been tagged [AGAIN] by jOse fRAnsiscO

WHAT i WAS LIKE NUNG...
20 Years ago

hmmm, at 4 years old? wala akong maalala, but i bet this was the time na mega-larO lang ako sa haus. at sabi ni mommy ko ang favorite kong outfit ay panty lang. hahaha hamfanget.

15 Years ago
9 years old ako nito, transferee ako sa good sheperd nung mga panahon na yun and that's when i met jenny anne. one of my treasured friends. this was also the time na na-realize ko na maganda pala ang boses ko. ahehehe [kapal] aba naman sinali ako ng teacher ko, si ms. maligmat [pero mrs. na sha ngayon..] sa singing contest! ang winning piece? 'one moment in time' hahaha unfortunately though it's a winning piece, it was sung by a loser so talO po ako ladies and gentlemen. hahaha

10 Years ago
i was a sophomore student in my beloved highschool, Imus Institute. this was the first time na may lalakeng nalason ng beauty ko. hahaha his name was christian. which reminds me.. nasaan na kaya yun?

5 Years ago
19 years old. kaka-transfer ko lang ulit ng DLSU-D galing LETRAN. shempre dahil nagmaganda akO sa pagta-transfer at pagshi-shift ng kurso imbes na junior na ko balik akong sophom0re. grrrr. pero ok lang kasi i met the most wonderful and crazy bLOck in the universe! haaay miss ko na PSC 4-2 '03. simulation tau ulit goB?! hahaha

3 Years ago
21 na taOng gulang na ako.. hmm this was in the year 2002. lahat ng ka-batch ko including my bessie TNA ay ga-graduate na this year. mejo sad kasi nahuhuli ako.. huhuhu haggard ako 'tong year na ito dahil sa thesis namin about social developement involving NGO's and the Local GOvernment in some cities and towns in the province of cavite. parang totOo da barge?! this was also the year na nasaktan ako ng sobra-sobra. yun na! [naks ka-furlahan na ito..]

Last year, 2004
One year na 'kO sa call center bilang eREP at 'gang ngayon eREP pa rin. haaay. and for the nTH time, nasaktan [tsk. walang kadala-dala..] basta maraming regrets sa taong ito. haaaaar. but it made me and my bessie closer. hahaha

This year
2005! hahaha nung new year's eve super nag-dasal akO kay god na sana maganda ang taOn ko. hmm hindi naman nia ako binigo. nuttin' special though but i was able to realize a lot of things that made me what i am today. i met my NFFs slash breakfast club slash saturday group! halubshu guys!!! : )

Yesterday
nag-malling kami ni jemai at natuklasan ang salitang -- FURLA!!! nawindang kakatawag sa mga *bleep bleep* [secwet muna] napuyat dahil blog galore and download furla.. na hindi naman nagwork sayang lang ang pinuyat ko.. churi fren.

Last night
aba edi anditO sa opisina at nakikipag-away sa mga callers! : )

Today
sabi ko nga mejo sad akO today. haaay. but i don't want to. sige na nga smile na lang ako. i have my friends and family. i'm blessed.

Tomorrow
same oLD. office. log-in. calls. escalations. transfer. break. calls ulit. lunch. blog. break. endshift. haaaaay napaka-routinary no?!

Next year.
sana na-promote na kO by that time. [wish ko lang] hopefully living independently in very own pad [di ba no fren?!] *crosses my fingers* tapos sinusuyod ang buong asia [muna] with mah fren hahaha [naman.]

5-10 Years from now
sana i married the man of my dreams na.. pero malabO ata un. wish ko lang eurOpe na yung tinatravel namin. hahaha now... that's more like it! : ) stable na sana yung work ko, may business ako. tapos ung pad ko nung 2006? naibenta ko na tapos bumili ako ng condo unit sa may oakwood or sa may rockwELL or kahit saan.. [HUWAAAAW oa na 'tO..] tapos lahat ng friends ko from all those years kasama ko pa rin, pati family ko buo pa din.. haaaaay

And now I'm passing this on to MAI, TEFI, TEN, MACK and ARLYNE.

me

i'm sad.

i'm frustrated.

i feel incompetent.

i feel incomplete.

in shOrt, WALA AKONG KWENTA.

i hate being me :'(

i wish i were somebody else.

if i were you, stay away frOm me. mamalasin kayo.

wOrd of the dAy

ang effort-effort!!! huwaaaah. -- yun na muna nag masasabi ko sa dinadanas namin ni mai sa mga panahon na ito. saka na ang detalye. ahahaha mabitin muna kayo jan.everthing will be written here in time, hokei?! : )

grabe na itO, 227pm na talaga eh, nagba-blog pa rin ako. tsk. maikukumpara itO sa pagco-'coffee' namin ni jemai... BISYO NA 'TOOOO! ahihihihi pero naman kasi mga kaibigan kong tunay, hindi pwedeng hindi ko ibahagi ang aming natuklasan sa apat na sulok ng GLORIETTA. tumpak! maraming madidiskubre sa lugar na iyOn, mangyari lamang na maging mabusisi sa pagmamatyag at pag-oobserba. hindi naman sha mashadong makakapektO sa pagkatao nio o di kaya naman makakapagbago ng inyOng buhay- ngunit, subalit datapwat isa itong dagdag kaalaman. handa na ba kayO?! hehehe

after shift, nagmalling ulit kami ni fren [obviously sa glorietta ano?!]. dahil bibili kami ng mga CDR upang i-burn ang video ng performance nia nung linggo, which by the way one of the reasons why i'm still up blogging. hehehe oh well, habang naghahanap kami ng mabibilihan, may nakita kaming kung anong nakatawag ng aming pansin. isa itong tindahan ng damit and the likes. ang pinagpipitaganang word of "our" [and could be yours too! :)] day: FURLA. ahahahaha

etO sha o...

winner da barge?! ahahahahaha akala nio na ba kung anu na?! churi.. mababw lang talaga kasi ang kaligayahan ko eh! : ) in fairness we can't help but laugh. epekto yata ng puyat ito sa amin. and shempre umandar na ang aming mga imahinasyon. napagtanto namin na ang salitang FURLA ay maaring gamitin sa ating pang araw-araw na pamumuhay. pwedeng ihambing sa 'CHORVA', 'CHOS', 'CHARING' and so on and so forth.. : ) di ba? tama akO? who would've thought na may ganitong salita na nag-eexist sa ating bansa?! actually marami kaming naisip na maaring gamitan ng salitang ito. kasi nga pwedeng substitute sa mga nabanggit ng words sa itaas. di ba mahilig taung: " so, anung ka-chorvahan na naman ba yan ha? " palitan mo lang yung 'chorva' ng furla -- 'anu na naman bang ka-furlahan yan ha? ' OR when pertaining to a small thing, furlilet. kapag stylish edi furlish. at marami pang iba. use your imagination. pwede kayong mag-suggest, write lang kau sa comment. ahehehe hmmm naisip ko rin na pwedeng mag-evolve itong salitang ito sa furliloo or furlilooosh. pwedeng furlala o kaya naman furlaley depende kung saang word or phrase i-susubstitute.. hanu ba itO?! saan ko ba pinagkukuha ang mga ideya ko. kumokorni na ko ng tuluyan.. forgive me.

nung una kong makita yung word, napaisip ako bigla kung ano ang ibig sabihin nito. ito ba ang naglalarawan ng isang bagay o tao na maraming fur OR furry yung may ari... things like that!` ahaha tama na nga baka mademanda na akO. peace po sa mga avid shoppers and owners ng shop na ito, nakakatuwa lang talaga kasi. hayaan nio one time pagsinipag akong gumawa ng feasib about boutiques [as if naman i'm planning to have my own..hmmm but now that i mentioned it, why nOT?!`ehehe], itong shop na ito ang gagawin kong reference. excuse na rin para malaman ang history and what's in the NAME? da barge?! : )

hindi ko ma-dig ang entry na ito. ala na namang ka-sense sense. sorry dear readers [dear readers daw oh? kapaal. ahihihi] i'll come up with a good entry by the next days, yung may sense. sabi ko na titigilan ko na ang magpuyat eh. tsk. talaga naman o.. haaay. so, there

