Friday, February 11, 2005

i've been hearing this cute song for the past days from the artist named HOKU. i like the rythm and its lyrics so much : ) hmmm i think this is a good song to dedicate to... you know who! hahaha which reminds me, i dreamed of him. *kilig* how i wish it was true, i'll consider myself the happiest gurl in the world.. nyeeee! EXAGGE! but, why not? naku kung totoo lang yun, grabe na itesh!!! dream on, antonia, DREAM ON. hehe one of these days i'll post her other song that i also love, You First Believe.
What You Need Is What You Get
If you belonged to me Nothing else would matter
I'd give you the moon and the stars On a silver platter
Kiss you the way you should be kissed
And show you the kind of love that you missed
So hear me Sweet babyMy heart won't lie
What you need is what you get
If you come to me I'll give you love you won't regret
I'll set you free If you believe like I believe
Boy, you know it's true Everythng you need
I'll give to you
You've been alone too long Baby, let me help you
Show you where your heart belongs
You know I'd love to
Give you one thousand reasons to stay
Be the light in my window
If you lose your way
So don't fear Baby, I'm right here
I'll never leave
What you need is what you get
If you come to me I'll give you love you won't regret
I'll set you free
If you believe like I believe Boy, you know it's true
Everything you need, I'll give to you
This is a promise you can keep
Just bring your broken heart to me
Baby, you know I'll always be
The one you've waited for
The girl you've dreamed of
Just let me in and you'll see

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

family affair

february 6, 2005. sunday. 7 am. ENDSHIFT RELEASE. kuya harley, [ate juvy and kids] picked me up in the office and was bounded to go to matabungkay, batangas to meet up with the rest of the family. well there have been a few stop overs before we arrived in batangas. first stop was in standard chartered bank in makati, i have to withdraw money of course, then off to JP Rizal and buy myself a SUN CELLULAR sim pack, which cost me, 250Php!!! if i had known better i would've waited till we got to imus and buy there instead. [180Php lang, grrrr.] after, we headed to our shop in mabolo, bacoor to pick up the cutting dies for delivery, [my dad just couldn't get enough of his work, na kahit nasa bakasyon trabaho pa rin ang nasa isip.] then bought about 10 kilos of ripe mangoes in imus public market. at about 845am we're in tagaytay and decided to eat breakfast at yellowcab. [some breakfast huh?!] yumyum. we finally arrived in batangas about quarter to 12 pm.
my dad and kuya abet played the welcoming committee : ) they were under the indian mango tree drinking coffee waiting for us. apparently, my mom, my aunts and uncles, my other pamangkins and cousins were already at the beach swimming. my original plan was to read my book, get some sleep before hitting the beach. the thing is, i got excited and just went there anyway, [yeah without sleeping!].
at the sight of the beach, i was in awe. i have never seen the water so clear [and clean] in my years of visiting the place. it was serene. i loved it! the sky was clear and the sun was up. dami pa food. hehe nagrent pa sila ng balsa! so even without sleeping, i swam and had fun. i even [voluntarily] babysit my sister and my pamangkins, whose ages ranged from 2-7 years old. i had the cutest pamangkins ever! there was mabel, rJ and jansen. the young ones who were swimming their hearts out were icOn, baby lOu, kyle, terrence, hannah and my brother CJ. included in the list of the old ones were aunt amy and uncle boy, kuya choi and ate margie, kuya harley and ate juvy, ate diday, my mom and myself.
we had lunch at around 2pm. after that, swimming ulit! : ) i even played in the sand and tried to get a tan. [haha ang artey talaga!] unfortunately, nobody noticed! tsk. hehe siguro kasi maitim na 'ko talaga so, walang effect! we got off the beach around 430 pm. everybody was pretty exhausted especially me, i was over 14 hours awake. then when we got back to the resthouse, we [me and my pamangkins] sang our favorite songs in the videoke my parents rented. so kahit pagod na pagod na 'ko, can i resist singing? NO WAY! then at 7pm we headed home back in cavite. well, not exactly coz we ate dinner at mc donald's tagaytay first. boy, was it COLD. brrrrr.
at 930pm we're finally home, went to sleep at 10 pm and i woke up at 12 noon the following day! whew! : ) so, there. my sunday outing with the whole family. i never expected to enjoy that day, i was thinking i might get bored or something but i didn't, i actually enjoyed every single minute of that day. i get to know more of my relatives and got close to them. sana maulit.
while i was swimming i was also observing everybody, and i thought to myself, good thing i have my family, intact and secured. i may not have the best family, as we also have shortcomings and imperfections, but i'm glad i'm part of this wonderful people who holds the love for each other so dearly. naisip ko tuloy, why am i asking for more? kailangan ko pa ba talaga ng special someone to go through my life? hmmm. well at some point siguro, but for now, kung hindi pa ukol, 'di hindi bukol. as simple as that.

