nito.

owel, mag-uupload na lang ako ng pictures namin sa galera. yeah the breakfast club slash saturday group went to puerto galera last two weeks agO. sobrang biglaan lang yun, mai sent an email to our friends ng wednesday, nagtatalO lahat kung subic ba or galera, well, obviously panalO si galera kaya gora kami sa mindoro saturday after shift :D sana pagkatapos kOng magsulat ng entry na ito uploaded na ang mga pics para naman i can share some of it here... 272 pictures po sha ladies and gentlemen, ang effort kainis!!! haaay pero dahil mejO matagal na sha at inip na inip na ang mga tampok ng mga larawan na iyon hala sige ayan pinagpupuyatan ko na.. nyeta! AYAW mag-upload sa photObucket.. huhuhu i'll figure sumtin' later.. so there..

nu ba nangyare dun? ahhh well we arrive in galera ng mga 5pm na yata, we stayed sa same place we stayed befORe.. shempre picture galOre, i have picture freak friends eh.. hahaha tapos shempre nag-inuman. and mind you, lashingan portion talaga itO!!! hahaha at halos naubos ko yung baon namin ni fren na isang kaha ng yOsi. i wouldn't be surprised if i'll be diagnosed with cancer by now.. hahaha [exxagge..] ang alam ko kasi san mig light lang iniinom kO eh, maya-maya mindoro sLing na tapos red horse.. anu buzz? lumalabas ang pag-kalasinggera kO! funny pa, kasi di ba magkakatabi lang naman yung mga bar chuchu dun? we stayed in this place op cors i can't remember na what, tapos napapsayaw kami sa music nung katabi nia wehehehe buti na lang nasa gitna kami, but then hindi na namin natiis lumipat din kami eventually.. baaaad. and by this time si mabs, abi, mai and myself na lang ang magkakasama. sila tenten umuwi na at natulOG. very nice no?! haaaay. so to make the long story shOrt, lasing na lasing lang naman ako and i think sila din kasi the following day, hindi nila maalala how they got sa room. whatever. we finished drinkin, siguro mga 230am na coz we started early mga 1opm ata, tapos kaming apat eh nahiga sa sand.. dala-dala ko yung sarong ko para pang-latag or whatever you want to call it pero basta, so ayun na nga, aba eh akalain mo ba namang nag-enjoy yung tatlO sa sarong ko, eh sa kalasingan ko i was too tired and drunk to argue kaya hinayaan ko na sila mahiga sa sarong ko samantalang ang kawawang si ako eh nahiga sa buhangin ng walang sapin. some friends devarj?! hehehe leche.. tapOS i called sumone, si tsiKi, friend ko tapos alam ko super dinadaldal ko sha sabay hirit ng mga issues ko sa buhay nang biglang -- hmmm hindi ko naramdaman na nakatulugan ko na sha at wala na akong load!!! huhuhu ayan kagagahan ko talaga.. buti naman at walang kunuha ng cellphone ko sa kamay ko while i was sleeping hahaha salamat sa lamig ng hangin at nagising aKo at niyaya ko na silang umakyat.. so there.. kinabukasan mabs throw up [eeeeew, i just gotta share that! hehehhe] mai can't even remember how he got there and abi and i are just -- blank! hahaha owel but it was fun! i won't drive kasi after gimik kaya nilubos lubos ko na, minsan lang mangyare yun eh.. wehehehe

shempre the next day swimming galore kami. hhaha i had learned an important lesson, me, being a person who doesn't like lime light or hated being the center of attention [yeah for some reason...] needs to always, always remember NOT TO WEAR HOT PINK when everybody else in the island wears neutral colors!!! eh copper head pa naman ako ngayon so, in effect my hair was screaming orange and yung swimming outfit ko was sooooooper PINK! wehehehe sabi nga ni fren baka pag-lusong ko sa dagat humawa yung kulay ng suot ko.. wehehehe buti naman hindi.. :D tapos mawawala ba naman ang massage? op cors i had full body massage kaya akO umitim eh.. hihihiihi e2 pa, we promised this manong na we will snorkle, eh kaya lang nagbago ang isip ng mga peepz kaya hindi na kami tumuloi kaya lang since we promised they kinda waited fOr us, meaning they didn't entertain other people, kaya when we break the news to them na we won't snorkle na ayun nagalit i kawawang manong.. churi na manong.. i was kinda relieved acutally dahil super natatakot ako.. hahaha duwag talaga ako pati sa banana boat! ang korni ko noh?! owel that's me... but i'm slowly facing my fears.. ngayon nga nakakanuod na ko ng horror movies dati talaga hindi, so isa isa muna hehehe

tapOs shempre while we're there wala kaming ginawa kugndi kumain ng kumain. leche. pero keri lang masarap mabusog at gumastos.. hahaha then nakahanap kami ng videoke. saya! we sang our hearts out. we let galera heard our soulful voices.. wahahaha gang sa nairita na yata yung may-ari sa tagal namin dun hahahha after dinner we decided to call it a day then slept. ang aga noh?! for a change.. hihihi the following day naman wala na talaga akOng balak mag-swimming dahil uuwe na kami sa tanghali eh, however, dahil the tubig was soooo inviting, ayun naligo ako ulit yun nga lang we were [si mabs at ako] bitten by something, leche kung anu man sha gang ngayon i have pantal pa rin, well pantals kasi marami.. hehehe tapos ayun na we showered na then headed to the ferry to go home.. huhuhu yoko pa sana umuwe but then again kailangan.. haaay promise ko sa sarili ko sa summer sa BORA naman. swear :D tara na fren! hihihi