PINK na ang favorite color ko! hahaha

grabe, i hafta say ha, ang hirap mag-upload ng video may katagalan sha.. anyhoo i decided to write na lang para naman hindi sayang ang time, sabi nga ni ten, gawing productive ang araw as much as possible so here goes..

after shift nung saturday, mai and i went to gateway. it was a very, very cool place. haha mas feel kong mag-shopping si jemai dun. hahaha wala naman kasi akong pang-shopping eh. anyway, so aun na nga we went there nag-lunch at nag-coffee *wink* heheh :p at para na rin bilihin ang shoes of his dreams. check it out! ang danda-danda.. nike free yung yellow something like this,

*ooops uploading video update: 77mins left to finish.. galeeeng.*

tapos we strolled around, first time ko dun eh so inikot namin yung mall. one time gusto ko watch ng movie dun. wala lang. eh di ba nga may riot sa 'min [exxage!] so i hafta be home by 1pm kung ayaw kong masaktan. so pagkahatid ko kay fren i went home na wishing na hindi muna kami magkasalubing ng tatay ko dahil i dunno how to react but as they say kung sino o anu pa yung iniiwasan mo yun lagi ang makakdaupang palad mo, pagdating ko andun ang tatay ko sa living room at nanunuod ng national geographic. haaaay what's with snakes ba? he's very fascinated with 'em. anyway, deadma lang at umakyat na kaagad ako sa room ko supposedly para matulog. but nooo. after an hour dumating si TNA. oo kumakatok na naman na parang may sunog sa labas. haaaay. shempre bumangon na ko to catch up with the latest chika about her love life. hahaha buti naman they're ok na : ) order kami pizza sa greenwich, garden fresh daw para iba naman. oo iba sha dahil puro mushroom at cheese lang. siguro may 5 pieces na green bell pepper... huwaaw, ganun ba yung garden sa greenwich? there goes our 200php ++ . buset. then she received a text message from atong. ipasyal daw ang mga bulilit. shempre sabit ako dahil wala naman akong gagawin, not realizing that we are going to baby sit 4 kids na tumbas biente isang bata! gwaaabe. hindi kinaya ng powers ko yun. buti na lang hangcu-cute nila. hahaha na-feel ko tuloi na huwag muna mag-baby parang hindi ko pa kaya. so, there. we decided to take them to the movies and watched charlie and the chocolate factory. ewan ko ba bakit like ng mga kids yun eh parang disturbing yung movie. may aral sha in fairness pero hindi ko talaga magustuhan.. [sorry sa mga may gusto nung flick! peace.] nag-enjoy ako kasi nakakatuwa mag-comment yung mga bata, for example si bebang who is 4 years old lang yata, sabi nia.. "hahaha bakla si willy wonka! may make up.." winner. endless innocent questions from the kids. minsan napapatawa na kami ni tina dahil hindi namin masagOt. haaaay. at hindi sila marunong mapagod. takbo ng takbo sa loob ng movie haus. sana hindi madilim para madaling maghanap. hehehe minsan sarap kapag bata lang ang kasama mo." maybe we should do that again sometime tina.." hehehe

eh parang weekends are not the same kapag hindi kami gumala ni jemai ng saturday night so after nung practice nia sinundo namin sha sa PSC to watch a movie. all the while iniisip ko na gusto nia yung longest yard ngunit hindi po mga kaibigan. kasama namin si tina and atOng and napagkaisahan nila ako dahil what they wanted to see was SKELETON KEY. parang hindi ko sila mga frens at hindi nila alam na duwagers akO noh? so, out numbered ako, panalo sila. in fairness ganda nung mOvie. it's one of those movies na unpredictable ang ending. yun na. nakauwe ako mga past 1am na to think na i hafta wake up early dahil sundo ko sila steffy, abi and ten sa coastal mall ng 8am. sabay-sabay na kasi kami punta RFM to watch opening ng PS Sportfest. which leads me to the next kwentO...

*update ulit sa uploading ng video.. 49 mins na lang.. huwaaaw, dalawa talaga iuup-load ko eh..*

sunday, august 28th RFM gym

so, we arrived sa RFM ng mga 830am siguro, mejo mainit in fairness. pero ok lang andun ang mga friends and team mates kaya happy. all of us are eager to watch jemai dance! hahaha shempre while waiting and watching, picture galore:

ang DRAK GREEN TEAM. hamfofogi da varge?! ahahaha

ang mga ICONS. hahaha [or mascot?]

ganda ng muse namin noh? : ) GO STEFFY!

so, there. and shempre sumayaw na ang PS DANCE. galing-galing ni fren. we are so proud of you! : ) at yun po ang mga video na ina-upload ko at this moment. hihihi abangan nio na lang sa blog ni jemai. which by the way, 33 mins na lang ang waiting time. woohooo! we stayed sa gym about a couple of hours more dahil may 2nd number pa ang ps dance. sarap manuod ng mga taO. hahahaha sana nga maimbento yung digi cam na kahit one mile yung layo eh pwede i-zoom at hindi madidistort yung picture. ahahaha hamfatetic :) nga pala kailangan i-share 'to.. nagpapaka-hiskul na naman akO pero kebs lang. hahaha pareho kaming naka-pink. yun na! go figure :) masaya na 'ko nun. ang init sa gym na yun ha in fairness pero i had fun.

after rfm i have to go back home dahil gagamitin yung camera na dala kO. so umuwe muna ko [yep! sa cavite] then meet up with mah frens ulit kasi gusto nilang gumala. at kahit wala pa akong matinong tulog, WHY NOT? hahaha sanay na ako. we headed to rockwell and ate sabi ni tenten sa MANGKOK! ahahahaha alam ko sa plato kami kumain eh.. hahaha MONG KOK iyon ija.. [peace tau! :D] shempre good food. yum yum. dami ding celebs na nandun ha? well aside from us you know.. hehehe si kenji what's his last name? si ronaldo valdez, jackie lou blanco and kids and get this: si jamby madrigal. hahaha sana man lang yung ka-level namin para mas enjoi. oh, we had our dessert too. napadami nga eh. but that's one dessert i don't mind having kahit bloated na 'ko. hahaha right fren? dapat videoke kami dun pero gwabe ha? 12php per song. eh pare-pareho lang naman siguro yung machine kaya go na lang kami to greenbelt, sa redbOx.

haaay e2 na. being the queen of mischiefs and all, on our way to greenbelt eh nahuli ako ng traffic enforcer dahil i swerved to the 'yellow lane'. buset. hindi naman ako maka-argue kasi i should know about yellow lanes and shit dahil driver ako. at hinanapan din ako ng OR/CR ng sasakyan, wala. so 750php daw ang penalty kapag wala nun. HELLEW? "manong sa wednesday pa talaga ang sweldo!" gusto ko sanang sabihin. with a heavy heart binigay ko na yung P500 ko para sa 'yellow lane' violation na yun. ayoko na kasi maabala pa to go to makati cityhall para kumuha ng lisensha. napakiusapan ko si manong na palampasin na yung violation sa or/cr kasi naman no i don't think it's my fault na hindi naglalagay daddy ko ng or/cr sa sasakyan. [yan, blame it to somebody else, jan ka magalaing antonia! tOINk!] my gawd! last money ko na yun bago mag-sweldo. haym sooo fooor. buti na lang i'm with my friends..

we stopped by g4 kasi buy si ten ng running shoes. kailangan running shoes. hahaha are you gonna run somewhere ha?! hihihi joke lang. inggit ako kasi ako yung new shoes ko japeyk lang eh :( greenhills lang. hehehe pagpunta namin sa redbox hindi ko kinakaya yung rates nila dun. hahaha well kung iisipin mo keri lang sha but then again i don't think na you'll stay there for 5 hours singing? ang dami pang sinabe eh no, in short ang mahal! :) maybe next time na lang. hihii kaya nag-coffee na lang kami. treat ako ni mai ng strawberries and cream. sarap talaga pag-libre. hahaha thanks fren!!! kwentuhan, picture picture kahit pagod na ang mga eyes.. hintay si steffy from a badminton practice tapos uwian na! alam ko nasa may island cove na ko nun tapos napapikit ako ng konti sa antok. muntik na po akong bumangga sa poste ladies and gents! haaay i was bitting my lips all the way gang bahay para hindi ako makatulog. so, there. kapagod the weekend that was pero fun naman so oki lang.

i hope na matulOi yung balak namin na pag-uunwind! hahaha approved na yung vacation leave ko by the 2rd week of september! now, there's something to blog about, in a different level. hahaha tara na fren, LET'S GOOOO!