Saturday, February 05, 2005

erase. erase. erase.

erase. erase. erase.

erase na dapat ang mga unwanted feelings. ang grumpiness, ang yappiness [if there's such a word].

it's my restday today. woohoo! and i'm off to batangas today. i hope to have a good quality time with my family. i'll buy a SUN simcard today. i opt to have fun and just be me. i'll read and finish ANGELS and DEMONS today : )
i know i can't have it all. i can't have things my way all the time. but i know someday, somehow my star will shine.
'eto lang, crush kO pa rin sha. walang masama : ) may sense? heeheeehee

grumpy 'ol me part II

i feel yappy. i slept for just 3 freaking hours! 'twas my fault though. i actually waited for my entire family to leave for batangas before i headed to my parent's bedroom to sleep. they left around 11am. i read a few pages from the book i was reading then at about 12 noon i slept.
240pm. cellphone vibrated, 1 message received. i got up to look who it came from and was surprised to see the name that appeared in my inbox -- MYRO. without second thoughts i read the message, he told me that he had called a few days ago but the line was busy and was also asking why i texted him last night. i answered right away[nanginginig-nginig pa : )] that yeah, i heard that he asked pie for my house number and asked him what is it that he wanted to talk about. reply received. he'd rather call me coz he's too lazy to type. he was asking for my SUN CELLULAR number. told him that i don't have a SUN number yet -- ending? he called our house number.
was i happy to hear his voice on the other line? was i surprised? was i excited? YES, YES and YES! but not for long. we have talked about, again, just about anything -- dogs, pie and eric, tina, grade school, highschool and college memories, past loves, blind dates and his girl.
now, i wonder why in the world would this guy call me up to talk about these things? i mean we haven't talk or seen each other for like ten years [after gradeschool] until last year when i met eric. got my point? possible answers:
a) he finds me friendly
b) i compliment his "kadaldalan"
c) he knows i like him
omg! i hope its not the last one. uuugh. i'd kill myself.
anyway going back, so there, we were going down the memory lane, talking about highscool and college professors, about playing BINGO in SM bacoor, yosi, common friends etc, etc, ETC when suddenly, i uttered " kamusta naman kayo ng girlfriend mo? 5 years na kayo this year right? " i wanted to kick myself for asking that,but later realized that i'm glad i did. otherwise this thing for him would go on and i may end up looking and feeling stupid for god knows how long. his answer? it was a good answer, his girl will love him more for it.
i have to admit, i felt a twinge of jealousy. hahaha. wait! hellew? what was i thinking? anyway, i think it's just normal. crush ko sha eh. whatever. so, there. we put the phone down i think around 4pm. i can't get back to sleep so what i did was read my book again. i tried to sleep for about an hour before going to work. set my alarm to 7pm but still, can't sleep. so at 620pm i got up and took a bath then went off to makati. yes. feeling grumpy and yappy. i dunno. i felt really bad after that phone call, i must say. i didn't know why it bothered me that much. oh no, no, no. it's not what you think. it's something else. oh well that's me, complicated - no - i tend to let simple things emerge into a more complicated situation. i think ahead of time and that i think what makes my head [and heart] hurt.
less than 10 minutes and i will have to answer [crappy] calls again. yep, i used my lunch break [again.] to write this entry : )

i am patiently [errr] waiting in vain.