nga pala meron akong pinagpapantashahan dun sa galera wehehehe pagdating kasi namin as in pagkababa pa lang ng ferry i saw this guy na nageemote magisa sa buhanginan.. yung tipong malayo yung tingin tapos may hawak na dalawang cellphone.. sabi ko kay mai tabihan ko kaya at tanungin kung anOng problema nia.. kaya lang shempre hindi naman kaya ng kalooban ko yun so hinayaan ko lang sha, cute ito in full fairness.. haha tapOs when we got to our room na bumaba kami to roam around, aba nakasalubong ko na naman sha... soulmate ba itO? hihih wish ko lang, sabi ko nga kay jemai if ever makasalubong ko sha ulit this is it na!!! wehehehe at aba shempre naman nakasalubong namin sha.. hehehe this time taka na ko bakit lagi shang mag-isa.. autistic ba itO? anti-social? loner? magkaaway ba sila ng jowa nia or sumting.. i was ablet o fiure evrything out nung monday morning, kasi we stayed in the same place pala! sa third floor katabi nung room namin, and the reason he was always alone is because he went there with his entire family, hindi mga friends mga kasama nia kaya naman pala... shempre nalorka ako nung makita ko na pareho lang pala kami ng tinitirhan haaaaay. so there.. nope hindi po kami nagkakilala or whatsoever, hindi kinakaya ng powers ko so si pathetic 'ol me eh gang tingin lang.. sheeesh.. i remember jemai saying to me while i was wishing on the first star i saw the first night we were there, that i needed more than just wishing on a star.. na hindi daw star ang kailangn ko.. oo nga naman anong makukuha ko sa kaka-wish ko heh i'm not doing anything about it? eh kasi naman it's just not my style.. hindi ko kaya.. hahaha nag-aargue pa nga kami pauwe nun sa room i was yelling at him sabi ko, "palibasa hindi ka pa narereject sa buong buhay mo!" sagot naman ni mai, "akala mo lang hindi!!!" tapos andami pa lang audience.. hihihi kakahiya. owel.. yaan mo na hindi naman nila kami kilala wehehehe nga pala that guy i was talking about eh kasabay namin umuwi pareho kami ng ferry na sinakyan so there, pati sana bus kaya lang pa-cubao sha at pa-lawton naman akO.. huhuhu sabi nga ni jemai sana daw nag-cubao na alng ako.. nyeta ang layo talaga nun eh.. :D

ayun, ang result, eh paubos na ang money ko by the time we went back to manila, pagod.. pero enjoi naman , sooobraaa. magtatayo na nga ko ng call center dun eh para dun na lang kaming mag-ffriends.. wehehehe umitim ako [lalo] as usual.. i had sooo much fun naman.. dami ko nga lang iniisip nung mga time na yun.. mga issues ko hehehe pero hindi ko naman hinayaan na maging hindrance yun para magrelax at mag-enjOy sa galera..

honga pala my bessie tNa and atOng just got engaged. haaaay inggit ako..

**unfortunately hindi pa na-uupload lahat ng pictures.. huhuhu but i'll post them separately na lang..**

bakit naman walang YM dito?!

eh kaya nga ko nag-bayad ng internet dito dahil gusto kong mag-ym, aba'y akalain mo nga namang yun pa ang wala? bastos devarj?! pero ok na rin yun at least wala na akOng rason para hindi mag-update ng bLog ko... mai and i are here in the same internet place we went before.. yung somewhere in greenbelt internet cafe? wahaha hindi ko alam name nitOng place na ito eh hehehe. so there. anyhoo, andami-dami ko ng gustong ikwentO. as in. hindi ko naman alam panu at saan sisimulan. pero these past few weeks have been pretty interesting! :D

good news!!! mejo hokei na kami ng daddy ko. well, compared naman dati na iwasan galoRe. dead air kung dead air. hahaha at least now, nakakausap ko na sha. though nahihiya pa rin akO sa kanya dahil sa nangyare but i'm slowly [but surely] reaching out and sha din naman. so there. :D

nga pala to ibyang and pao, THANKS A MILLION ha? i was surprised to see your comments. touched akO, salamat talaga. haaay kayo na ipanganak kakambal ng drama at ka-emote an. hahaha phase lang ito, i know lilipas din. thank you again. :D

how do i feel ba ngayon? hmmm owel for one puyat. pero keri lang kasi i had a full body massage kaninang afternoon. saraaaaap. mahal nga lang. hehehe pero it was all worth it. one way to di-stress myself. pero since my pasok na ulit mamaya edi ganun din. haaaay. hmpft. yaan ko na nga. as if anman may magagawa akO, anyway kung di rin naman dahil sa stress na nakukuha ko sa trabaho kong mahal eh malamang wala akong pambabayad ng pang-massage ko wahahahaha koress diba?! seriously, i think i'm doing good. coping. keri naman. haaaaay. minsan panay inarte pa rin pero iniisip ko na lang na sayang ang oras at energy ko kaya let it reap. i'll just go with the flOw. minsan mahirap sumabay sa agos pero dahil wala akOng choice kahit malulunod na 'ko kailangan kong piliting umahon. whew? analogy ba yun? syet. hahaha

maiba naman tau, star studded ang gabing ito para sa akin... kasi nakita ko si juday at ryan sa timezOne g4. ang cheesy man pero kinikilig ako dun sa dalawang yun pwamis.. hahaha well, shempre inggit akO kay juday kasi FINALLY may ryan na sha samantalang akO kahit wowie deguzman wala.. hamfanget devarj?! huhuhu malapit na ang finish line.. ayan lumalayo ako sa usapan, sa ibang entry na lang pala yun ehehehe.. so aun tapos nakita ko naman sa greenbelt 3 si meagan aguilar, tapos si fren kita nia si borgy manotoc.. winner diba? ang dami naming celeb dito ngayon? wahahaha oo kasama talaga kami :D

naisip ko lang.. ang mahal na ng gasolina ha? imagine, 40Php na ang unleaded at 38Php naman ang diesel.. haneeeep. anu ba palagay ng gobyerno sa amin? mayaman? grabe buti sana kung pag-nagpagasolina ako may free na i-pod or foot spa. grabe naman. hindi ko na kinakaya itO. samantalang nuong unang natuto akong mag-drive 50Php lang kung saan-saan na ko nakakarating.. 9Php per liter pa lang ang diesel kasi before... hahaha nahahalata ang age kO. hay nako whatever, sana lang mag-roll back sila or something. suntok ata sa buwan yun ah?!