*kasabay na natapos nito ang pagloload nung video.. kaya lang may problema. i hafta open a new multiply account hindi na kasha yung isang video.. huwaaah.*

fiRSt time

haaay.. ang sarap mag-type kapag maganda ang desktop background. hahaha *wink* pang-CLOSE UP commercial. [why nOt?]

last week, sabi nga ni fren was nuttin' special. same old lang. oh well anu ba naman ang special sa pagte-take ng calls. pag-eescalate at pag-tatransfer? hay nako.. buti na lang mabilis lang ang araw at restdays na naman! woohoo! : ) pero before i tell you the story of how i spent my weekend flashback muna tau nung friday production, staurday morning[sorry sa mga hindi makaka-gets hirap i-explain.. hihihi] kasi while i was on my way to fren's house, around 11pm, i received a call from my daddy. sabi nia i hafta go back to cavite kasi kailangan yung pick up 6am. huwaaat?! nasa megamall na talaga ko eh, pero he was just joking lang pala [whatever..] sabi nia meet ko na lang bro ko before shift sa parking lot there sa office para magpalit kami ng sasakyan. the problem is, my bro know nothing about makati. lam mu na, mga one way, no u-turn, no left turn and shits like that.. plus hindi nia talaga alam punta sa opis ng hindi ako kasama so how the hell kami magkikita? at dahil ang utos ng hari ay hindi nababali, gora ang kawawa kong kapatid. kawawa din ako kasi chances are male-late ako kakahintay [or kakahanap] sa kanya at sana hindi umuulan, but NOOO. it was raining cats and dogs. to make the long story short, ayun na nga, nangyare na ang inaasahan. nawala po sha ladies and gentlemen! haaay. haggard to the bones akO. kaka-load ko lang talaga eh, nauubos sa kakatanong kung nasaan na sha at kung anung oras nia ako balak puntahan sa kinatatyuan ko.. so i decided na magpa-late na nga kasi wala na akong choice. alangan namang hayaan ko lang na maligaw-ligaw si mykel. haaaay. i even got scolded by my dad. mantakin mo he called me up just to say that one harsh, anu ba yun word or phrase? basta. sama nga ng loob ko kasi for the first time in my 24 years of living nakarinig ako ng masakit na salita from him. [yeah nang dahil sa sasakyan.. whoa, that's deep ha?] not naman na hindi nia kami pinapagalitan at all but that time was different. masakit talaga sa tenga at sa kalooban. i don't even want to think it ever happened but unfortunately nangyare sha.. :( i cried. sobra. drama ko nga eh, gusto ko sana picturan sarili ko para mailagay ko naman sha here. hahaha joke lang. nagkita naman kaming magkapatid after 4 consecutive leap years dahil i decided to just look for him tutal late na talaga ko at nakipagpalit ng sasakyan, guess where he is? nasa tapat cityland 10!!! leche hanglapit na talaga nia eh. haaaaay. i headed back sa parking lot with a very heavy heart at buti na lang andun ang fren jemai kong super supportive na may dala-dala pang umbrella.hang sweet no? hahaha ang ending? nag-log in ako ng 1am na. [sorry boss marvin!] pag-akyat ko with my eyes all puffy and red, lahat ng team mates ko gusto akong titigan at pahingi daw ng sore eyes. haaay sana nga sore eyes na lang yun para naman makapag-med leave na akO. so, there.

bati na kami ni daddy ko, and sana i would like to talk about what happened kaya lang i don't have the heart. scared to death ako baka ma-misinterpret nia. ayoko na kasi mangyare ulit yun. haaay. he's being unreasonable na kasi this past weeks and i don't know why. hmpft. yaan mo na nga ganun 'ata talaga pagtumatanda.. hehehe. hay nako dad, kung alam mo lang, love kita to the bones, sana tell me what's wrong.

my dREam dAte

PAALALA: sa mga babasa ng entry na ito, mangyari po lamang na huwag maiskandalo dahil kathang isip lamang po ito. ika-nga one of my wildest dreams. hahaha na sa tingin ko mananatili na lamang shang dream : )

mayroon ba kayong dream date? akO kasi meron eh. ahihihihi oh well sino ba namang babae ang wala da buzz?! at sana naman maranasan ko sha habang bata pa ko :) 'yung tipong nakaka-appreciate pa 'ko ng mga teleserye at romantic comedy films...it's nothing fancy actually, sa Paris lang. hahaha joke. pero kung afford ni lalake, why nOt?! go lang ako.. pero seriously, my dream date even before pa, was on a roof top. hindi bubong ng bahay owkei? 'yung tipong roof top ng mataas na building, let's say sa RS or sa PB COM, or sa may helipad ng Enterprise? yung ganun. haaay. aba?! alangan namang ganun lang yun, dalhin lang ako sa tuktok ng building eh yun na yun, shempre dapat creative..

ang setting:

may isang carpet big enough to accomodate two people, malamang nakalatag sa hmmm, halimbawa sa roof top ng Enterprise [hahaha kinarir..] tapos maraming throw pillow of different colors and sizes! they should be neatly placed around the carpet, mejo naka-scatter pero maayos, gets nio? basta. ehehe date ko 'to walang pakialamanan. and op cors there should be candles din, iba-ibang sizes and colors din to light up the night.. [haneep] hmm i'd prefer lavander scented candles para naman relaxing.. ahihihi ok din kung may petals ng red roses all over the place sabay may tatlOng mamang nagvaviolin ng "the way you look tonight.." [awwww] tapos 'yung food andun sa may gitna, it doesn't matter kung krOpek lang yun basta may champagne! ahahaha totoo. kala mo joke? at dapat tall glass para sowsi : ) and you have to take my hand and ask me to dance with you. [ahahah demanding..] humanap ka naman sana ng chempo hindi yung kumakain tayo bigla ka na lang mag-iinarteng yayain akong sumayaw. [harharhar] owkei? so, there.

ang tOpic of discussion:

kahit ano lang. tungkol sa buhay mo or buhay kO. likes and dislikes, dreams and short comings. parang slumbook yung flow ng discussion, yung ganun para naman hindi nakakalula? knowing me, kapag inumpisahan mo ako ng politics related topic samahan mo pa ng religion baka mag-debate na taung dalawa, worse itulak pa kita sa building kapag napikon ako sa hirit mo.. hahaha anu ba? ang violent, wag ganun, romantic dapat.. anyway, so ayun i think it would be much easier to talk about things that interests both parties saka na yung ibang topic.. sa susunod na date na ulit. hahaha

i would really love to just talk about anything while star gazing. parang ang sarap ng feeling. both of us would just stare up in the sky, naghahanapan ng constellations, pretending na alam natin yung meaning.. hahaha yung ganun. then suddenly may makikita taung falling star and god knows pareho pala tayo ng wish.. *kilig* ahaha [hambaduy] we'd laugh and talk about the silliest and cheesey-est things .. we'd feel that there are no other people existing, tayo lang. [haaay ang creepy naman nun, anyhoo..]

ang music:

shempre mangangalay yung tatlong mamang nagvaviolin, so dapat boyscout ka at may dala kang cd player to play my favorite songs. hehehe hamfanget naman siguro na the whole time may tatlong asungot dun na nagbabantay di ba? so after the dinner chorva dapt exit na sila.. sana yung mga cds mo hindi mawawala yung song na 'the way you look tonight' or yung 'someone to watch over me' or 'come away with me' ni norah jones. jazzy and classic kinda music. pwede din slow jams but i'd prefer the latter. hahaha anu ba? ako dapat yung masusunod after all this is my date! [in my dreams..]

ang ending:

a gift coming from you would be nice.. ahaha pero ok lang kahit wala. wag mo naman din sana akong yayaing mag-ligpit ng sinet-up mo no? oa ka.. hmm a nice way to end our date is to tell me that there will be a second time. more extravagant than this one. hahaha joke lang. wala lang, siguro just tell me you enjoyed my company, i have been wonderful [and i look great! hihihi asa pa 'ko] that you'll dream of me after this special night. sabay kiss sa cheek. ahaha sa cheek lang ok?! huwag abusado. at sana naman hatid mo 'ko sa cavite, maranasan ko naman na akO yung pinagda-drive : ) ahahaha so, there.

