Monday, January 31, 2005

grumpy 'ol me.

monday afternoon... spending time with my inaanak, cire. oh well with pie and eric of course. just ate lunch at wendy's. *busog* anyway, i don't feel good today, i feel yappy and grumpy. i don't know if it has something to do with the hearts and other valentine thingys i see around [bitter ba itO?]. i feel like reading a book today, stay in my room, mope around or watch tv. i dunno. whatever.
know what? last night was the first time i ever entered a casino. i went there with my aunt amy and uncle boy. nothing fabulous i must say. 'kala ko maganda, hindi pala mashado. it's fun especially if you're winning but it can get boring too. buti na lang i'm with pie and eric. we played roulette and tried the slot machine. NO. i didn't win anything. i was there for the heck of it. something to do on my restday i guess.
i think i know why i feel odd today. i did something stupid yesterday. i called someone just because... then find myself feeling sooo awkward [and yeah you can say it, STUPID] afterwards. parang gusto kong ipukpok ung ulo ko sa pader for being so impulsive! i should've thought about calling HIM before i actually did. *kainis* whatever.
haaaaay, forget it. tapos na yun eh. GRRRRR.

Saturday, January 29, 2005

new lOok!

i love the new template i used for my blog. akOng ako. now, i just have to learn how to load pictures and other blog things in here! : )

this is "the sOng.."

the song that best describe my feelings now : )
TAKE MY BREATH AWAY
by: emma bunton
If I told you how I feel about you
Would you say the same and
If I wrote it in a letter Would you keep it or throw it away
I never thought I'd feel the way I'm feeling lately
When everything you seem to do just drives me crazy
Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you'll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away
If You told me how you feel about me Cos I did not know
If you said you'd fill my heart with all your loving Til it overflowed
I don't know the way you feel but boy I'm hoping
I always used to hide a way, but now I'm open
Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you'll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you'll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away
so, there. : ) haaaaaaay. dream on, tOni. dream on.

MY oh MY... : )

omg! it's been two days since my last entry. and honestly, i think i'm kinda hooked up with this blog thingy that i was sooo excited to come to the office and update! : )

...thursday, well when i got home i slept for about two hours and then i meet up with piE and went to miggi's in baccor to see her hubby eric, who's celebrating his 22nd birhtday nung araw na yun. la lang we just ate and spend the whole afternoon chatting. 5pm i was at home and tried to get some sleep before 8:30 pm because i was supposed to go somewhere with ben. unfortunately, hindi ako nagising ng 8:30! when i woke up t'was already 11pm. so i called him up and said sorry. i really didn't mean to stood him up. i was just really sleepy and i guess exhausted. good thing, t'was fine with him. then after that, i slept again till 6 in the morning. : )

...friday, a very long day but boy, was it fun! at 8 am, i had my nails done [i tried a shade of pink nail polish for a change, hehe] then at 9:30 i picked chiqui up coz i'm going to drive my aunt and uncle to hotel pavillion to meet up with someone. we arrived there at 11:30am. chiqui and i decided to get something to eat and ended up eating in jollibee pedro gil. i had cheeseburger meal [as always]. chiqui's shift won't start until 3pm so we decided to go to G4. this was the thing, i thought we had our sweldo na, you guessed it right! wala pa. kainis. i only had P500 in my wallet! i almost never go to glorietta to shop because i never had the time and energy [ though malapit lang sha from where i work], tapos when i finally had the chance, ganda! wala akong pera! grrr. i just bought myself a pair of earrings for P50, in fairness sulit naman kasi a lot of my friends think it's cute on me : ) haha and a chime, god knows where i'll put it but anyway, i bought it coz meron shang star na design. heehehee at 2:30 i dropped chiqui off at her office, then received a text message from my mom saying that i need to go and get cj's report card. so, i went there, got the card, talked to his teachers about a failing grade [tsk.] right after that i went to tina's and picked her up [yes, you got it right, official driver ng barkada : )] kasi we're going to eric's party in the evening. when we got home, we just chilled out in my room, watched tv then received a call from pie to get dressed and go to sm. so we got up, got dressed then drove down to sm with my inaanak cire cedric. whew! tapos nun dumeretso na kami sa house nila and ate. yumyum. and next? drinking session! wooohooo! : )

i can say that party is one of the most decent parties i've been to, hehe well based on my experience with birthday parties, lagi kasing may nag-aaway or hindi naman enjoy but eric's party was a blast! promise. i had met a lot of new friends, well eric's cousins and friends. i was with my bestfriends [pie and tina] so i was really enjoying myself last night. though hindi ko feel magpaka-lasing hehehe.