grabe hindi pa ko nagkukwentO talaga nian ha pero ang dami ko ng naisulat, kahit sa bLog ubod ko ng daldal, kahit walang sense daldal pa rin, hihihih please bear with me :D miss ko nang magsulat....

wala lang.

hmmm mejo matagal-tagal na rin akong walang post ah? been busy? no, tinamad lang. hahaha pero oo nga pala, hi IBYANG! if you're reading this, thank you for the kind wOrds. tats akO in fairness. i haven't met you [malamang you're there i'm here.. hahaha] pero dahil kababasa ko din ng blOg mo ayan parang i know you na rin. aLways take care of yoursELf and yoUr family!!! hi there lISA! ahihihihi

hindi pa nga kO nagbibihis eh, i mean i just got home frOm work, yeah 2pm na talaga eh... uwian ko is 930am.. owel, nagbreakfast kasi kami nila dempol, mack, zah and bernE. at dahil kaarawan ni mack mamayang alas-dose ng madaling aRaw, gora kami ni zah sa SM BACOOR. wehehe in fairness mga 2 months na kong hindi nakakapag-malling dun. so, there. bakit kamo hindi pa ko nagbibihis? eh kasi ang dami kong gustong isulat baka mawala sa utak ko pagnagpalit na ko ng pajamas! hehehehe

nagbagO na ko tina-try ko ng hindi magdala ng car sa opis. mahirap kasi tamad akOng mag-commute pero kasi ang laki ng natitipid ko minus gas, toll gate at PARKING. yun nga lang nakakapagod kasi taga-cavite pa talaga ako eh no. kaya lang i think dapat masanay na lang ako kung ayaw kong mamulubi. ang planO ko every last day production ako magdadala ng car para pag restday na derechO gala wherever! hehehe owel, let's see kung hanggang kailan ako tatagal...

haaaay nag-iisip ako habang nakatunganga sa bintana ng bus kanina. nasa may Baclaran na kami noon. sabi ko sa sarili ko: "nakakainis talaga ang ugali mo, toNia! kailan ka ba magbabago??!" pero wala akong maisagot sa tanong na yun na mejo matagal ng humihingi ng kasagutan. minsan napapaiyak na lang ako kahit sa daan... badtrip noh? hang drama. pero hindi ko maiwasan. nyeta sana pusa na lang akO. buti pa 'tong si george, [pusa namin..] pahiga-higa na lang. kain-tulog, laboy tapos lub na lub pa sha ng lahat. parang hindi sha nag-iisip o namumublema hindi katulad ko mashadong ma-emote. yung tipong maliit na bagay lang ginagaw kong malaki. simple lang nagiging komplikadO, worse, i know i act like this all the time pero everytime na nangyayare sha hinahayaan ko lang. i'm not doing anything about it. leche di ba? ako rin kumukuha ng batong ipupokpok sa ulO ko.

that's why i hate myself. there, i said it. sorry friends i know maiinis na kayo sa akin dahil i always see myseLF this way. i know hindi kayo napapagod kakaremind sa akin na i'm important too, na may silbi ako sa mundO and i appreciate every pangaral and kind words you say but for some reason hindi ko sha matanggap. para kasing hindi ako deserving, sumting like that. ewan ko kung kanino ko namana 'tong ugali ko na 'to nakakainis di ba?! haaaaay.

aftermath :D

haym baaaack! :D

last week was such a pain in the neck. nakabangga ako ng nanahimik na matandang nagba-bike sa daan, i got grounded, my parents hate me, i almost lost a fren, nobody wants to talk to me in the house because they're all scared na madamay sa kagagahan ko, then there was peer training, irate callers huwaaaaah!!! talk about my life.

last week nag-start at natapos yung peer training. am i certified? i think so.. hehehe saya naman sha though sobrang stress lang dahil nakakapuyat, plus may presentation pa na talagang nakakapressure. haaay but i was able to finish those five days kaya ok na rin. nakapagpresent naman ako kahit na i was shakin and stuttering the whole time. haaaay. first time jitters ba ito? :D at eto pa, friday morning after presentation, uwe na kami ni annuh and her bf tj and we were talking about driving, liscense, violations. sabi ko pa wag na wag sila papahuli sa makati kasi super mahal ng rates ng violations nila. as in. so ayun, kwento pa ko noh, ayan na yellow light na, eh nasa gitna na talaga ko eh no so kahit nag red light na tinuloi ko na thinking i was doing the right thing kasi alangan namang tumigil ako sa gitna di ba? hahaha but NOOO. pinatigil ako ni mamang mapsa sa side ng kalye para bigyan ng ticket. haaaay stress. P2000 lang naman at kailangan kong umatend ng seminar. hellew?! okei lang sha? shempre nagpa-cute ako at nagmakaawa [which i don't usually do, pero dahil kailangan... :D] basta mahabang usuapan ito dahil ayoko magretrieve ng lisensha sa lto utang na loob, ayoko talaga pumila ang ending eh hindi na nia kukunin lisensha ko pero i hafta pay him half nung rate.. huhuhuh P1000 talaga yun eh. tumatawad pa ko but he said no. ang arte. so ayun namigay ako ng isang libo. haaay. sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko na hindi ako yayaman sa P1000, na kikitain ko ulit yun. pero pang-gas ko talaga yun eh.. huhuhu haaay nako yaan na nga natin. bahala na si GOD sa kanya. :D