*haaay, pero sabi nga nila, kahit ganito pa ka-perfect yung set-up ng date mo, kung hindi mo naman gusto yung kasama mo bale wala pa rin. sayang ang effort. nakalimutan kong banggitin na along with my wish for this date to happen, sana rin [oh GOD PLEASE.. : )] it'll be with someone whom i can enjoy every single minute of it.. someone i can love and who can love me, sige na nga for the rest of our lives.. [awww] tama na nga. hehehe*

blast from the past..

haaay.

akala ko pa naman i can sleep longer than 6 hours today, but nooo. somebody called me up at nawala ang antok ko. sheesh. funny pa, the caller was someone from my past. hahaha [oo, tao rin naman akO meron akong ex ahehehe] langya, after almost three years nagparamdam bigla dahil numumublema sa love life. huwaaaw. of all people ako pa talaga ang tinawagan. touched naman ako kasi sabi nia ako lang daw kasi yung naiisip nia na taong alam niang makikinig sa kanya at magsasabi sa kanya kung ano ang dapat niang gawin. fine. honestly, nung marinig ko ang boses nia sa kabilang linya, gusto kong mag-paparty dahil at last, NAKARMA NA SHA!!! hehehe pero hindi naman ako ganung kasama so, i didn't entertain the thought, instead i listened carefully on what he has to say.

in fairness i can feel his pain. nagulat na nga lang ako nung naririnig ko na rin ang sarili ko na nagsasabi sa kanya ng mga linyang palasak na sa tenga: "kaya mo yan.." , "marami pa jan.." alam mo na mga empathy statements. and i'm flattered kasi nakikinig naman sha sa akin, or talagang hilo lang sha sa problema nia? hmpft. whatever. pero ang gaan ng feeling ko. ewan ko, masaya ako dahil kahit paano alam kong natulungan ko sha and that after all these years we talked again na para bang walang nangyare dati, to think na yung pinuproblema nia ngayon is the same person that ended what we had before? hahaha buhay nga naman. hindi na ako BITTER ocampo sa nangyare sa'min in fact pag naiisip ko yung mga dati na may-i-cry pa ko sa kanya natatawa ako sa sarili ko, ang babaw kasi. wala lang. eeew. just thinking about it right now eh naaalibadbaran akO! siguro kasi we were meant to stay friends lang talaga.

past lovers can be friends naman pala eh, kaya lang IT WILL TAKE TIME. well, i'm speaking for myself ewan ko sa iba. siguro might take a few years but still when you're over one person and you had moved on kahit may history pa kayo ng bf/gf dilemma, you can still be friends. ako kasi ayoko ng may kaaway hangga't maaari. well, sino bang may gusto nun di ba? kaya i feel happy when somebody reaches out para maging friend ko ulit kahit na may hindi kami pinagkaunawaan nuon. madali naman akong kausap eh, if you want to be friends with me, why not?! : )

ngayon ko lang narealize na maswerte akO dahil kahit i'm not with someone at least hindi naman ako namumublema ng ganyan, naku i sooo know myself kapag matters of the heart na ang pinag-uusapan. my world stops. un. lahat apektado, and i don't think i have time for that. pwede ba? marami akong lakad. hahaha it made me realize na ang saya-saya ng life ko now. i have my family and my wonderful friends. so, there. wala lang shinare ko lang. : )

i've been tagged by jEMAi!

7 things that scares you:
*ipis
*horror flicks [hehe duwag!]
*roller coaster rides [hambaduy noh?]
*losing my eyesight and ability to speak
*daddy kO! :)
*fRogs
*sOmetimes, i scare myself! hwehehe

7 things you like the most:
*cars
*chocolates
*ice cream [huwaaw kaya tumataba! hehehe]
*goin' out [nakana..]
*cOffee
*movies
*music

7 important things in your bedroom:
*bed
*pillows
*aircon
*TV
*my radio
*mga STARS ko..
*picture frames

7 random facts about you:
*i hate ampalaya, okra and talaba -- i don't like steaks and lechon.
*the first time i ever entered a CASINO [and gambled! haha] was just last january this year.
*i eat spaghetti as it is served. [hindi ko hinahalO.]
*hindi ko kinakain lahat ng laman ng siOpao, ung tinapay lang : )
*i'm finding it hard to say "NO" most of the time.
*kahit papanO nag-aayos na 'ko ng sarili ko, hwehehe i try to act my age na. hahaha
*crush ko si RAFAEL ROSELL dahil araw-araw ko nakikita 'yung billboard nia sa EDSA. nyahaha

7 things you plan to do before you die:
*travel the world
*sumakay ng space shuttle ng maraming beses! [sunod-sunod]
*win a race against SCHUMACER
*have a LIVE! album hehehe
*write a boOk
*magkaroon ng 'foundation' under my name.. [haneep]
*to be with my one true lOve... awwww

7 things you can do:
*i can sing
*i can drive ng walang tulog, from north to south then back to north then south again. haha [tried and tested!]
*i can talk, type, read and BLOG all at the same time while on a call! hehehe
*i can sleep all day, walang gisingan. hahaha
*i can cry all day [as in!] when i'm extremely sad. :'(
*i can be very, very impulsive.
*i can keep my feelings to myself. [borrow nito fren ha? ahihihi]

7 things you can't do:
*i can't drive without my hand on the stick shift
*i can't kill
*i can't stand someone reading my letter or my blOg in front of me..
*i can't save mOney. hahaha gastadora.
*i can't have confidence all on my own, i only get confidence from my friends.. :(
*i can't live without my friends and family
*i can't read any book in opne sitting, oo kahit yung manipis lang. hahaha

7 things that attract you to the opposite sex:
*CHINKY EYES!!! [haaay, weakness itO!]
*wits
*sense of humor
*honesty
*maganda yung teeth ahihihi
*magaling magdrive, magbasketball or mag-gitara ahehehe
*killer smile [hahaaay]

7 things you say the most:
*huwaaaw!
*leche mO
*gagu mo
*chOs!
*whatever, whatever!
*you take care ok?!
*alrighty..