for some odd reason, i dedicate this song to myself. not that i have a particular person to dedicate this song to, its just that i can relate to the song in general. i feel like all my life i have waited for the right person to come, unfortunately, nobody [that i think is the right person] came. i dunno if it's because i expect too much or i just tend to be too picky because of past experiences. i don't want to make a mistake [again for the nTH time!] and i'm so scared of rejection. so, here goes:
"Waiting In Vain"
From the very first time I rest my eyes on you, boy
My heart said follow through
But I know now that I'm way down on your line
But the waiting feeling's fine
So don't treat me like a puppet on a string
Because I know how to do my thing
Don't talk to me as if you think I'm dumb
I wanna know when you're gotta come, you see
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
'Cause summer is here - and I'm still waiting there
Winter is here - and I'm still waiting there
Like I said -It's been three years since I'm knocking on your door
And still I can knock some more
Ooh boy, ooh boy - is it crazy look, I wanna know now
For I to knock some more
You see
In life I know that there is lots of grief
But your love is my relief
Tears in my eyes burn Tears in my eyes burn
While I'm waitin' While I'm waitin' for my turn
You see
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
'Cause summer is here - and I'm still waiting there
Winter is here - and I'm still waiting there
Like I said
-I don't wanna, I don't wanna I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna wait in vain
I don't wanna, I don't wannaI don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna wait in vain
It's been three years since I'm knocking on your door
And still I can knock some more
Ooh boy, ooh boy - is it crazy look, I wanna know now
Like I said
-Tears in my eyes burn
Tears in my eyesburn
While I'm waiting While I'm waiting for my turn
You see Ooh boy, ooh boy - is it crazy look, I wanna know now
For I to knock some more
In life I know there is lots of grief
But your love is my relief

Friday, February 04, 2005

feeling highschool...

omg!!!
pie sent me a text message at around 730pm saying that my prince -- yes, my MYRO [haneeep.] texted her and asked for my landline! weeeeee : ) grabe my cheeks hurt. ' la lang. pagkabasa ko pa nga nung message napatalon pa 'ko and my mom saw me. kakahiya. she even told my dad, "haaay salamat, may boyfriend na si toni." uuuugh. wish ko lang. so, there. deadma lang ako but i was goddamn happy. nahalata nga yata ako ni pie when i replied to her message with questions like, anong number ang binigay nia and why was he asking for my landline. heeeheee i'm just not ready to tell her and eric na i'm crushing on myro. no, no, no i can't. not now. my god. *kilig*
ang ARTEY! : ) care ko ba? i'm so happy. so, should i expect a call? shempre dapat hindi PERO mapipigilan ba yun? haaay naku if so, anu naman kaya ang rason ng pagtawag niya? possible reasons:
a.) about my dogs
b.) bebentahan niya ko ng dog
c.) bebentahan niya ako ng car
d.) hingi din sha ng application form ng starbucks
e.) about his GF [huwag naman sana da vah?]
f.) about tina
g.) all of the above
... can't think of other reasons. i just wish i'm up when he calls para naman hindi ako manghinayang na tumawag pala siya at ako naman ay himbing na himbing sa aking pagtulog. ang pathetic noh?!

Thursday, February 03, 2005

OH WELL, ANOTHER SONG THAT BLOWS MY MIND NOWADAYS : ) BET YOU CAN GUESS WHY. WISH KO LANG HE KNOWS : P
A GIRL CAN DREAM
When I was a child the story would say
Somebody would sweep you off your feet someday
That's what I hoped would happen with you
More than you could know
I wanted to tell you that my heart's in your hands
I prayed for the day that I would get the chance
Just when I worked up the courage to try
Much to my surprise
You had somebody else
Cause these feelings
I keep to myself

I may never get to hold you so tight
I may never get to kiss you good night
I may never get to look deep in your eyes
Or so it seems
I always will be wishing you were mine
I think about what could be all the time
All the happiness that I could find
Baby, a girl can dream

From the moment I wake up
Till I fall asleep
I imagine you not with her
But with me
Talking and laughing
Sharing our dreams
It's just a fantasy
Cause you had somebody else
Cause these feelings
I keep to myself


A girl can dream it's true
And to call you my own
Is the sweetest dream you know

Oh a girl can dream

wala lang...

2 more days and its my restdays again. woohoo! i don't know what imma do on sunday or monday... i'm just soooo freakin' excited that i wouldn't hafta answer calls and give run-arounds : ) hmmm. what to do? what to do? probably on sunday morning when i go home, i would be attending mass with pie, eric and cire then sleep for a few hours then go to the mall. same old : )
oh well, as i always say, whatever will be, will be.
less than a minute and i'm on avail again. arrrrrgh. kainis.
know what? we have received an e-mail from the program director stating that we need to follow the EOP [english only policy]. duh? though may sense naman ung mga justifications nia why we need to follow such policy, pero i hope they understand, english is not our 1st language. it could be for some but not for most of us. and i think we would be more effective discussing some issues in tagalog para mas magkaintindihan. well whatever. corporate slave nga eh, so sunud-sunuran kami. haaaay.
remind me not to go down 7th floor ever again, please? ambaho eh. well not really, its just that mag-aamoy ulam ka rin pag-akyat mo. ang masama sandali lang naman kami ni jOsa dun eh! grrrr.
speaking of mah beautiful friend jOsa, i gave her access to my blog. i don't give access to everyone kasi but my closest friends. nakakahiya kasi, puro non-sense lang naman nakasulat here. hehehe : ) but anyway, enjoy naman ako mag-blog so far. lalu na pag natutunan ko na ung html and shit na yan. hehehe
sige na, till next time.