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nga pala i won a starbucks gc for "are you serious?". hehe wala lang. ginamit ko na sha in fairness. ahahaha excited?! sumkinda. eh for sure matatagalan bago ako ulit maka-100 sa QA noh so feel na feel ko yung price ko.. thanks mOwna and jeREmy!!! :D

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nakabangga ako ng tao for the first time in my life. last week. but mang eddie's fine now. may cast yung right leg nia. haaay. the sad part lang nun is that yun na nga lang yung kaligayahan nung matanda, mag-bike pero dahil i was a wreckless driver, ayun, 1 month shang hindi pwede mag-bike and for sure hindi na rin sha papayagan ng mga anak nia. buti na lang mabait yung family nia, well meron shang anak na nagagalit daw sa akin which i totally understand, but most of his kids hindi naman, nagtetext pa nga yung iba sa akin telling me to take care of myself and not to worry about mang eddie kasi he's fine naman. promise i don't want that to happen ever again. sobrang stress. but i'm thankful tapos na sha and the fact na naikwento ko na sha here is one of the signs na somehow i got over it na. my dad still hates me, he still doesn't want to talk to me. sad no? daddy's gurl pa naman ako. well i guess not anymore... funny kasi ako yung taong ayaw na ayaw magkamali pero i always end up doing all the wrongs in life. i hate disappointing my parents [and friends] but i think i always let them down. owel, that's me. tama na ang drama, hindi bagay.

what's the latest buzz ba? hmmm, oh yeah last saturady after shift, we had coffee at starbucks 6750 with mOwna and the morning shifters [hahaha shifters??] ayun, shempre chismisan, kwentuhan, tawanan and picturan. mowna's transferring na kasi sa ibang account [huhuhuhu] kaya we decided to have breakfast with her for [hopefully not] the last time. for pictures, visit suprem0's blog :D tapos mai and i went to greenhills at bumili ng slippers. hahaha dumayo pa talaga ng greenhills devarj?! hehe at nakita namin si imelda marcos there in fairness. complete with her hair do and outfit na parang aatend ng meeting sa kongreso. napaisip tuloi kami ni fren mai kung yung mga bags nia eh original or fake kasi she was scrutinizing a leather bag when we saw her eh. hwehehe whatever. so ayun, ikot-ikot gang mapagod then we decided to call it a day and sleep. shempre nomad ako so nakitulog ako kina mai. hehehe ayaw ko ng mag-sleep and drive you know. hehehe tapos kailangan pa bang i-memorize yan?! gimik sa gabi. same place :D op cors hindi na ko uminom ng beer dahil ayoko ng madisgrasha kaya rootbeer na lang ang ininom ko.. hahaha but i think i had one lang, si jemai pa nag-ubos. so there. mejo drama yung theme namin nung pauwe eh. 'wag ka alala fren, when i'm ready share ko sau lahat. baka sumuko ka sa pag-listen.. hahaha

tapos nung sunday ang original plan ay magsisimba kami ni jemai then coffee. hindi natuloi kasi may transhow sa megamall. we were with tNA and atong.. saya naman pero gusto ko talaga magsimba nun eh pero dahil hindi ako ang driver, wala akong sasakyan wala akong nagawa. ahihihi so paikot-ikot lang kami dun at nakita ko si juddah paolo! haahaay. so, there. end of story. hehehe gang dun na lang talaga yun eh. e2 pa noh, edi we were checking this truck na may magandang sound system sa likod, papunta ako sa malapit to get a closer look, pero dahil masikip at maraming dumadaan hinahayaan ko muna silang dumaan sa harap ko bago ako tumawid, tapos may weirdong guy na dumaan, nakatingin sa akin, tapos napasecond look pa sha then smiled at me na parnag he knows me from somewhere. basta funny. hindi ko alam panu ikwento without demonstration eh pero kakatawa sha, hindi alam kong nang-aasar lang pero whatever he's not cute anyway... ahhahaha ang sama ko. :D after transhow, we planned on watching a movie pero hamfafanget ng palabas so nagkape na lang kami while waiting for tNa and atong to decide kung saan next.ang alam ko sabi nila sa libis daw but for some odd reason we ended up sending jemai home. haaay gulo devarj?! :D

and ngayon, i'm here sa haus updatin' as per QA request. hahaha i can't explain how i feel now, all i know eh it's not so good. drama queen nga eh... maybe i just need sometime off. go away. far away...

i hate me.

i always say in most of my weekend entries that "it was one of the most memorable blah, blah, blah". which is true. but what happend last weekend was different - very different and yes, one of the weekends that i will NEVER EVER forget in my entire life. i don't think that i can talk about it now. i'm not ready. maybe i'll write what happend, maybe nOt. as of this time i'm still trying to get over it somehOw. but hey! i know i'll get by, this isn't the first time i have been through a tOugh [and i mean TOUGH] time, believe me :D

sOmething happened over the weekend that i am not sooo very proud of. it greatly affected everything - my priorities, my relationship with members of the family, my way of thinking, my whOLe life in general. it had made me realize a lot of things... how important presence of mind is, how important it is to save [:D], how i am responsible for every actions i make. hOW i love my parents [and grand parents] so much. hOW i value my friends. my gOd. i've realized them all in one day. grabe. these are the things i over looked. things that i almost never paid attention to because i was too complacent. i knOw that everything happens fOr a reason and what happened over the weekend was not an exception. i just need to find out what it is.. i know finding the reason for all these will not come overnight, it may take weeks, months or even years.. maybe gOd was asking me to slOw down. maybe he's telling me to seek him, kasi nakakalimutan kO na sha sa bilis ng takbO ng buhay ko. but whatever it is i am so eager to know what the reasons are.

