in my drEams

i wish to live in my dreams where i can be with the one i want to spend my life with; [for now i guess. i so know myself, fickle minded!] i can change my mind at any time without thinking. but as of this time i wish to be trapped in my slumber, live there for a moment and be with him. live life as if it was our last day on earth. why in my dreams? It's because in my dreams, as i have told a friend, HE's mine; in my dreams, i'm HIS. in my dreams we're together- forever. but how long can i stay asleep? how long can i hold on to my dreams? not for long because eventually i have to wake up from my insanity. i have to face the fact that my dream will never be a reality. but how come they say dreams come true? maybe for others but not in my case. with me it's like saying that NEMO can ride a bike or susan roces can rule this country. OR i'm just starting to lose hope. i know it's too early to even think that and others may say i'm just over reacting, well maybe i am, but that's another part of the story. i'll deal with that later on. i hope to find the answers to all my questions then be able to accept them. can i sleep now? can i not wake up?

...o da barge? ang drama. tsk.