7 celeb crushes:
*rafael rossel
*JAY-R
*brent javier
*juddah paolo
*ben affleck
*si human torch.. di knows name nia in real life eh, churi
*JE sison

7 people that you want to take this quiz
*nina
*bibba
*louanne
*boss marvin
*arlyne
*judith
*gie

On My Own

i first heard and appreciated this sOng when it was sung by JOEY in the tv series dawson's creek. this is one of the few songs that can describe how i feel each time that i [think] i'm in love with someone. no, it's not for a particular person, it's for every person i fell in love with. how sad :c

On My Own

On my own pretending he's beside me.
All alone I walk with him till morning.
Without him I feel his arms around me.
And when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me.
In the rain the pavement shines like silver,
All the lights are misty in the river.
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight....
And all I see is him and me forever and forever.
And I know its not only in my mind,
That I'm talking to myself and not to him.
And although I know that he is blind,
Still I say, there's a way for us.
I love him!
But when the night is over,
He is gone, the river's just a river.
Without him the world around me changes,
The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full
of strangers.
I love him!
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending.
Without me his world would go on turning,
A world that's full of happiness that I have never known,
I love him...I love him...I love him,
But only on my own.

the BEST.

tOwnie and tNA

see my bessie UPS THERE? pretty noh?! matalino pa, what more can you ask for? : ) oist bessie! who would've thought na magiging friends tau hanggang ngayon?! ma gawd! almost TEN FREAKIN' YEARS na tayong fwends. imagine? remember dati sabi ko sau, parang isang pitik ko lang sau tutumba ka na eh ngayon ikaw pa ang pillar of strength kO? hahaha basta hang on. it's just a phase and i'm glad i'm part of it, wala ka ng magagawa kasama mo na' ko sa buhay mo forever! i love you bessie! MAHALO : )

a weekend i'll never fOrget

i'm suppose to sleep right this very minute pero malamang hindi ako makakapag-blog ng maayos later eh pagpupuyatan ko na lang sha now. ahihihiihi as usual, i had a very, very interesting weekend. winner itO. hahaha read on...

august 20th, saturday

endshift, release. huwaaaw. it's like the whole shift i've been meaning to press ad2 - release. well, blame it to the wonderful world of LW. hahaha anyhoo, so ayun after shift nagkayagan sa may leviste para magbreakfast. mai and i were with our NFFs [new found friends]! : )

sean, mack, berne, zha, dimple, mai and me!

masaya ang daming food at madaming 'side dish' hahaha go figure. anyway, so aun na nga we ate then after an hour went home. i gotta get some sleep para may energy akOng gumala sa gabi.. hihihi but at around 4pm bessie TNA went sa haus. 'ang sarap ng tulog ko tapos biglang may kumakatok na para bang may sunog sa labas! my gawd, napabalikwas ako sa kama ko saka binuksan ang aking pinto. and there was my poor bessie, super red eyes. [literally!] 'lam mo bessie, you'll get through it. i swear. am here lang, promise. we talked about some things until it was time for me to go to proj 4. hahaha so, there.

about 945ish pm

i was in pasay road, traffic. just satring at the beautiful sky nang biglang-- may nakita akong falling star! oo, totoo. promise. nagulat ako and just like everybody else, before i can even utter my wish eh bumagsak na yung star..but i thought to myself, it's better late than never di ba? so, nag-wish pa rin akO with my eyes closed pa. haha buti na lang traffic hindi umaandar ang pick up kong malaki ang problema.. [more details in a few] anong wish ko? hindi pwedeng sabihin baka hindi matupad. hihihi but i promise to write it here if it comes true. kung uso pa ang blog after 45 years. hahaha seriously, it's one wish na i really hope would come true. haaay. teka comedy ang blog ko hindi drama so tama na muna ang emote...

greenBelt, makati

mai and i had dinner at itallianis, [oo, nagtitipid kasi kami eh haha] pero the reason talaga why we're there is to check out cafe havana. kasi everytime we're in starbucks nakikita namin 'yung place na super jam packed at ang gaganda pa ng music. so, we tried to go inside tapos ung bouncer sa pinto si jemai lang ang pinapasok nung ako na ung papasok aba at isasara ang pinto, sabi ko sa kanya, "i'm with him" sabay turo kay fren. ayun madali naman pa lang kausap. hehehe but when we got inside--OMG! i don't think we belong there. as in. puro OLDIES haha sabagay what can we expect, samba yung music. haaay. maybe someday when we're more mature babalik kami dun, but for now i'd settle for malate or some other place other than that. puro foreigner pa na may ka-date na hindi mo malaman kung babae o lalake. hahaha sa makatuwid, wala pang 5 minutes eh lumabas na kami. and guess where we headed?

sa maLAte [and yeah, sunday na, august 21st]

absent nga kami ng one saturday here eh. hindi na 100% ung sched ad namin. tsk. [hang corny..anyhoo] so we went there and partied. [naks] ewan ko ba at home ako dun eh. hahaha after two drinks [ o diba? nagtitipid talaga kami eh..] we decided to sing our hearts out, saan pa ba? eh di sa music 21. sowsi kasi we were waiting for the next available room for two pero dahil matatagalan pa yata kami maghintay, somebody accompanied us dun sa parang VIP room nila. in fairness feel na feel kong mag-concert dun hahaha kulang na nga lang audience eh. swear. sana laging ganun. shempre pa dahil tipsy eh 'di performance level dapat bawat kanta! as usual, we sang our favorite songs.. jemai even recorded most of it, sabi ko nga 'wag nia mashadu ipaparinig sa madla baka may makarinig na recording producer kunin kami bigla eh we're nOt yet ready to face the world of showbiz. ahahaha [anu daw?!!] mga two hours lang naman kami kumakanta. hahaha so, there. e2 na...

around 545ish

we decided to call it a day pero originally, gusto namin dumaan sa opis to get our COEs. ifafax ko na kasi sa bpi tapos coffee kami then go home. ang ganda ng plano no? very smooth. eto na sumakay na kami ng pick up [again, na malaki ang problema] sinusian ko na para umandar ngunit, AYAW NIA!!! huhuhu akala ko 'yung normal niang sakit dati na kailangan mo lang i-shift yung gear from park to L2 tapos ok na, BUT NOOOO! bad trip talaga. nagcclick 'yung makina pero ayaw talaga niang mag-start. naisip ko kagad mahina yung battery. so, shempre kahit ang aga-aga tumawag kagad ako sa dad ko na pupunga-pungas pa yata. but i have no choice, he's the only person i know na makakatulong sa akin.. pero winner ang sagot nia sa akin: " maghanap ka ng mekaniko jan." huhuuhu sabi ko na they don't love me anymore.. tama ba naman un? naiiyak nga ko nun eh pero naisip ko walang mangyayare sa akin kung magcacrayola lang ako dun. as if namang pagtulo ng luha ko sa makina aandar kagad yun shempre hindi di ba? so.. buti na lang maraming mga taong nais na tumulong sa akin and told me the same thing, battery problem. pero dapat i-series sha with another battery. so aun tumawag ng mga taxi na pwedeng hiraman ng baterya, awa ng diyos, hindi nag-work! haaaay nakaka-stress!!! then my daddy called again. hahaha i guess hindi nia ako matiis.. [nasa akin ang huling halakhak! bwahihihi]

mga 700ish am

ang problema pala ay yung starter na mismo nung sasakyan, IN SHORT, TUMIRIK ang pick up na malaki ang problema. sana diba? hamfanget ng malate sa umaga.. super pagod na kami and all. we wanted to have coffee sana ngunit, subalit walang bukas na coffee shop! tama ba naman yun? at dahil siguro mahal pa rin ako ng tatay ko, he went there. oo, sa adriatico st. my gawd! huling huli kung nasaan ako. hahaha pero keri lang yun. kesa naman hilahin ko mag-isa yung pick up [yes, na malaki ang problema] hanggang cavite. 'yoko yata. so, we're like waiting in vain there. ang init, ang dungis ko pa.. haaay stress talaga.and oh, we listened to our recorded songs din while waiting hahaha in fairness pwedeng ilaban sa tanghalan ng kampeon. wehehehe WHY NOT?! : )

ito nga pala ang hitsura kO habang nagdadalamhati sa loob ng pick up na malaki ang problema..

why not?

quarter to 800am..