dOn't get me wrOng i'm perfectly ok, maybe you're just not used to read entries here in a serious [???} manner.. [:D] basta, what happened will not stOp me frOm living life. i'm trying my best to stay the way i was before it happened. i'm cool. i'm good. i can't [yet] say that i've never been better but i know someday i will. time heals, right? so, there :D

PS. on the brighter side of LIFE, i am sooo happy for my fren mai. hehehe after all the sh*t that happened, at least someone important in my life is extremely happy. buti naman.

sa paRLOr

akalain mo ba namang maisipan namin magpaparlOr ano? wala na kaming pera nian ha? in fairness. hwehehe for vanity's sake sha sge.. :D

eh paano naman kasing hindi ako makukumbinse magpa-parlOr eh sa araw-araw na ginawa ng diyOs kinukutya ni jemai ang buhOk ko. shempre conscious ang lOwla. hahaha perO na-feel ko na rin naman na i need a treatment, after all muka na talagang sabokOt ang hairlaloo ko.

well ang original plan ko ay magpa-cellophane, pero dahil ginto ang presyO nagpa-hot oil na lang muna akO. hihihi si fren naman nagpa-gupit. i seriously wanted to dye my hair a different color para naman maiba but i guess saka na lang, mag-iisip muna akO ng magandang combination :D fren bought pang-kulay, he'll do it himself. sige goodluck fren...

at dahil shempre bagOng treat ang hair ko with matching blow dry pa, i ought to take pictures of me habang umeepektO pa ang chemical, hahaha kasi after kong matuLOg now, i'm sure balik sa dati. [lechers devarj?!] so etO ang mga remembrance hahahaha

o ayan mauta kau. kaya ko eh... hahahaha

alangan namang akO lang ano? itO po ang kaisa-isang picture ni fren after ng hair cut nia, not bad. hamfOwgi da buzz?!!hehehe

ehem.. we would like to thank bench fix for our hair :D

dAily pRayER

dear GOD,

thank you for all the blessings that you have showered upOn me and my love ones. i wish that you will never get tired of hearing my prayers. please continue to guide me in the course of life. please help me realize my wOrth. bLess and prOtect my family and friends.

AMEN.

baguiO part ii

A lotta people are actually waiting for this entry hahaha [kapal.] So etO na sha.

Last weekend mai and I went to BAGUIO. Oo na, kahit na bumabagyO na still, we headed there because of me. Nagpumilit akO. Sorry na fren.. anyhoo, so dalawa lang kami talaga na nagpunta dun, no itinerary whatsoever. Feel lang naming gumastOs. [hanuba?! Hihihi] kasi we thought abi and ten could join us apparently hindi po mga kaibigan so, there.. we left Manila Friday after shift. Are we serious?? Well I guess we were kasi naman twO days talaga kami there eh! :D ahehehe so, read on...

The bus ride.

Nyeta! Ang haba ng biyahe.. as in. aba eh malamang ano?! lahat na ng pwestO inisip na naming gawin para makatulOg but NOOOO. Hindi talaga. We can sleep for like a few minutes tapos magigising ulit. And yeah fren is right, food trip itO. Mais, bukO pie chicharOn.. sana you could meet mr. Buko pie slash mainit na masarap pa! Hahaha PanalO sha sa pagiging up-beat. Sales talk Kung sales talk! Nagtataka nga kami eh, mainit pa tapos sabi nia gawa daw sa laguna, hellew eh nasa Pangasinan na yata kami nung sumakay sha ng bus eh. Haaaay. ManOng? Are you serious?! Owel thanks na rin for making the looong bus ride a bit bright. [huwaaat? Bright?] and I would like to take this opportunity to thank kung sinO man ang imbentOr ng i-pod and to jemai�s mom for giving him his shuffle. Hehe sing galore kami ni fren to ease boredom. Then finally around 7pm we arrived, soaking wet from the rain.

At shempre ganun din pauwe.. we went home about 7pm then arrived in manila 2am. Hay kaka-stress. PeRO at least this time nakatuLOG ako NG mejO haba. Saya.

The room.

So, malamang pagod na kami at gutom ano?! we hafta decide where to stay. Forever naming dream sa Microtel hehehe unfortunately, hindi talaga pwede. Next time na lang I guess. Hihihihi we ended up staying in this place na akala ko ok na ok. Siguro pagod na ko kaya sabi ko ganda sha. Super ingay kaya? Yung mga tao sa ibang room parang walang pakialam sa ibang peepz na nagpapahinga, isama mo na ang mga taong nagwawalis na kung magkwento eh akala mo yung kausap nasa kabilang street pa. Parang may mega phone sa bibig! Ang mga kids� high pitched talaga sila kaya pag sumigaw bingi lang ang hindi makakrinig :D haaay stress talaga. EtO pa, the bed. Hay nako. Ambaho. Kakainis! Hampanghe. Sorry for the term pero yun talaga yun. Haaay buset. So ihafta to make siksik sa side ni fren without realizing malalaglag na talaga sha. Sorry na.. :D so everytime we sleep we have to wake up earlier than the usual.

So, there.

