MY SWEET THANG!

i really like this song from mary j. blige. i already heard this song a long time ago but was only able to appreciate the lyrics when i heard it sang by gabrielle union and ll cool j in their movie, DELIVER US FROM EVA.

obviously, i dedicate this song to someone i know. hehehehe someone who's not mine and can't deny it!

SWEET THING

I will love you anyway

Even if you cannot stay

I think you are the one for me

Here is where you want to be

I just want to satisfy ya

You're not mine and I can't deny it

Don't you hear me talkin' baby

Love me now or I'll go crazy

Whou ohh, Sweet thang

Don't ya know you're my everythang

Whou ohh, Sweet thang

Don't ya know you're my everythang

Yes you are

I wish you were my lover

But ya act so undercover

Love ya child my whole life long

Is be right or be wrong

I'm only what ya make me, babyDon't walk away,

Don't be so shady

Don't want your mind,

Don't want your money

These words I say, they may sound funny but...

You are my heat, you are my fire

You make me weak with soft desire

Love ya child my whole life long

Is be right or be wrong

I just want to satisfy ya

Cause you're not mine,

I can't deny it

Don't ya hear me talking baby

Love me now or I'll go crazy

You're my heat, you are my fire

You're not mine, I can't deny it

Don't you hear me talking baby

Love me now or I'll go crazy

whatever will be, will be

Nung bumisita ako sa doctor ko last week, natawa ako sa comment nia nang makita nia akong muli sa clinic nia; “ija! Four years later, you’re here again!” … ganda di ba? Sabi ko nga sa kanya; “oh well, I wish I never had to go back but, here I am!” anyhow, though kinakabahan ako sa tuwing ico-confirm nia lahat ng tanung ko sa kanya [yes, I have been reading about alopecia through the internet in the office], todo-smile ang lola nio. Ang ending ayun, 7 shots of some kind of steroid to irritate my scalp and force to grow hair. I’ll be doing that in the next 2 months for 3000Php each session along with creams na ipapahid ko sa ulo ko everyday. Ang effort no? at ‘di lang yun isama mo na rin yung everyday na takot ko dahil sa tuwing babangon ako sa kama ko may buhok na naiiwan o kaya kahit nakaupo ako o nakatayo bigla na lang may mahuhulog na buhok. Mental torture ito. Pero I’m really trying hard not to think about it kasi baka lalong maging dahilan yun para maubos ang crowning glory ko. Hay enough na nga yan.

Matgaal-tagal ko na ring hindi nababanggit ang prinsipe ng buhay ko. Yuck. Ngayon parang it sounds ridiculous. Hahaha. Siguro unti-unti na akong nauuntog at nagigising sa katotohanan. good for me ! : ) I’m not saying that my heart no longer skips a beat whenever he calls or whenever he’s around, but the more I think about the idea of me and him – it’s just impossible. Way impossible. Kaya huwag na lang. Or I think it’s better to say, whatever will be, will be. Right?!

that's LIBERTY fOr me!

ang tagal ko na nga naman na walang post. eh kasi naman wala akong maisulat.

pero dahil sabi ni tenten magsusulat na ako uli. haaay. less than 30 days na lang ang ilalagi ko sa office. grabe after 15 months, it finally hit me. "tigil na tOnya, hindi ka na masaya." yan ang laging nasa isip ko for the past few weeks. i'm excited pero scared din. excited dahil finally i'm going to be free of every reason why i'm feeling depressed, exhausted and shit. scared kasi i'm about to lose money. how am i going to live eh wala naman akong naipon... naririnig ko na tuloi ang mommy ko: "i told you, mag-ipon ka na..."

ayoko namang isipin nila na i'm blaming LIBERTY for all these, because i am. CHOS. hindi naman lahat sa work ko sinisisi. siguro i have issues of my own. kaya nga timing na timing ung entry ni tenten and josa about midlife crisis. nakaka-relate ako. i'm torned between money and career. kasi naman pag-sinunod ko ang aking dreams, walang money pag nagtagal naman ako dito may pera nga ako, ipapang-ospital ko nga lang din. haaaay hanglabo men! minsan nga sabi ko gusto kong ma-COMA ng mga 2 weeks tapos gigising ako ulit. pero ang morbid naman, chaka hindi naman 'ata healthy ung ganun. whatever.

kaya nga i'm thankful kasi i have my friends and family to help me get through this stage of my life. wish ko lang pagnatapos nga lahat ito may buhok pa akO. i have alopecia areata, wag naman sanang maging alopecia universalis and by the term i think you know what's the worst thing that can happen. i just laugh about it though. ayoko na lang isipin. but to all my friends who's reading this thanks a many hokei?! i love you guys.. naks ang drama.

so, there.

some random thought.

70% friendship and 30% love.
What was that? Should I say a formula my good friend made up? Haha. Well, kinda’. Actually, he mumbled these words to me when we are talking on a Thursday afternoon. Kailangan daw kasi sa isang relationship, mas lamang ang pagiging magkaibigan kaysa sa pagiging maka-ibigan. Haneeep… was I mesmerized by that?! Hehehe but seriously, I found myself agreeing to that proposition. Totoo naman kasi and I know a lot of people will agree to this too. But in my case it’s going to be 60% friendship and 40% love. Para naman kasing sobrang baba ng 30% for love. Napaisip tuloy ako, when will I ever have that? I mean kahit nga 10% love na lang. Oh well, may ba after 4 consecutive leap years pa.* knock knock knock * wag naman sanang ganun katagal. Baka may asawa na ung baby sister ko mag-boboyfriend pa lang ako. Hehe.