my dad came to the rescue!yipeee! pagbaba nia ng car ang bungad sa akin, "nakakrating ka pala dito ha?" ahehehe so, malamang hindi na 'ko pwede tumanggi. BLEHU. pero 'twas ok lang. hindi naman sha nagalit or what. yun pa?! and besides utang na loob lang ano, 24 years old na talaga 'ko eh. pwede na nga 'kong magpakasal without parent's consent. hahaha di ba? chaka very cool lang yung tatay ko so where were where? [private joke po itO..] ahhh so un na nga hihilahin ng kawawang si ABOO ang pick up na malaki ang problema.. malas ko naman at ako mag-ddrive. haaay ang hirap kaya. dapat uber bagal lang dahil walang preno yung hinihila mo sa likod. so kung isa kayo sa mga dumaan ng quirino ave at sa may roxas blvd nung sunday morning at mejo naipit sa traffic, i apologize. hahaha kami po ang ang cause ng light traffic dun sa area na yun. hehehe churi po. alam mo yun? 20kph lang ang takbo ko? na may hila-hila pang uber bigat na pick up sa likod? imagine how bagal i was? haaaar. at take note, hindi ako naka-aircon kasi sira ang panbelt ni aboo. langya. WHAT'S UP??!! it was a very long, long , long drive but i was so happy that we were able to get home safe and sound. hindi ko na kinakaya ang mga dilemma ng sasakyan. eh di ba same week na-flatan naman ako? anu ba itO?! haaay.

hay salamat -- imus, cavite

we arrived home at around 930am na. i was so exhausted at dugyutin. naka-puti pa naman ako. pinagawa na namin yung pick up sa talyer near sa haus tapos umuwe na to eat breakfast. pinagtatawanan ako ng tatay ko kasi napakamalas ko daw. oo nga tama sha.. oh well. pero drama naman ako nung kumakain kami, wala lang feel ko lang walk-outan ang nanay ko, hehehe pero ok na kami, ganun naman kaming magnanay eh kapag nag-away. para lang kasi kaming magbarkada. haaaay. anu na? kinukulaba na ba kayo sa haba nitO? sorry na lang kasi hindi pa tapos :)

oist FREN..

fren, thank you ha? for stayin' there with me kahit super puyat at pagod ka na. mantakin mo andami ko ng kamalasan sa buhay pero i was able to get through it all dahil andun ka... minsan naisip ko, di kaya, ikaw ang malas sa buhay kO?! hahaha oi joke lang yun ha? baka totohanin mo na naman jan. seriously, thank you talaga sa maraming bagay. [walang kokontra gusto kong magdrama ha? hihihi] as in. basta words are not enough [totoo.] you may not notice it but you had helped me a lot. and i hope you won't get tired of being my fren. hahaha baka kasi sawa ka na sa pagmumuka ko lagi na lang taung magkasama.. naalala ko sabi mo sorry kasi all you can help me with is your moral support, hay nako it's a big help. swear. though kaya ko naman i-handle yun mag-isa still you stayed there. naatim mong samahan ako kahit yung mga fez`natin pwede nang pagprituhan ng eggs? grabe touched ako. hahaha kaya salamat talaga. melOVesyah fren!

uber stressed na kami ng lagay na yan.. : )

i enjoyed my weekend as usual. lagi naman eh. hahaha

whatta cOLorfuL dAy..

sabi ni mack ang colorful daw ng araw today... hahaha oo nga naman.. 'yung kasing side line ko eh naka-pink : ) [dapat lang na pink ang fonts ko today..ahihihih] hang cute! haaaaay. soooobraaa.. ika nga ni pinklet napaka-manly kung ang guy ay nagpipink shirt. oh, you know... hahaha wala lang, it's just so nice to report to work at may dahilan ka para pumasok aside from your errr, schedule adherance. 'yung tipong inaabangan mo kung anong damit ang isusuot nia for the day, kung nagpagupit na ba or what. kung anong cologne ang ginamit nia, kung ilang beses ba shang tatayo para magkape or mag-weewee, kung pagnagkita ba kami sa pantry or sa elevator ngingitian ako hahaha i bet hindi nio alam kung sino ang tinutukoy ko hahaha hindi kasi mashadung obvious, unti lang.. hehehe oh well.

pero isa lang shang panaginip. hwehehe kumbaga sa movie ni jolina magdangal at rafael rosell, isa lang shang billboard sa buhay ko. habambuhay ko lang shang titignan, yun lang. hahaha anu barge? wala na namang patutunguhan ang entry na itO. i haves to end this na ... : )

thank GOD it's friday. gala day. gastos na naman! : ) wala lang ine-enjoy lang ang buhay-life, should've done this years ago, pero dahil late bloomer ako, yun na nga. hehehe it's never too late pa naman siguro after all i think i'm gonna be single for life. so, there.

baGo!

i have new shOes!!!

hahaha yun lang,

napuyat akO pero i don't give a damn, i lOved 'em. hihihihi

so, there : )

FLAT TIRE and a BREAK

something happened today. hahaha nakakainis pero ok lang. na-FLATAN ako ng gulong! pagkababa ko ng building after shift ang bungad kagad ni manong guard eh: "ma'am kanina ko pa kayo hinahanap, flat po ang gulong ninyo!" haaaay naloka ako nung makita ko ang kawawang pick up. buti na lang maraming tumulong sa akin. SALAMAT sa kanilang lahat. at shempre pa, dapat special mention ang mga teamates ko who were with me the whole time, si mark, zah and chad [THANK YOU GUYS!]. buti na lang nagbago na 'ko at hindi na ko mashadung nagsungit. hehehe nagtanda na ako. mahirap na, baka imbes na tulungan ako iwanan akong mag-isa dun hindi pa naman ako marunong magpalit ng gulong. i gotta learn na how to do that eh mukhang parati na lang akong biktima ng flat na gulong. haaay so there.

***

on the other side of my life, i realized that i need a break. a loooong break. and just like what my other friends are feeling, i want to just fade away. burst like a bubble. magpalibing ng buhay tapos kapag ok na 'ko babangon muli. hehehe hang creepy naman nun, but seriously, i want to just live my life as simple as possible and by that i mean i don't have to cling on someone to survive. ako lang. miss independent. huwaaaw! sana talaga kaya ko yun eh. but i think i can with a little help from those people who cares and loves me. so much for being independent huh?! hehehe oh well i can't do that all on my own. fine. magulo akong kausap. may gumugulo kasi sa isip ko. sorry can't tell. no, not here. hahaha. pero nuttin' serious isa lang sa mga kagagahan ko pero i'm working on it now and i can say that i'll be good in no time! : )

isip

naisip ko lang.
hindi pala ganun kadali yun.
hindi simple, malamang komplikadO.
ayoko ng ganito, hindi na 'to tama.
suntok sa buwan, lista sa tubig.

erase. erase. erase.

nagtataka lang ako kung bakit sa tingal-tagal ng panahon eh, may mga tao pa rin mula sa nakaraan ang pilit na bumabalik sa buhay ko. at hindi lamang yung mga taong sinaktan ako kungdi pati ang mga taong may koneksyon sa kanila. hindi naman sa ayoko na silang makita o makausap dahil sa liit ng mundong ito eh imposible yata yun. ang akin lang hangga't maaari ayoko nang maging parte pa ng buhay nila kasi ... bakit nga ba? dahil natatakot na 'ko na baka na sa pangalawang pagkakataon eh may magawa muli sila na masasaktan na naman ako. hindi ko kasi gusto na magalit sa mga taong ito. tama na lang na wala akong balita o wala kaming kinalaman sa isa't-isa. ang sama ba? hindi naman siguro. ang kinaiinis ko pa buti sana kung magpaparamdam ulit sila eh dahil kakamustahin ka pero hindi, isang malaking HINDI! kungdi mang-aasar, may hihingin na pabor. badtrip talaga. ano naman palagay nila sa akin? 'langya talaga o. pero kapag ok lang sila o di kaya naman eh masaya deadma lang. hindi naman sa gusto ko pang ibahagi nila sa akin 'yung mga ganung bagay, pero di ba? nakakainis kapag bigla-biglang guguluhin ang nananhimik mong buhay dahil may kailangan lang sa'yo? hanglabO men.

hmpft. hahayaan ko na lang, ayoko na silang intindihin o pag-aksayahan pa ng panahon, mas maraming bagay na mas importante pa kesa ang intindihin ko pa sila. yun na...

horoscope

this is my horoscope for the day sabi sa FRIENDSTER:

Today's Forecast

Shhh. You have a secret. And while communication is your greatest strength, now is not the time to share this secret. Keep it to yourself a bit longer. Hard? Try sharing with a journal if you really need to spill the beans.