I remembered pa nga nung Saturday super aga namin nagising mga 430am, so sa sobrang wala kaming magawa edi nagrecord kami ng mga voice calls. Hahaha lw, pre ship, irate, mabait na customer name it. Hahaha complete with a scenario and shit. :D saya. Hindi ko alam kung na-miss ko ba ang pag-cocalls nung araw na yun or talaga lang wala kaming ibang matinong magawa. Hehehe

At siguro naman na feel nio na yung maligo ng malamig na water yung parang tinutusok ng kutsilyo sa lamig right? Owel go to baguio ng ganito ang panahon at ganun din mafi-feel nio 20 times! Seryoso. At in fairness walang HEATER! Hay sus. Tiniis ko ang lamig. Grabe. Haaaay. Unfortunately hindi man lang akO nagkasakit, considering na I didn�t wear jacket pag-nagmamalling kami. Tsk. Anube? Balat kabayO ba talaga aKO?! haaaaay

The UKAY experience.

In fairness hindi kami shadu nag ukay ng tOdo kasi nga magastOs. Ahihihi perO nakabili naman kami ng clothes especially si fren. Anuber? Eh lahat naman kasi ng clothes dun kasha sa kanya. But fOr some odd reason, he played my personal shopping assistant. Hehehe bumaligtad ang mga pangyayare ladies and gentlemen. Our friends knew that he was my KEN. Not that I am Barbie ano, [like, hellew? Ako si Barbie? Kelan pa?! Ahahaha siguro kung may madam Barbie ako yun hehehe] pero kasi dahil I love dressing him up. I mean hanap ako clothes for him or shoes, accessories, tapos he�ll try it on, yung ganun?! Basta. PerO nung araw na un, eh he got me two pants and a yellow top huwaaw devarj?! Thank you sa effort fren, I really appreciate it. Hindi lang talaga sigurO ako sanay ng pinupuri akO. PerO thanks a many :D muaaaah. Kailangan ko na mag-diet. Huwaaah kelan kaya magkakatotoo? Huhuhuhu help.

SM BAGUIO

Grabe, lagi lang talaga kami sa SM. Lakd here, lakad there, lakad everywhere!!! Lahat na yata ng coffee shop dun tinambayan namin. PerO it was fun naman. Anjan yung bukod sa kape na iniinom ko maraming kofi sa paligid, hehehe may masungit na waitress.. leche, naiinsecure ata sa akin eh. Kasi panu ba naman may isang vacant mesa sa labas nung coffee shop shempre para mas feel ang kape dun kami sa labas uupo, eh kaso nga lang puro kalat ang table so what I did was to ask the gurl inside [take note, in my nicest way..] na sana linisin nia yung table, kaya lang hindi pa kO finish sabihin yung request ko aba! Ki-nut akO!

Ako: hi, excuse me, ung table po sa la..

little Ms. Grumpy: sandali lang.

AkO: alright... [in my sweetest tone.. hehehe]

Lechers devarj?! Hang sunget. Eh hindi talaga pwede yun dahil ako lang ang may karapatang mag-sunget. [chos] I dowanna even mention the name of that place baka sumikat pa. Hmft. So there. Ahihihi

At may ilang beses din kaming nag-videoke there sa may quantum. We�re born singers I�m sorry. Can�t live a day without singing. Hehehe sarap ng feeling kasi kahit na wala na kO sa tOno. It gives me a relaxing feeling [haneeep] perO totoo un. We had two free pens from quantum. Why not. At sa susunod if ever we'll go back there I promise to sing na dun sa what I call FEELING-DIVA-STAGE. Ahihihi swear. Pati sa kaffe klatsch. KOnting ipon na lang ng courage :D nung Saturday nga as in andun lang kami maghapOn gang mag-gabi. I know, I know. Eh san naman kami punta umuulan? At sana pala nagsusuOt Ako ng jacket anO? Wag sana magmaganda :D and op cors we watched red eye. ahaha dumayO pa talaga ng sine.. ahihihi

Balconaje.

I love this place. Wala lang very cozy kasi. Pag punta kau ng Baguio check this place out. tumaas nga lang ng konti yung prices nila. Ahihii affected aKO eh :D they serve good food pati, mejO bagal service pero tolerable di katulad jan sa 7^th floor! :D

Nevada.

Shempre gimik galore. Uminom gang malasing. So there. Enough said. Ay! Teka I hafta share this, dati when we went there kasi dati for the first time with the whole bkada, there�s this guy I think his name is � haaay sorry forgot ko na, basta kamuka sha ni epi quizon, hehehe who asked me to dance swing with him.. so goRa naman ako nun, may natapakan pa nga kOng gurl nun eh. TapOS guLAt kami ni fren andun sha ulit [soulmate ba itO?! Hahaha HINDE. Swear.] and I thought hindi na nia ko kilala. But when I was going to the girl�s room tinawag nia akO: hey! Uwe ka na?! Mamaya na.. why not?? Hwehehe sabi ko lang sa kanya hindi pa kami uwe. Tapos un na un. At itO pa ang kitchie akalain mo ba namang may nahumaling na taga Bronx?! :D hwhehe joke lang kitch! [by the way, are you having fun? What�s your name again?! Kitchie?! NICE NAME! Let�s dance� hahahaha] buti pa kay kitchie may pumansin.. haaay. Well I guess I look like my mOm that night. Tsk. [hahaha peace tau ten!] I had sooo much fun. Puyat na naman.

Kaffe kLatsch.

