DRAMA

kamusta naman di ba? hindi na ako nakakapag-update ng bLog. hmmm so while waiting for my friends sige sulat muna ako. actually, sa papel na lang ako nakakapagsulat ng mga saloobin ko't drama sa buhay kong makulay pa sa daster ng nanay ko na bulaklakin. but then again, or so i thought, hindi pala makulay nor bulaklakin ang life ko hehehe feeling ko lang. kasi naman ibang klase ako. a lot doesn't understand how i think, how i see things and what my perceptions in life are. a lot say i'm too hard on myself dadada... well, maybe. i dunno, kakapagod nang mag-analyze. hehehe ayoko na.

hmmm kamusta naman ang buhay ko ngayon? owel, haggradous verzosa! as in. i never thought being in the training department is so, so, well... what's the word? hmmm... complicated?! grabe dati akala ko enough na yung memoryado mo na ang ins and outs ng account mo, NOOOOO. it's all that and MORE. it's fun naman i'm enjoying it especially when i see that my class is doing good. nga pala, friends ko na rin sila... hehehe i love my class! babait na singers pa! hahaha there are times that we would just sing all together. basta funny. haaaay. when i'm inside the training room running my class, it helps me forget of all the things that are not supposed to be in my mind in the first place. basta. they make me laugh really, really hard. promise. one of these days post akong pictures namin. shempre pa, sila ata ang unang mga biktima ko. hahahaha i mean they are the first class i ever taught since i got promoted nung may 1st. believe me marami akong boo boos na pinagdaanan at pinagdadaanan pa... eh ako pa, eengot engot ako madalas eh. haaaaay.

and there's another thing that i always think about, yung tipong mapapa *SIGH* na lang ako kapag naaalala ko, yung JG DAYS. hay people from hempownic will agree with me on this... di ba mga friends??! aminin nio, JG days are the best! lalu na nung nasa 1230am shift ako kahit UBER dami ng calls, i didn't mind. as in. sabi ko nga kay marvin those were the best JG days of my life. if i can only turn back time... unfortunately we can't. I can't. hay talaga :'( pero sabi nga nila nothing is constant but "change". fine. sige na nga.

15 days from now eh 25 years old na ko. eeeew. meaning 5 years na lang 30 years old na ko, meaning tumatanda na ako, meaning finish line na. haaaaaay STRESS!

don't get me wrong, i'm perfectly fine. i'm happy naman dahil sa wakas natupad na yung isa sa mga goals ko this year. early birthday gift nga eh... pero if you're in my shoes, mararamdaman mo kung anong meron. ay, mali... kung ano pala ang wala. kung ano ang kulang.

i know i will never be alone. hindi talaga pwede yun eh, imposible... pero parang all my life yun yung feeling ko?! totoo. again, hindi nio naman alam yun, kasi hindi naman kayo ako. there can only be one ME. buti naman kungdi dadami ang maarte sa mundo.
hang drama syet.