-- very timely ha? hehehe

huwaaaaah :'(

i'm so sorry wala ako sa mood mag-kwento ng weekend getaway namin in matabungkay. anyhow, you can read my friends' blogs about it. hehehe may nagawa na 'kong draft na entry for this kaya lang hindi ko maipagpatuloi kasi kakatamad ewan ko ba? basta we went there for a mission: LASINGIN SI STEFFY! 'twas successful naman kaya lang nagka-allergy sha, she even went to the hospital and was sent home today because of it. [sorry steffy!] masaya naman, sobrang malayo sa stress at sibilisasyon kaya kaka-relax kahit na kulang kulang ang gamit namin. [ and for that, sorry guys!]

oh well, ewan ko ba? pero ngayong araw na 'to nakakafrustrate. tinatamad na naman akOng magtrabaho. naiinis ako dahil hindi naman ako makapag-leave. ginagawa ko naman lahat ng sabihin nila sa akin pero for some odd reason wala talaga, sabi nga ni mommy ko, "anak pag hindi kaloob sau, 'wag ka na umasa.." haaay, mommy talaga o, double meaning ba yan?! hehehe siguro napapagod lang ako at kailangan ko lang magpahinga. went to greenhills today with mai baka sakaling mabawasan ang bwiset ko but noooo, lalu akong nabwiset kasi mali yung binigay nung sales lady sa akin na damit! i like it a lot pa naman.

siguro dala lang ng lamig 'tong feeling ko hwehehe eh halos magkulay talong na 'ko dito, sinabihan na ni pinky si manang guard pero parang hindi nia kami iniintindi. haaaaay. i even hugged arlyne and bryan sa sobrang frustration ko hahaha ang jologs ko talaga!!!! so, there.

guess where i'm at? in greenbelt. no, i don't have a date [wish ko lang!] and no, hindi ako nag-iisa. i'm with mai. funny, hindi ko lam title ng place na 'to basta pagkakita namin nung sign INTERNET, pasok kagad kami to blog. wahihihi sowsi di ba?! : ) joke. kakauwe lang namin galing batangas pero dahil nga we don' t have time to rest on restday, andito kami ngayon at nagmamaganda. hahaha [bukas ko na write wento 'bout batangas, hindi ko feel here eh...] grabe ha? whatta week we had last week. paloka itO i tell you. haaaay. it made us realize a lot of things, good and bad.

ooooops! we haves to go na! more kwento when i get home... tata!

one Of the bOYs

what's up?!

anu bang meron ang araw na itO? parang nakakahawa ang mga negative vibes around... funny thing is rest day naman na mamaya. anu baaah?! oh well, deadma na nga lang. nagbabasa na naman ako ng blog ng may blog and i have read a very interesting entry. shempre kaya interesting kasi i can relate. it was about being one of the boys. hehehe i liked the entry for obvious reasons, for i am [or was?] one of the boys.

eh pano naman kasi, only gurl ako dati [ may baby sister na ko now eh huhuhu] and i have three brothers, so imajinin nio na lang ang mga toys ko puro gun at robot, eh poorita jones lang kami walang pambili ng barbie doll before so there. and if i remember it correctly my dad never let me wore girlie sandals before, laging rubber shoes hanggang pagtanda ko sneakers lahat ng shoesES ko. ngayon na nga lang ako natuto magsuot ng doll shoes achuchuchu eh. and most of my friends are guys [tsk. sabi ko na kaya siguro hindi ako magka -boyfriend eh, haha]. i have always been one of the guys. i'm comfortable around them kasi, walang hung ups, tapos hindi pa nagpaplastikan kasi nga naman kalalaki nilang tao jan ha magtigil nga sila, so ayun. well not naman if i like the guy. kasi i get super weird around a guy i like, oo na! NADADAPA and stuff! hehehe nung college nga ako napagkakamalan akOng tomboy, kasi lagi akong naka-sneakers chaka polo shirt at maton maglakad! hahahaha whatever. nung highschool naman lagi akong hinahabol ng guard kasi parati akong naka-cap. why nOt?! paki nia noh. pero na-out grew ko na yun.

haaay sana endshift na, punta kami sa batangas today. miss ko na rin yung lugar na yun. sana mag-enjoy ang mga bisita ko. puros taga-manila kasi baka ma-culture shock dun sobrang probinsya kasi.

and oh, kailangnang i-share 'to, hahahaha hindi lang beer ng iba ang iniinom ko, pati pizza din ng iba.. right jemai?! ahihihihhi

BASTA TAMA NA YAN, INUMAN NA!!!!!

tELL me

first time kong marinig ng buo 'yung theme song ng Kampanerang Kuba.. hahaha nakaka-relate ako sa lyrics nung kanta. walang kokontra gusto ko 'to. ahihihihihihihi am i jologs or what?!!! hah! i really don't care...

SABIHIN MO SA AKIN
Sabihin mo sa akin...

Kung tunay mang pag-ibig ay mayroong mukha
Ang pusoy may isang tumitingin
Ang mga ulap ba'y dapat kong hawiin maglaho
Ang dilim na bumabalot sa akin

Pag-ibg na inaasam nila
Ba't kay tagal ko ng naghihintay
Ngunit tila walang dumarating
Kundi malamig na hangin

Chorus:
Ano ba ang mayroon sila
Na hindi matatagpuan
Sa akin ako nga ba'y
Kakaiba sa kanilang paningin
Ako ba'y may pagkukulang
Na dapat mapunan
Ano ba ang mayroon sila
Sabihin mo sa akin

**tsk. so, there.

LSS.

i heard this beautiful sOng earlier on the radio while i was on my way to fren's hausy. wala lang the song's full of hope. it's by sydney forrest. haaaaay.

ONCE IN A BLUE MOON

The room is empty
the lights are dim
and my heart wonders
if I'll ever see you again

My tears are hungry
for an open door
when your arms held me
I never felt that way before

I'll be waiting
I'll be watching
under a blue moon
the taste of heaven
only happens
once in a blue moon

Once in a blue moon

Do you remember
when the wind blew free
and we fit together
so naturally

If the wind closes a door
it will open another

huwaaaaah :' ( ang sakit sakit ng paa ko... paano naman ako mag-da drive nito mamaya? paano ako maglalakad ng maayos? paano?!!

...ang tapang mashadu ng ininom kong kape kanina, nagpapalpitate na naman tulOi ako. tsk. walang kadala-dala. sa lahat na lang ng bagay hindi na nadala. hay nako antOnia, kailan ka ba matututo ha?!!!

akO aNG rEyna nG saBLay!

at nandito na naman po ang inyong lingkod para i-share ang makulay kong buhay. shempre nagdaan ang weekend so, gaya ng nakagawian na, kailangan ko shang ikwento. the past two days were very interesting. maraming nangyare sa akin! hahahaha as the title depicts, AKO ang reyna ng sablay. kung pano at bakit? read on...

after shift saturday, jemai and i headed to dencio's to meet up with ten and mabs who already had her 3rd bottle of WHHAAAPPPAK! grabe noh? hindi naman mashadong maaga para sa beer ano? kaya ang resulta, maingay na MABS times 20! hahaha as in. ang kuleeet. sobra. shempre picture galore at kung may mic lang dun baka nag-concert na kami anyway, so by quarter to 11am punta na kami sa PSC kasi may meeting si mai sa dance club nia which by the way sha ang OIC. [nakana..] so, there.