The best coffee shop in baguio! Sana nga lang tama ang sfelling ko ano?! Well aside from starbucks john hay. You should check this out. Nice place, nice people. Sarap naman yung mga coffee nila and I especially enjoyed the homemade choco chip cookies. Yum. Mahal nga lang perO sarap naman. Very cool kasi may acoustic chuvaloo. I�ll sing there when I get back. PROMISE na itO. Hihihi we went there twice. Wala lang daming kofi!!! Nakalimutan ko nga bigla si thumb eh. Harharhar kung bakit thumb bahala na kaung mag-isip :D sana one day fren we�ll own a place like that, mas maganda pa! Wehehehe tapOS to top it off, tau lang ang performers. Oo na sige na suntok sa buwan :D

I met new friends there in baguio [hi james! Hi alrOn!] Saya. I hope to see them again when I go back there. Hopefully with the whole gang. I enjoyed the trip. I had fun too. Kaya lang nag-guilt trip ako for two days [gang now�] dahil feeling ko napilitan lang ang kasama ko. Pinagbigyan nia lang ang gusto ko :'( Pero sabi nia hindi daw, enjOi naman sha, so I think I'm good. Tnx fren. You�re the best sort-of bestfriend I ever had in my life!!! Ahahahaha.

Bakit ko sha naging sort-of bestfriend?! Wala. Secret na lang yun :D

In fairness, for the first time in the history of my lw life sabay kami nag-lunch ni ** today. Kinikilig aKO. As in. haahaaay. aHahaha hindi nga lang kami parehO ng table but still sabay pa rin kami kumain ng luch! Ahihihihi sarap ng food nia favorite kO iyon. Soulmate talaga kami. :D yun na..

haggardous na kami sa biyahe nyan in fairness.. :D

biyahE

alam nio ba kung nasaan akO? malamang hindi.. ahihihi oh well am here in the land where strawberries are mura and ube jams are always out of stock-- BAGUIO! :D i'm with my sort-of bestfriend* jemai! haha saya-saya. we left manila around 11am then arrived at 7pm. daaaaang haba ng biyahe i have to say ha?! aba eh malamang anO?! saka na ang full detail ng baguio part II pagbalik ko from here :D we're here in an internet shop along session road. mahirap mag-type hamfanget ng keyboard!

so far enjOi naman ako ewan ko lang 'tong kasama ko baka nabobore na sa akin hehehe wala nga lang shang choice kasi 2 days talaga kami here. but i think he's ok right sort-of bf?! hehehe ang aga aga pa kasi 835am pa lang wala pang bukas na ukay so we decided to internet ourselves..

so pano? till next entry...

*sort-of bestfriend -- ask jemai how and why. hehehe :D hmmm maybe i'll explain next entry na lang. tata!

change daw.

Bakit ba kasi kailangan may nagbabago? Hay. Pero Gaya ng nabanggit ko sa huli kOng entry, nothing's constant in this wOrld but CHANGE. i have to admit, sometimes [hindi pala, madalas pala hehehe], i hate changes. yung tipOng ok ka na biglang - BANG! [ahehehe kelangan may ganun talaga.. :D] may magbabago. sabi nila maganda nga yung may changes para naman maiba. i'm not even talking about change sa isang aspeto lang. i'm talking about CHANGE in general. Be it changes with your lifestyle, sa friends, lovelife, career at sa marami pang iba. minsan ok ka na with something, maayos na, sanay ka na na ganun tapos ayan na si change at guguluhin ka. haaaay. wala lang naisip kO lang yun. kasi sa tuwing may magbabagO sa buhay ko gumugulo LALO ako. hehehe ako pa naman ang klase ng taong walang sariling disposisyon at desisyon kaya kapag may nabago sa nakasanayan ko na nawawala ako sa sarili ko. Minsan I just breakdown hanggang masanay na ulit, tapos magbabago na naman! HANUBARGE?!

malamang takot lang akO sa pagbabago, kaya siguro boring ang buhay ko kasi kung ano lang yung nanjan, yung nakasanayan ko yun na lang. i'd settle lang for what i have. tsk. hamfanget noh?! Alam ko naman na hindi maganda yung ganun, kaya sinusubukan ko naman na hindi na magcompromise eh, yung umalis sa comfort zone ko, pero natatakOt talaga ako. haaaay, anu ba?! Tina-try ko naman ang maraming bagong bagay. I�m enjoying it I swear, kaya lang I�m scared to death na one day biglang maiba na naman. Leche. Owel I can only wait for that day hehehe but I know I�m good. I�ll be fine. Aba eh malamang kung hindi rin naman akO nakaka-adapt sa change malamng eh patay na ko no?! so there. ganito pala pag tumatanda na noh? ang komplikado... dapat live each day one at a time. eto na naman ako pinepressure ang sarili. hihihi whatever. sana pwede na lang piliin ung babaguhin no? for instance, sa itchura. obvious naman siguro sa inyo kung anu ang babaguhin ko no?! hehehe LAHAT! :D sa ugali, hay nako marami din. Yoko na isa-isahin pa baka bumaha sa floor.. :D sa kwartO ko, gusto ko oriental ang dating. japanese style with lanterns [hindi parol ok?! Ahihihi] and all.. sa station ko gustO ko sa tabi ni ano.. hahaha secwet [as if naman hndi nio pa alam ano?!] :P sa trabahO ko sana dealer calls na lang akO. hihihi sa pantry gusto ko sana dagdagan mga pc dun tapos may cable na 'yung tV! ahihihi yung hair ko sana manageable sha hindi magulo, hehehe my gawd! sana nga ganun lang kadali. am i making sense?! huwag nio nang sagutin, i know... :D

pero as if naman mapipigilan ko ang pagbabagO. shempre hindi. as an individual i hafta face it. live it. kahit ayoko. so, there.

updates

Sana nag-uupdate akO di ba?! Ewan ko ba, for some odd reasons, tinatamad akOng magkwento these past few days� perO dahil wala namang queue ngayOn I ought to write something.. hehehe