and one good thing happend that night.. *kilig* [yuck feeling highschool, anyaway--] i have this crush, he's eric's cousin about 3 years younger than i am.. [eeheehee] his name is MYRO. he's cute, an inch taller than iam and has chinky eyes. yep. my kinda guy.. ewan ko ba ayoko talaga sa matangkad. hehe anyway so ayun, he went there had a few drinks, nakipagkwentuhan; sa akin? oo naman. : ) well, actually he was making pa-cute with bestfriend tina, but i'm ok with that, haller?! after all crush ko lang naman sha.. so there. :P then he bid goodbye at around 2am. yeah, i was bummed alright but what can i do? [haaaaay.] then at about 2:30am, pie's landline rang. deadma lang kami kasi we're busy bragging about the corniest jokes we know tapos kiko finally answered the phone and guess who it was for? ME. the person calling? "mike" daw. i thought, how the hell did my brother knew pie's landline number? but i picked the phone up anyway. i said, "hello?" then "mike" answered. well, obviously, si myro pala un.. hehehe *kilig* we talked for nearly an hour that seemed forever [haneeeeep]. feeling ko we have talked almost about everything. i honestly don't want to jump into any conclusion nor lift my hopes up, but i feel that there could be something. i mean something's about to happen. i just don't know when or how. let's see... it could be a nice thing to write here in my blog. hehehe i feel like singing this line from little mermaid's ost:
" ...i don't know when, i don't know how,
but i know something's starting right now...
wondering free, wish i could be part of your world..."
o davarge?! kinaya mo ba?! well wala lang.. : ) my gOd, i just can't stop smiling. my cheeks hurt. : )
and now, here i am, in my station writing all these. waiting for the clock to hit 6:00am. endshift, release. restday ulit for two days! woohooo! : ) so there. that was my thursday and friday.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

wOoohOoo!

my gOd!!! it's my restday today [and on friday], well actually in few hours pa naman.. but i am sooo excited! and the good thing is, when the new schedule kicks in, it'll be my restday again! for two days [sunday and monday]! so that's 4 days of not taking calls. yahooooo : )

well, now that i'll be going home at 6:30 am, i will have more time to go to the gym and work out. naguiguilty na kasi ako eh.. the last time i worked out was during the 2nd week of december! imagine that?! [tigas ng mukha!] and not only that, i'm wasting P2,100 of my money for nothing, kaya dapat lang na bumalik na akO! oh well, for sure i will. : )

well, it's now 2:15 CST and in about 3 and a half hours, UWIAN NA!!!! that's LIBERTY for me.. hehehe i'm actually thinking on what to do on my restdays.. nga pala, sasabay si chiqui ngayon sa 'kin pauwe. yehey hindi boring pauwe.. for sure when i get home later i'll go get some sleep for like a few hours before going to the mall with pie and eric. naku, which reminds me, may sweldo na kaya? hmmm siguro, thursday night pa un, so there.

i was suppose to go with atong to pick tina up in ortigas together with their friend jOp but unfortunately, i have lakad. i promised ben i'd go with him, err, somewhere, i don't know.. but anyway.. so aun.. : ) i just wish he won't do or say anything that will make me feel awkward. PUHLEEEEZ. because i wouldn't know how to react. i'm such a weirdo pa naman pag ganyang mga instances -- if you know what i mean. well, whatever.

... i'm like waiting for tina's reply to my text message. 30 minutes ago, still, no reply, marami siguro shang calls. tsk! tOo bad. good for us here hindi mashadu.. haaaaay wish ko lang 7:30 am na! ... 'till next : )

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

whew!

9 days after my last entry... nothing much happened, as i always say, "same old shit." oooops. sorry for the term, but, that's just the way it is.. same old, same old. nothing new. but these past few days i have been getting a lot of signs to quit my job. ewan ko nga eh, minumulto ako. hehe. i would always hear or read quotes like " follow your heart, follow your dreams, blah, blah,blah." "if you're not happy with what you're doing, quit, stop and change." my god! what am i to do? i am torned between the fact that if i quit now, wala na kong pera and if i'm going to continue this shit then i might end up in the mental hospital, gone all ballistic and crazy! whatever. i know i'll figure it out one day. i just hope it's not too late.
well, let's drop that subject and move into the lighter side of life! : ) i have this crush from my previous work *kilig* ehem, anyway , na hindi ko na napag-iisip dahil na rin sa tagal kong hindi sha nakikita, if i'm not mistaken november 2003 ko pa sha huling nasilayan, for some reason, eh bigla kong naalala. i was watching mtb ang saya saya! [i seldom watch tv during daytime coz i'm always asleep], then i saw JE SISON, a tv idol who looked just like him! and not only they look alike, they also have the same gestures and even the way they speak is the same... ung tipong parang tuod kausap? ung ganun? hehehe so ayun wala lang na-share ko lang... next thing i did was send him a text message, know what?! he replied with a quote too! *kilig* la lang babaw noh? feeling highschool.. hahahaha. i don't mind. so there.
if i have the time tomorrow i'll post another entry. i feel like i have so many things to write here but got so little time. and besides, kakahiya naman kay TY, he's waiting for me to finish my entry para makauwe na kami, which reminds me sabay din pala si bryan and annuh!!! gotta go! bye for now...

Monday, January 17, 2005

huwaaaaah.

i gOt another zero [yes! tumpak, bokya] QA score.
i feel incompetent though i know i am nOt.
i hate it.
i know i am not less of a person because of those stupid QA scores but then again why do i feel this? haaaaaaaah. whatever.
oh well, what i'm gonna do is to go home and get some sleep, try not to think about it and stay pretty [where did that came from?!].

akO din!

i know, i know... i'm trying hard to fit in.. ya know, making this blog thing and all that. hiihihi well i just thought of making one since everybody in the office is doing it.. [gaya-gaya in short.] i'm not even a writer but hey! what the heck? last time i checked this is a free country : )

i just felt i can use this to express my happiness, depression, anxiety,my achievements, my everyday life and even vent out my frustrations. i thought that seeing my life [well part of it] in writing will somehow make me think and ponder over what happend, reflect and maybe come up with a solution if needed. i know it'll be a good way to express what's on my mind and heart [naaaks].

oh well, i hope this is not just one of those things that i started but fails to continue and maintain. so there.


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