we decided to go to G4 originally to watch a movie pero since hamfafanget ng movies nagmalling na lang kami. ikot-ikot. until jemai decided to pay his globe bill. nyeta e2 na... habang bayad kami i noticed this cutie by the name of.. shempre i won't tell na feeling ko isang malaking malas sa buhay ko. baket? eh kasi ganito yun, after naming magbayad and all, shempre kahit ayaw ko pa we had to leave na, ediba yung GLOBE sa glorietta may isang step pa bagu yung floor? sobrang kalandian ko ayan nahulog ako. huhuhu as in dumapa, para talaga kong kalabaw nalaglag sa floor. shempre maiyak-iyak ako sa kahihiyan with all the people staring at me. natatwa ako pero naiiyak alam mo yun? buti na lang jemai was there. he didn't leave. [thank you fren, and for that, i love you :)] sabi ko nga ako yata yung lasing hindi si mabs! hehehe odavarge? kaya nio yun?! ako hindi. huhuhu kakahiya talaga, gusto ko nga i-ban yung sarili ko ng mga hanggang next year dun sa lugar na yun. at balak ko rin sana kumuha ng g-plan dun but then again, wag na lang dito na lang sa cavite. hehehe hiya na 'ko eh. pagpanaman may nangyayare sa akin na ganun i feel like a big fat loser. as in. call me crazy but yeah, ganun. i hate the feeling but what can i do? kinuwento ko nga sa kapatid ko sabi lang nia, "ayaw mo nun, may nagyare naman sa buhay mong kakaiba?" nyek. anu kaya yun? WATEYBER.

pero hindi pa talaga ko nadala, dahil hindi pa rin talaga kami umuwe. di ba most people, when they get depressed, they do something like, si TNA when she's depressed she goes to the mall alone. si PIE when she's sad, kumakain ng galong-gallon na ice cream. si TEN nagpapaparlor. ako naman when i'm sad, i write, or i cry a river. minsan nga ocean pa eh basta i cry pero ngayon iba na, SHOPPING! hahaha pero hindi ako yung nagshoshopping. paano yun? well ganito, dahil my weekend started very rough, ikaw na madapa, shempre i feel so low. buti na lang feel ni jemai mag-shopping, hah! so there he shopped. saya! hahaha the whole idea is nagshoshopping pero hindi ako yung gumasgastos. wehehehe wala lang ang sarap lang nung feeling kasi kuha lang sha ng kuha ng mga damit tapos pag sinusukat nia you'll be assured na it'll look good on him. wala lang nakakatuwa lang. i never shop naman kasi ng ganun, if ever, siguro ako lang mag-isa. nahihiya kasi ako mag-try tapos hindi naman bagay or kasya. magastos nga lang on his part kasi i agree on everything he wears eh, sorry mah fren bagay talaga sau eh, wala 'kong magagawa..hehe but i always remind him na at least para sa kanya naman yung binibili nia, and besides kaya nga kinikita yung pera para gastusin di ba?! hahaha yan ang motto ng mga gastadorang tulad ko :)

pero shempre kailangan at one point ma-realize natin na over na. tama na. kailangan na talaga nating umuwe :) at dahil may lakad pa kami that night [oo we have no time to rest on a restday..] mai decided to sleep over sa haus, yun lang wala akong dalang car nun kaya he has to ride the bus with me. at e2 pa kung di ba naman talaga weirdo yung araw na yun, pagsakay namin ng bus papuntang baclaran, may commotion na nangyayare. well, apparently may sumakay sa bus na sinasakyan namin na isang lalaking hinahabol ng pulis. leche di ba? minsan na nga lang ako mag-commute ganito pa? pero keri lang adventure! hahaha wag lang may barilan. so, ayun na nga hinahabol pala sha ng pulis for the reason na hindi ko alam, basta ang alam ko kasama nia yung mga anak nia na hindi daw maayos na pinapalaki ng misis nia. hmpft, whatever. buti na lang at mahinahon naman shang sumama sa mga pulis kaya ok na rin. whew! hahaha oh well, naawa naman ako kay fren kasi hindi naman sanay yun ng long bus rides pero wala naman akong magagawa kasi umuulan so natural lang na traffic papasok ng Cavite. but we meet up with my mom who's at SM Bacoor by the time we got off the bus kaya sumabay na kami hanggang sa hausy. then at around 1030pm we got up and went to the same place we were last week. i had fun as usual. oo na inumaga na naman kami. heehehee i was home at 7:15 am. then whole day sunday i was just lying around, surfing the net, chatted with a few friends then by 5:30 pm nakatulog na ko ulit hanggang 8:30am today. huwaaaw. sarap. sana laging ganun.

and now i have a twisted ankle. sakit sha promise. kala ko nga wala lang yung pagka-dapa ko nun kasi i was able to walk with no problems at all nung saturday night, well i feel pain na nung sunday but i guess hindi ko mashadu napansin coz i just stayed in my room the whole day but when i got up today ayan na iika-ika na kong maglakad. haaaay. but it made me realize things you know, i'd rather experience that 10 times, sunod sunod wag lang ma-inlove ulit. mas kaya ko yung sakit na nadadapa eh, hahaha so, there.

PARANG ganito 'yung itchura ko when i tripped! hehehe or mejo malala pa jan. mas may poise pa nga 'tong babaeng 'to sa picture na ito eh, which is by the way LANEY from "She's All That".

wohooo!!! an hour and a half to go and we're outy! see that BIG SMILE ups there? hahaha 'dunno where my feet will take me later tonight but i know i'm gonna have fun! hahaha YEY! that's liberty for me..

don't read... wala 'tong sense

syet. umuulan sa labas. mahangin. ang lamig. haaay feel na feel ko tuloi mag-blog. hwehehe sarap sana kung may kayakap ka or may kasabay kang humahatching kasi pareho kaung may sipon. [eeew.] pero isn't that sweet? yung tipong may kasama ka sa lahat ng bagay? kasabay mong may sakit, sabay kaung higop ng chicken soup.. text all day, kasama mo kinig mushy songs or nuod horror movies, malling, read book, coffee sa starbucks o kahit jan na lang sa vendo sa pantry basta kasabay mo pa rin.. yung ganun? but sad to say wala akong ganyon. so sorry. haaay e2 na naman si ako nag-eemote na naman. itigil na nga yan. erase. erase. erase.

HMPFT! ayaw ma-delete. leche.

yaan mo na nga, ganun talaga eh. so anu bang pwedeng isulat? hmmm wala akong maisip. kanina sana meron pero dahil uber dami ng calls, nag-refresh ang photobucket hindi ko naisave ayun, nawala. buset. ganda pa naman nun. i'll write it na lang ulit some other time. or pwede din mamaya...

sabi ko habang sumusulat ako titingin ako sa labas ng bintana para kumuha ng inspirasyon, gudlak! wala akong makita kungdi grass and trees. isama mo na rin ang mga poste at kawad ng kuryente. buti nga umuulan wala yung mga baka at kambing ng magaling naming neighbor. ilang beses na yata shang topic sa mga meeting ng home owners na sana huwag niang hayaang pagala-gala ang mga pets nia. pero bingi ata at tila walang naririnig na pakiusap. aba eh sagabal sa daan no? lalu na pag-gabi na dadaan ako. kung wala lang akong puso sasagasaan ko na lang yung baka, iuuwe ko sa amin para may pang-ulam kami but i'm not like that naman... hehehe animal lover ako eh... tignan mo mga ex at ex-exan ko puro animal. hahaha joke lang po. hihihihi i'm so baaaad.

you know what? i feel ok naman na eh, somehow. masaya naman ako minsan lang talaga inaatake ng kagagahan but ika nga ni fren, PHASE lang ito. i have to let it reap and just go with the flow. i hafta deal with this nonsense shit to move forward. so, LET'S GO!!! hehehe sensha na sa mga avid readers ko [nakanaman. kapaaal.] wala shadu sense ang entry ng lola nio today. i'll try and put up my senses later..so, there.

tEaRS in hEAven :'(

kailangan kong i-share ito... hehehe i was at EDSA GUADALUPE nung marinig ko itong song na itO, mga 10:57pm nung napatingin ako sa relo:

TEARS in HEAVEN

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.
Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

'NYETA. tapos umuulan ulan pa... hay nakooo. kailan ba matatapos ang emote-emote na ito? hahaha i know, i know, ako at AKO lang ang makakapagsabi nun. pero hindi ko talaga mapigilan eh. hwehehe sorry lang. totoo talaga yung sabi nila eh, pag mejo malamig or maulan mas lalung napapa-inarte ang mga tao. tsk. sana summer na...