Hmmm, lemme see? Where to start?! Ah sige shempre nung weekend.. after shift nung Saturday, mai and I went to megamall.. huwaaw? It was like ages ago since last akong nagpunta duon.. seryoso. 4^th grade pa yata. Hihihi anyway, so aun we went there kasi fren is planning to buy a laptoP. hang sowsi devarj?! pero he's thinking about it pa, kasi naman noh lagi din naman sha sa opis. anyhoo, so aun malling galore. lakad here, lakad there, lakad everywhere... hahaha ni-treat nia nga pala ako ng lunch sa super bowl, i lOve my fren talaga, very generous.. :D then we checked out yung mga booths for travel around the philippines.. feeling travelers kami eh bakit ba? haha nangolekta lang naman kami ng napakaraming papel about hotels here and there. bora, palawan, subic, baguio, HK name it. basta. at dahil sadyang baby fez kami lagi kaming napagkakamalang students.. why nOt?! :D at ng makaramdam ng pagod ang aming mga katawang lupa, umuwi na kami at natulOg.

at shempre saturday nights are not the same kapag hindi kami lumabas. so mai and i went to the same place which, unfortunately, was no longer in operation. nilipat na sha. huhuhu so we had no choice but to go somewhere else. we ended up staying in this place na parang may nagpa-party lang hahaha. as in. hindi namin feel yung place or hindi lang siguro ako at home. hahaha but then again nothing compares to 2 [or 3?] bottles of san mig light so keri na rin. hihihi tapOs as usual lakad galore, checkin' out hehehe etO pa, para mawala ang tama ko kailangan sing kami sa music 21. at sa hindi inaasahang pangyayare, nakabasag lang naman akO ng ash tray!!! sorry talaga. hilO lang po. hindi ko sinasadya. shempre hindi ko binayaran tinago pa namin sa likod ng tv para hindi makita. ang bad no?! hihihi anu ba? buti nga hindi yung tv yung nabasag ko noh? ahehehe and i'm syuur marami naman silang ash tray na reserve.. so there. hihihi my bad. :D that night din pala i have met new acquaintances. hindi talaga friends, acquaintance lang hahaha basta. ok naman. di ba no fren?! hehehe anyhow mas maaga kaming umuwi nung mga time na yun compared to our lakads before. we had breakfast sa chowking then call it a day and rest.

linggo.. september 11th. hmmm ah nasa haus lang akO bumming around when bessie sent me a text message saying na she's going to hang out sa bahay. aba eh makikikain lang pala ng lunch. buset. hahaha ok lang kasi miss ko na yun eh. [kung binabasa mo itO, wala lang lovesyah bessie TNA!tag naman dyen.. :D] at nakiligO po sha ladies and gentlemen.. may date sila ni atOng sa hapon eh. kainis devarj?! :D samantalang akO taong bahay. tsk. that's my life. anyways that's where i belong, sa apat na sulok ng kwartO ko. hehehehe at nag online nga pala akO chat kami ni fren at nung nagfifeeling na bespren ko raw! hahaha ang sama ko talaga. i dowanna elaborate baka sumikat pa sha! :D ang alam ko nanuod lang ako ng da buzz tapOs ngork ngork na ko ng biglang.. dumating si tsikee! nagyayaya sa tagaytay. starbucks daw. ayun drive ever ang lowla nio, buti naman ni-treat akO ni marGe hahaha i love mah friends talaga! :D so there. umuwi akO sa haus mga 230am na.

the following day, monday nuOD kami sine nila mai, ten and tefi. we watched brOther grimm. ok naman. hindi naman sha panget perO hindi din naman ganun kaganda. as i have said, ok lang. [umaarte?!] grabe ang tagal na naming hindi nanunuod ng sine ng magkakasama, i mean yung saturday group. we have different schedules na kasi. but we see to it na kahit minsan we hang out. kaya lang sobrang minsan na lang. oh well, basta frenships, oweiz remember na kahit ganun we're here for each oda pa rin hokei?! nuttin's changed. schedules lang.. :D ang aga namin ni fren pumasok yesterday, kaya before we went off to work nag-KOFI at coffee muna kami ehehehe kwentuhan na para bang hindi kami nagkita ng ilang taOn hahaha saya-saya. ahahaha nakita namin si dolphy sa gyeta! papa-autograph sana 'ko eh! joke. tapos nung papunta na kami sa favorite kong parking lOt sa G3, nakasalubOng namin si doug kramer [sha lang talaga yung napansin ko ahihihi..] perO shempre kasama nia si chesca garcia, ang pretty-pretty nia parang akO. hahaha shempre joke lang. aga namin sa opis 10pm pa lang dun na kami so malamang grumpy galore na naman ako sa customers dahil puyat! :D churi po.

perO kahit puyat na at lahat, nakuha pa rin namin magmalling ni jeremy. hahaha where else? sa kwartO namin. sa G4. papatayo na kami ng bagO G5. may screening muna sa entrance bago makapasok. hahaha devarj fren?! :D whatever. hanu ba?! are you seeer-yuuus?! naglunch lang us at nagpa-pierce si mai sa ears. pansinin nio naman! hahaha :D so, there.

oh well i was supposed to be on leave for this week kaya lang a lotta things have changed. as in. schedules, mga unwanted circumstances, budget [hehehe] atbp. well, i guess the only thing that is constant in this world is change so wala akOng magagawa sa ngayon. sabi nga nila be patient and everything else will follow. you cannot have everything your way kaya dapat compromise. haaaay. sige na nga. ok na rin at least sa mga nangyare i was able to help out a friend. he needs those leave allocations more than i do. perO shempre we hafta make up for that trip na hindi matuloi-tuloi. hehehe and that's one entry na you don't want to miss! :D hahaha till next!

**nga pala ang latest chika about the Saturday group ay lahat sila may bagong nike shoes.. na ORIGINAL akO lang ang wala kasi poor lang ako, sorry guys I can't buy eh pang-greenhills lang ako, bili na lang kayo ng car nio ha?! :D hahahha I love you frens!!! :D**