some random thoughts abOut me!

~ hindi ko kinakain lahat ng laman ng siOpao, ung tinapay lang : )

~ i eat spaghetti as it is served. [hindi ko hinahalO.]

~ i try to please everybody, though i know i can't!

~ sobra akong ma-guilty. [grrrr, hate it, hate it.]

~ i'm finding it hard to say "NO" most of the time.

~ i hate ampalaya, okra and talaba -- i don't like steaks and lechon baboy.

~ i drive good on automatic vehicles but can go 'gaga' sa manual na car : )

~ first time kong pumasok ng casino nung January 30, 2005.

~ frustrated singer and video jock! [asa pa 'kO?]

~ i am a fan of JAY-R and J.E sison! [yiheeeee.]

~ mas gusto ko pa ung car gazing kesa boy hunting!

~ mas gusto kong naka-sneakers palagi.

~ my longest relationship was only for 3 months. [ganda da vah?]

~ i can sleep up to 24 hours. [during my restdays, of course.]

so there : )

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

baby pink and baby blue

i can't think of anything to write.
must be what they call "writer's block". nah. i don't think so. i'm not even a writer. so there. haaay. i dunno. i just wanted to go home and sleep. [anu barge? lagi na lang may ganitong comment bawat entry ko pansin nio?] : )
i wonder where my prince is at... *yuck, baduy!* anyway, as of this time i had took 23 calls with 5 minutes and 45 seconds talk time. pretty good stats huh? wait till you see it with my hold time and acw! malamang nasa 7 or 8 minute mark na naman ako. sheesh. and 8 minutes from this time avail na ulit ako. yep. lunch is over. back to taking calls again. *haaaaay*. if tina was here she wouldn't like that. she doesn't like it when i SIGH. as if mapipigilan un? oh well, nasanay na 'kong ganun eh, must be the anxiety and stress i feel everyday. whatever.

why do i sense that something's about to happen in a few days? i'm just not sure if it's going to be good or bad. well i hope it's good, after all i think i deserve good karma. hmmm ano kaya itO? wish ko lang, something that will change my life forever. [haneeeeep, kinaya mu ba yun?!] sana lang it would be something na i can be proud of or something that is worth dealing with. whatever will be, will be.

in about two weeks i'll be sleeping back in my room! weeeeeee! aunt amy and uncle boy will go back to detroit on the 15th. i'll have my room all to myself again! yahoo! may time na 'kong ayusin ulit ung room ko, put my star stuffs and everything! so there. BLAH.

sing alOng with mOi!

while i was on my way here at the office, listening to my favorite radio station [WAVE 89.1], i heard this beautiful song by mariah carey. i sang to it like nobody's looking : ) wala lang namang tint ung car ko hehehe but i didn't care! so sing with me...
Dreamlover
I need a lover to give me
The kind of loveThat will last always
I need somebody uplifting To take me away
I want a lover who knows me
Who understands how I feel inside
Someone to comfort and hold me
Through the long lonely nights Till the dawn
Why don't you take me away
Dreamlover come rescue me Take me up take me down
Take me anywhere you want to baby now I need you so desperately
Won't you please come around 'Cause I wanna share forever with you baby
I don't want another pretender
To disillusion me one more time Whispering words of forever
Playing with my mind I need someone to hold on to
The kind of love that won't fly away
I just want someone to belong to
EverydayOf my live Always So come and take me away
Dreamlover come rescue me
Take me up take me down
Take me anywhere you want to baby now
I need you so desperately
Won't you please come around
'Cause I wanna share forever with you baby

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

bits of me : )


LAYER 0NE: 0N THE 0UTSIDE
Name: tOni
Birthday: june 3, 1981
Current location: Makati
Hair color: Brown
LAYER TW0: 0N THE INSIDE
Your fears: growing old alone
Your perfect pizza: lotsa pepperoni and cheese! yum
Goal you'd like to achieve: happiness and success.
LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, T0DAY,T0M0RR0W
Your most overused phrase: whatever, ___ chorva, well, what do you know? : )
Your best physical feature: wala eh. hehee does SMILE counts?
Your bedtime: about 8am in the morning.
Your most missed memories: grade school, highschool and college memories.
LAYER F0UR: Y0UR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonald's
single or group dates: group dates
special someone right now: special sha kaya lang hindi nia alam. [sneeky huh?!]
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: COFFEE
LAYER FIVE: D0 Y0U/ARE Y0U
Smoke: nope.
Single: yep.
Have a crush: yes!!!
Think you're in love:hmm, give me a month, malamang ma-inlove na 'ko! haha
Want to get married: but of course!
Get motion sickness: nope.
Think you're attractive: nope.
Think you're a health freak: nope.
Get along with your parents: yup yup!
Like thunderstorms: YES.
LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST M0NTH
Drank alcohol: yes.
Gone on a date: yes.
Gone to the mall: always.
Been on stage: yep.
Eaten an entire box of oreos: no.
Eaten sushi: once lang.
skating: never.
Stolen anything: yeah.
LAYER SEVEN: HAVE Y0U EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: nope.
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope.
Been caught: caught doing what?
Gotten beaten up: no
LAYER EIGHT: GETTING 0LDER
Age you hope to be married: i honestly can't answer that question, sorry.
How do you want to die: in my slumber.
What country would you most like to visit: paris, france
LAYER NINE: IN A GAL/GUY
Best eye color?: brown
Best hair color?: black
height: ayoko ng super tangkad sa 'kin, ok lang kahit 1 inch to 2 inches taller than i am.
Best first date location: tagaytay
First kiss location: underneath the stars... *kilig*
LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people I could trust with my Life: 3
Number of CD's I own: 'di ko na mabilang eh.
Number of piercings: 1 in each ear
Number of ex boy/girlfriends: 3.

sLEepyhEAD

13 hours of sleep... beat that! bet you can't, hehe well ganyan lang naman kahaba ang tinulog ko nung monday. well, after hitting the mall on monday afternoon, we [pie, eric, cire and me] went home at around 4pm. my good 'ol lil brother mike [ who's not so little : )] picked us up at SM bacoor, so there, i got home, read a few pages from the book i was reading, i think at around 5pm nakatulog na ako. i promised pie that i'd go and hang out at their place at night but noOo. i was asleep till 7am, tuesday!!! grabe di ba?! i heard my dad ask my mom, "humihinga pa ba yan?" kaya ako bumangon. haha. masama nga lang, hindi na 'ko natulog ulit which is i think the reason why i feel dizzy now. oh yes, i'm here at work trying to stay as calm as i can with my stupid callers. haaaay. same old, same old.
know what?! i wanna go home and sleep. as in sleep lang talaga, or daydream about my prince -- my cute little prince : ) asan kaya siya ngayon? i bet nasa silang pa rin or nasa friend's house drinking to death. wish i know where he is or what he's doing.. errr so highschool! : ) carry lang. i don't mind. heeheehee nako mamaya jan kasama niya pala ung kanyang one and only. yeah, meron shang GF! [so, asa pa 'ko?] and they're going to celebrate their 5th year anniversary this year! [tama na! selos ako!] haaaaay. so, there. 'nuff said.
valentines day na naman... bitter na naman akO. hehe though i'm trying hard not to be affected by the season pero eto, first day pa lang ng february emOte na kagad : ) i was at the mall at around 12 noon and ngayon pa lang, stores are surrounded and are decorated by valentine thingys. kainis da vah?! well, okay lang coz i'm gonna spend "the day" with my friends sa bahay namin sa batangas. yun nga lang may catch: 2 pairs iyun. si tina and atong at si reah and hapon. so, referee ba itO? nakuuu.. wag na wag lang nilang isama yung nirereto nila sa akin, uuwi talaga ako! bahala sila dun. swear. bad no? oh well. la lang.
i hope to see my cute little prince on valentine's day, haaay nga pala nasa batangas ako nun, well kahit maka-receive na lang ako ng text message greeting from him. pwede na siguro un : ) anu barge?! heto na naman ako, ginagawang tanga ang sarili. whatever.
my gosh, i'm soooo bored.

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